Last night I kept hearing loud bangs. Apparently, according to the news these bangs are caused from the frigid temperatures and everything popping, seriously?
It sounded like an explosion...woke me up, made me jump by the third one I heard, this is not very cool at all because it sounded like it was my house cracking and crumbling
I get that when hitting level 80, I automatically get removed from my mentorship which I hit level 80 and that happened but now because I'm out of the mentorship, I am back down to 79.29, flipping crap!!!
Seriously, think that this needs to be looked after because how many others go through this if they want to level up...utter crap!!
And no I am not starting a mentorship because I think there are way too many as it is:-)
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I didn't know you were automatically removed from mentorships at level 80. Hmmm, seems like there should definitely be a different way on that one. My leveling is horrible, I go up and down the same amount every other day. But I don't do a whole lot of rating, only returns mostly.
Yes I knew i was going to automatically be taken out of my mentorship but that made me drop so shouldn't I be in the mentorship again, lol. I know it doesn't work that way but in Zoraya's little world it would:-)
I used to go up and down too because I never rated, that has changed over the past year, I rate when I can and often
The same thing happened with my rlugo718 prof when I reached sire. I kept going up and down.
^^^ "That what she said"....Ha! I'm so pervy! ^_^
Opened the package. I got 3 months supply of the multi vitamin packs for women, 4 lip glosses called Passion and 4 Derma base for lines on the face.
OK, so I need the vitamins because I take vitamins daily anyway. Lip gloss is great especially if I plan on kissing in the future which I do, I have someone in mind, sorry fellas, I can now say I'm spoken for.
The derma base, OK yes I am 46 and although I don't use anything on my face for anti aging, I'll give this stuff a shot, I mean it's free so why the hell not.
I read that the women in the Romany culture (Gypsies) if you don't know what Romany is, they collect the dew in the morning and put this on their faces. Now I know a few Romany and their skin is beautiful. They also collect rain water and wash their hair in it. I would do this too but I have Dow Chemical up the road from me and the Semi Conductor and well I don't think the rain would be that clean, it's pretty nasty. I always see lots of smoke bellowing from their chimney stacks.
I should reiterate Midland is quite a ways from me where Dow Chemical is but their sister company is about 10 minutes away from where I live. Not cool when they have a chemical leak, it has happened a few times that we had to evacuate due to this.
Moving is a good idea but I'll miss the wild life that is around me. I have deer and black squirrels. I also have foxes and coyotes. A black bear was once in the area but has moved on. People also talk about BigFoot, seriously!! I don't know if I buy into the whole BigFoot thing but there are neighbors here that swear they saw the big hairy guy.
I wrote two entries today, guess I have stuff on my mind. Now to go work on my Book of Shadows.
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I once worked with a guy who might have qualified as big foot..
BOS work...Awesome!
RD, that's sketchy and creepy, I'd call him Chewbacca more than Bigfoot, Star Wars referencing is something I like to do.
LM, My daughter needed a binder that was pretty big, my BOS binder is huge so I gave it to her and now my BOS is a bit of a mess. I put it together neatly and rewrote some of the things from when I was 19, good grief, I laughed at some of my writings...I'm glad I kept most of the stuff.
Last night's sleep was anything but restful. Tossed and turned all night. Felt like someone kicked me in my side. I sleep alone!!
Andraste barked at the bathroom late again, I know it's creepy and shit happens in there but I figure if they let me be, I'll let them be. However, bruise on side, WTF?? Think perhaps I might have made the spirits mad by stating I was moving...OH well, deal with it, hahahaa. Side really hurts though.
Mailman was here, I got a package. Class Action against Amway and now I have a box full of products, way cool because the vitamins alone were over $50. Very cool!! The Goddess and God look out for me and I am very appreciative of their love and support.
Reading Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil since I am Savannah bound. I have read this book before and saw the movie.
University called again, I am getting very excited, almost done!!
Roman Reigns is my eye candy for the week:-P
I love my dog but there are times that she drives me insane, she's a Mastiff/Shepherd mix. She enjoys the outdoors and I let her run in the yard, 2 acres, that's a lot to cover.
It's very cold out and with these frigid temps and then add the wind chill factor in, I cannot let her stay out for too long so she comes in and runs throughout my house.
Time to go play tug of war with her...
Wishing I wouldn't have but I did, oh well can't change it nor will I regret it.
Bri is sick. Took her to the doctor, something has to be done but perhaps science will catch up before she's too old to have a normal life.
University called, I am all set, I had no idea that I have won 10 awards already from the professors of some of my classes. I got my transcripts and the awards won are listed, that's BAD ASS!! Way to go ME!! Physics, Statistics, Macro and Micro Economics, Entrepreneurship, Business Law, and some others.
I like someone, he likes me, life is good!!
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Yes way to go you....very proud of you
thanks I am too, these awards will be read off before I accept my diploma.
#TeamAWESOME!!! ^_^
Well today started out crappy, had a headache, headache is gone but dealing with other crap.
I'm fine just get mad about certain things, I'm a female and we live in a male dominated world, it sucks but that's the way of it.
I do not apologize for being strong willed and independent!!!
I am not easily fooled:-)
Tonight should be better, the weather sucks but my bad mood has lifted
I have never ever been a woman who has built a world around a guy. I have never ever thought I needed a man to be happy. Don't get me wrong, I love men and I hope to someday fall in love again but again, I'm not the type of woman to go gaga or any other word you wish to use over any man. It takes time to build trust, it takes time to get to know a person, and to fall in love. I don't take it lightly and I sure in the hell do not fall for stuff over the Internet. That's just who I am and what I am about, I don't judge others but for me, I am not that way.
I have a friend that has been pining over the same man for a good 10 years. Every time she pulls away, he reels her back in, breaks her heart, and then she gets super depressed.
Nothing I say to her will help and she's my friend but it's got to stop. She has wasted so much on this man and she's not like me, I get that. I'm strong minded, I'm independent, I learned to be early on in my life.
I just feel bad for her but she's seriously draining me like an energy sucking vampire. I have said this to her so it's nothing new or secretive. I've called her an energy vamp before. She sucks the life out of her friends because of this infatuation/obsession she has. I hear it on a daily basis how she cannot live without him and if he doesn't want her, she doesn't want to live, blah, blah, blah. He's a total mindfuck for her, sad but it is what it is. I have told her that she needs to get out, meet others but no she wants him.
I just wish I could say something to ease her sorrow but no it's not happening and quite frankly I'm exhausted.
I finally told her enough is enough!! And guys like the one she is dealing with need to grow up and stop raising a woman's hopes and then dash them. Keep them hanging on like a fish on a hook only to throw them back in the water.
I realize he's not the only one at blame, she is too for letting it continue...Me, i would have said Get out of my life, I don't need your sorry ass but then again that's me and not her.
It's a fucked up situation that I need to wash my hands of. I have basically told her, I'm still her friend but when it comes to this whatever it is for this guy, leave me out of it. I'm done!!!
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You have done all you could for your friend. He has a hold on her that until she realizes it....Nothing can be done for her. Vamps like him see her only was a possession. Unfortunately she is not strong enough to see it. You cannot allow her to drain you.
When I am on here, I keep to myself. I do my own thing. I have friends I talk to and then I spend time in my House posting, sometimes i post in the forums, and I also spend time in the Vampire Database. I also like to read the journals.
I am drama free, like it that way!! I know that it's sometimes difficult to do so in my life, I have a teenage daughter so when I come on VR, it's to escape the daily grind and to thrust myself into articles, journals, and forums.
I am not a mean person, I am not vindictive, or conniving, but if crossed, I can be an evil, ruthless bitch. This is true for any woman!!!
What others do on here is purely their own business not mine!!
Just putting that out there...
And being blocked, well that's OK too, don't know why, but hey if it works for you, that's OK with me, you're probably not worth my friendship anyway!!!
Michigan has always had messed up weather so why should this year be any different.
We went from a really nice day yesterday to sleet and now high winds of 50 miles are on their way, should make for an interesting next couple of days. I'm looking forward to thunderstorms and lightning clouds, bring on the spring time weather, love storm watching.
The sleet today made it gloomy looking but even I found beauty in it. Listening to the sleet hit the window was cool.
I have everything put away outside, such as the two shovels so that the winds won't blow them away. Made sure the garbage cans and recycle bins are tied down as well, yeah I'm ready so Mother Nature do what you must, I'm prepared!!
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This is your favorite asshole my dear....I am tired of this warm and sunny weather....I want some clouds and gloom.
LOL my favorite asshole??? Michigan is all doom and gloom!!!
My daughter asked for Swiss steak the way my mother used to make it.
She got the recipe from a Pennsylvania Dutch cookbook but instead of steak, I used chicken tonight but you take one part brown sugar and one part ketchup and mix it together. Dice some onions and throw it in a baking pan over top the chicken and bake for 45 minutes on 350.
I don't make this often because it's too rich and high in calories but once in a while we deserve a treat:-)
I put the mixture over mashed potatoes. I'm going to have to workout for more than half an hour tomorrow after this meal tonight!!
Came across this today when I was doing some research.
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ROTFL. that was great!!!!
Yeah I laughed at it as well
I have Alpha Thalassemia, it's a blood disease, I also have celiac disease, I always knew I was allergic to wheat, rye, and barley at an early age. I was always sickly and when I had these things eliminated from my diet, I was getting better. I always crave steak, the bloodier the better, I crave red meat, always have always will.
I have a thing for blood. Do these things make me a vampire, NO, I do not believe that. I just think I crave these things because of my genetic makeup, my lack of iron and the need for sustenance. I am limited to what I can eat and I will not give up my meat..
Medical Vampirism: Could YOU be one?!
There is no evidence - scientific, medical or otherwise, that points 100 percent to the existence of 'real' vampires - just as there is not 100 percent proof for the existence of God but people still believe in 'Him', so why not the existence of living breathing vampires? Unlike tangible evidence for God, there are, however, a couple of real medical conditions that result in vampiric appearance or behavior (though real vampires may be loathe to entertain the idea that they are what they are due to a disease). The reason real vampires are not widely accepted is simply due to lack of information about the different viruses that cause 'medical vampirism'.
Most people may know, due to knowledge of fictional vampires, many of the vampires' characteristics are considered to be more highly evolved than 'ordinary' people. These include increased strength and speed, enhanced mental and/or psychic abilities and the ability to digest human (and animal) blood more easily than the mainstream population. The reason for these differences is that human DNA is changed by this 'vampire' virus that is transmitted through infection. However, just like HIV does not always turn into AIDS, not everyone who is infected with this virus develop vampire characteristics.
The name of this 'vampire disease' is porphyria, which is a rare metabolic disorder caused by imbalances in the production of heme, a iron containing pigment in the blood. Porphyria is hereditary, so this may account for concentrations in certain areas of vampire cases in folklore throughout history. Porphyria is actually a collective name for seven rare diseases that were first identified in the nineteenth century. People with more severe forms of porphyria are highly sensitive to sunlight, one of the major characteristics associated with vampires. Though there is no evidence of this, one possible treatment for porphyria in the past might have been to drink blood, to correct the heme imbalance in the body. A further identifying characteristic that gives sufferers the association with vampires is that the gums recede and increase the amount shown of the canine teeth, giving a 'fanged' appearance. It is also interesting to note that certain chemicals, such as those found in garlic can make porphyria symptoms worse by activating heme destroying enzymes in our bodies, and this can be fatal to porphyria victims. Another medical condition, anemia, at extreme levels causes victim's skin to appear very pale as a result of the hemoglobin deficiency in the blood, yet another characteristic associated with vampires.
However, rare disorders like porphyria are only possible explanations for the existence of these creatures of the night.
There are a number of other, emotional and personality traits that are associated with the real vampire, but are also found in ordinary human behavior. Real vampires do not have only a couple of these specific traits, but a majority, and they are distinguished from 'regular' people by relating to energy in a specific way which makes them stand out vividly to anyone who comes in contact with them. Most people probably know someone who is a vampire, without consciously knowing it, only sensing something unique about them. Physically, vampires are usually 'night owls', and they have body cycles such as temperature peaks, menstruation, and the production of sleep hormones in the brain occurring at the opposite time of day from most people, as well as difficulty adjusting to daytime schedules and frequently work nights.
As stated earlier, they are highly sensitive to sunlight, becoming sunburnt easily, and they have excellent night vision. Their energy levels can fluctuate immensely going from energetic one day, to lethargic the next.
Real vampires frequently have digestive problems as well as many issues with food that are based in their constant quest for pranic energy. Contrary to the romantic image of the vampire as thin, many real vampires are troubled by obesity because their constant quest for energy (which food obviously is the main energy source of people). They also have a digestive system that is sluggish in processing solid food, and for these reasons they can sometimes troubled by other substance addictions. However, since their systems are tuned to pranic energy more than to processing physical substance, they may have a higher tolerance to drugs and alcohol than ordinary people.
Emotionally vampires are unpredictable, moody, temperamental and overwhelming. The major distinguishing characteristic of real vampires, as opposed to ordinary people who share those qualities, is the vampire's extreme intensity. Vampires are often described as attention seeking, clingy and needy, draining/exhausting and egotistical etcetera by people who know them.
Like blood-drinking vampires, psychic vampires also feel the need to "feed" on the energy they require to function properly on a regular basis, and many report physical feelings of discomfort if they are not able to obtain a sufficient source of this energy. Symptoms of this type of deprivation include extreme fatigue, depression, mood swings, an increased susceptibility to illnesses, uncontrollable 'feeding' of random targets as they are unable, or to weak to focus properly on one target, insomnia, anxiety and negative reactions from others close to the psychic vampire. If they do not feed, these vampires claim they will become weak as if they had not eaten.
Symptoms that one is a psychic vampire include similar fluctuations such as: mood swings, dizziness, fluctuating energy levels, headaches, and a intense feeling of draining energy or emotions from others. The method psychic vampires use typically is to drain life-force energy from people or other living objects through meditation and concentration.
Of all vampires, unconscious psychic vampires (those not aware of what they are) tend to be most noticeable to ordinary people, who see them as insecure yet demanding, and basically 'all over the map' with their emotions. These types of vampires are most likely to have a disruptive effect on themselves and the network of friends and family members around them, due to their extreme emotional fluctuations, until they come to some kind of understanding of what they are.
Many real vampires revel in traditional vampire myth and folklore, at the same time trying to debunk this fictional representation of who and what they are in their writings. Real vampires often use viral and scientific explanations for their behavior and lifestyle, as it is a popular way of trying to come to terms with what they are.
If you have taken anything away from reading this, it should be that the virtues of patience and knowledge, as well as awareness, and control are what real vampires must learn in order to harness their abilities and deal with their unique lifestyle. At the same time, it is these same lessons that ordinary people must take on board when dealing with real vampires
http://www.brokendownhalo.aftn.co.uk/medical.html
Real Vampires
by Inanna Arthen
http://www.earthspirit.com/fireheart/fhvampire.html
"Real Vampires"-how can this be anything but a contradiction in terms? We all know about vampires. Stock characters of fiction, guaranteed box-office draws, the media vampire has been familiar to us since childhood. Generally speaking, our blood-suckers appear with a tongue planted firmly in one toothy cheek-from Bela Lugosi hamming it up in the 1950's, to last summer's teenage "vamp" movies, to Count Chocula breakfast cereal, the media seldom treat the vampire as truly fearsome. The stereotyped vampire traits are familiar to any child: vampires have big fangs, sleep in coffins, are instantly incinerated by sunlight, and are best dispatched by a stake through the heart. But the most important "fact" that we all know of course is that there are no such things.
Of course, in terms of the mythical, literary and cinematic conventions, we are correct: there are no "legions of the undead" stalking the unwary. We have explained the folklore with politics, misunderstood diseases, and hysteria, the literary and cinematic images with psychology, history, and sociology. We of the 20th century are confident that vampires could not really exist. But then, most of us are never forced to think otherwise. For a number of people, the concept of vampires becomes a critical and often lifelong concern. To live with, love, or befriend a real vampire is to encounter a set of problems which may demand expanding the boundaries of one's accepted reality. To come to terms with being a real vampire oneself is to face a lifetime's karmic challenge.
Some people reading this article already know this. The rest are probably thinking, "Real Vampires, give me a break! Sure, there are some pretty weird people out there, but all they need is a good therapist." Yes, there are people who take on all the trappings of a gothic novel: dressing in black, claiming or pretending to be "vampires" in the supernatural sense, wearing capes, sleeping in boxes, even getting their teeth capped. There are more frightening people who seek to torture or kill animals or human beings in order to gain power, emotional release or sexual thrill, and who sometimes call themselves (or are called) "vampires". But most of these individuals are troubled people who have been attracted by the cultural myths about the vampire: supernatural powers (because they feel powerless), overwhelming sexuality (because most of them have sexual issues and no true relationships), immortality (because they fear aging and death). Individuals like these are the most recent "explanation" for humanity's persistent belief in vampires. But beyond and behind all the folklore, the psychological theories, the role playing, even the traditional spiritual assumptions, lies the real truth about vampires.
The field of vampirology is complex and mysterious. There are many aspects to the vampire phenomenon, and they would require several books to fully explore. One aspect of vampirism which frequently troubles magickal, spiritual and other small groups, the most common form of vampire, is found among living people who share with us the benefits and disadvantages of physical existence on this plane, yet are not quite human. These people appear on the surface to be somewhat eccentric members of society, yet their outward idiosyncrasies only hint at how different they are from those around them.
Each of us incarnates for a lifetime with a certain way of relating to the physical world through the vehicle of our physical body. A vampire is a person born with an extraordinary capacity to absorb, channel, transform, and manipulate "pranic energy" or life force. She also has a critical energy imbalance which reels wildly from deficit to overload and back again. This capacity for handling energy is a gift, but the constant imbalance of her own system is the cause of the negative behavior patterns and characteristics which may be notable about a vampiric person.
Real vampires do not necessarily drink blood-in fact, most of them do not. Blood-drinking and vampirism have been confused to the extent that for the average person, a vampire is defined as something that drinks blood (such as a "vampire bat"). But when we look beyond casual assumptions to the details of common beliefs, we find something quite different. Throughout both folklore and literature, there is an understanding that vampires require energy or life force. Many old folktales accept that vampires suck blood, yet never describe this actually happening. The victims slowly decline and waste away, and the survivors assume that some evil fiend is draining them of blood. They know that the Bible says, "the blood is the life", and anyone who was losing their life force must be losing blood. Yet, in many instances the vampire's "attack" does not even involve physical contact. In others, it is clearly sexual energy which is exchanged.1
Fresh blood is the highest known source of pranic energy (life force).2 Human beings have practiced blood-drinking for many reasons throughout history, but drinking blood alone does not indicate that a person is a vampire. Only real vampires can directly absorb the pranic energy in fresh blood, and for this reason some real vampires are attracted to blood and find different means of obtaining it.3 However, it is a rare vampire who cannot absorb energy in much more subtle ways. This is the mechanism that causes real vampires to inflict harm on others and themselves if they fail to recognize what is happening and do conscious work on transforming their inner natures. Vampires are no more likely to be either malicious or spiritually aware than the general population, but without awareness, they can spend their lives making themselves and others unhappy, and will continue to incarnate in this pattern until they take action to change it.
There are a number of external symptoms of vampirism, but it is important to realize that some of them are found in ordinary human behavior. Real vampires are identifiable partly because they have a majority of the symptoms, not just one or two. But more significantly, real vampires are distinguished by a certain quality to the energy. While anyone reading a description of the symptoms and behavior patterns might find a few that apply to people he knows, or even to himself, real vampires have a way of standing out vividly to everyone who interacts with them. There are few people who do not know at least one vampire.
Physically, vampires are usually "night people"" on a biochemical level. They have inverted circadian rhythms, with body cycles such as temperature peaks, menstrual onset, and the production of sleep hormones in the brain occurring at the opposite time of day from most people. They have difficulty adjusting to daytime schedules and frequently work nights. They tend to be photosensitive, avoiding sunlight, sunburning easily, and having excellent night vision. Their vitality ranges widely, and they can be vigorous and active one day, depressed and languorous the next.
They frequently have digestive trouble. Even those with cast-iron stomachs have many issues with food that are rooted in their constant hunger for energy. Contrary to the image of the vampire as thin, many real vampires are troubled by obesity because of a hunger that makes them food addicts, and a system that is sluggish in processing physical food. They are also sometimes troubled by other substance addictions for the same reasons, but since their systems are tuned to pranic energy more than to processing physical substance, they may not be as sensitive to drugs and alcohol as an ordinary person would be.
Emotionally and physically, vampires are unpredictable, moody, temperamental and overwhelming. The major distinguishing characteristic of real vampires as opposed to ordinary people who share those qualities is the vampire's intensity. Vampires are extremely intense people. They are frequently given nicknames such as "the black hole." When others talk about them (usually to complain about them), vampires are often described by such terms as "needy," "attention-seeking," "grandstanding," "manipulative," "exhausting," "draining," "monopolizes the conversation," "jealous," "huge ego," and so on. A vampire's emotions are deep, fervent, and powerful, and she usually displays great psychic ability and has uncontrolled magickal and psychic experiences. Vampires are also empaths, and while they remain unconscious of their natures, they are frequently "psychic sponges" who simply absorb vibrations from everywhere, with the expected emotional instability resulting.
A "hungry" vampire -- one whose energy level is imbalanced to the deficit side -- becomes an involuntary psychic vortex, drawing all pranic energy in the area towards her. When the energy does not flow in fast enough -- and it is typical of vampires that the energy never flows fast enough for them -- she will begin manifesting behavior patterns to increase the amount of conscious attention she gets from others. For this reason, some vampires develop a pattern of being aggressively confrontational, or of constantly antagonizing people with whom they have relationships. Nearly all vampires, whatever ploys they use, have a talent for attracting (or distracting) the attention of everyone present.
Once a vampire overloads on energy, she reverses her behavior patterns. She may become morose, silent, withdrawn and introverted. Some vampires become maniacally cheerful when they are satiated, but even their good moods seem to annoy others, and it is more typical for vampires to be infamous as wet blankets. "Hungry" and "overload" phases can occur within a few minutes or last for days at a time. Vampires are commonly loners, in part because they feel so different from those around them, but also because they have a need to control the degree of contact they have with sources of energy.
Real vampires are not the demonic fiends of Christianized folklore, but as long as they refuse to accept their inner nature, their bad reputation is not undeserved. Unconscious vampires have a tendency to reach adulthood with less than the average level of social skill and general finesse, and tend to be selfish and self-centered. The demands of their own energy systems are so distracting to them that it is difficult for them to pay attention to the needs of others. Their relationships tend to be disasters. Different vampires develop different patterns according to what works best for them in their life situation, but several patterns are common. The "femme fatale" or "lady-killer" vampire forms a continuous series of sexual connections with one partner at a time, dropping each unfortunate lover as they become too exhausted (or defensive) to support the vampire's energy needs. Other vampires form a long-term relationship with a single person: either another vampire whose energy cycle complements their own, or a person who derives satisfaction from being a psychic servant or martyr. A common pattern, especially in young adults, is to continuously join social, religious, political and magickal groups and either blow them apart or end up being thrown out. Vampires may go through roommates, housing situations, magickal groups, jobs and lovers like so much Kleenex.
Many people find that they feel "creepy" or "weird" around a vampire. This is usually due to the effects of one's own life force being drawn towards the vampire's vortex. Most people feel uncomfortable and distracted when their energy is pulled away from themselves. In addition to this, a common result of such an energy drain is for the aura to pull in tightly towards the body, and this causes a prickling sensation on the skin -- the "creepy-crawlies."
It is no more common for vampires to be psychopaths or killers than it is for any random person on the street. However, a prolonged, or very involved, relationship with a vampire can put a severe strain on the emotional and psychic energy systems of an ordinary person. Folklore suggests that victims of a vampire become vampires themselves. In reality, people who have been seriously "drained" -- that is, have had their own energy pulled off balance into a deficit -- also become psychic vortices which pull life force away from other living things. However, they are never as powerful as a true vampire, and unlike vampires, quickly recover and stabilize. True vampires are born the way they are -- no one can be "turned into a vampire." However, years of energy depletion can lead to health problems ranging from depression and malaise to a suppressed immune system and susceptibility to serious illnesses. Most people will break off the relationship before it gets that far.
Many vampires are attracted to magickal paths. In a magickal working group, their ability to wreak havoc is increased because of the psychic openness and trust that exist there. But there can be a benefit, as well. Some vampires become aware of their true natures and choose to undertake serious work to transform themselves. As soon as they begin doing so, they become more acceptable working partners and companions. Once in control of their capacity for handling energy, they become extraordinary magicians and healers. Their ability to hold the attention of others gives them the potential to be fine leaders and teachers. Ultimately, the purpose of vampires is not to plague the universe but to facilitate its healing. Vampirism is the dark, or unfocused, side of a certain kind of psychic talent, one which has been developing for many lifetimes. It is destructive only when a vampire either refuses to face the truth about herself and work with her abilities, or when she chooses to play out a sinister role because of the illusion of power it gives her.
Because of this, many of the vampire characteristics described above are far less evident in the most powerful vampires, the ones who have done considerable work on their inner selves. Many of these are poised, pleasant, competent individuals, with great personal power. They have come to terms with who and what they are, and no longer exhibit the negative qualities associated with "psychic vampirism." 4 Unfortunately, unconscious vampires are far more common than evolved ones, and it is these troubled souls who more usually appear in magickal groups.
There is no "generic advice" to give those who believe they may be dealing with a real vampire. Those who are so inclined might try to help a friend or fellow group member explore their inner nature and come to terms with their destructive behaviors. Those who feel victimized can choose to end the relationship. Each case is different, and can only be judged by the individuals concerned. But it is important for anyone involved in magickal or psychic work to understand that vampires are a real phenomenon, and that, like all perils, they should not be greeted with fear or anger. Nothing is evil by nature -- only by choice. Terror of discovery (followed by ridicule or rejection) inhibits the self-development of many real vampires. When they reach out for friendship, they are often reaching out for help.
A person who believes she may be a real vampire herself has a long and difficult process ahead of her. The most important step on her path is complete self-awareness: of her relationships, patterns, energy levels, and all other personal qualities. The most challenging work may often be summarized in the simplest of terms. Knowledge, awareness, and control are the lessons real vampires must learn in order to harness their abilities. If real vampires are not the immortals of fiction, they can at least be confident of one thing: for better or worse, they will keep the qualities they develop for many lives to come.
(The author welcomes inquiries from readers with a personal interest in the subject of vampirism. She is available at vyrdolak@bylightunseen.net. Readers wishing for more information about vampire lore in general are referred to the Bibliography.)
NOTES
For a thorough examination of traditional vampire folklore, see the works of Montague Summers and Anthony Masters.
Other high sources of pranic energy include semen, fresh fruits and vegetables, and the breath of living animals. Meat -- filled with chemicals, long dead, refrigerated, frozen and "aged" (partially decomposed) as it is -- contains almost none. Many real vampires, aside from drinking blood, are vegetarians.
For a somewhat flawed but interesting look at blood-drinking and vampirism, see Stephen Kaplan. Leonard Wolf explores this subject from a more philosophical and personal viewpoint.
This is not to suggest that even evolved vampires are always comfortable to be around. They remain unpredictable, intense, emotional, and altogether overwhelming personalities. Most are remarkable sexually, and all still draw energy, although they can generally control this to some extent. Furthermore, this article is not intended to mislead -- real vampires, even evolved ones, do sometimes drink blood in order to obtain their energy. Those who understand the many ways that life "gives way" to nurture more life will see this as no more unnatural than eating live vegetables or animals for food.
PARTIAL BIBLIOGRAPHY
Stephen Kaplan,Vampires Are (ETC Publications, 1984)
Anthony Masters, The Natural History of the Vampire (Berkley Publishing Corp., 1972)
Raymond T. McNally and Radu Florescu, In Search of Dracula (New York Graphic Society, 1972)
Montague Summers, The Vampire, His Kith and Kin (University Books, 1960)
Montague Summers, The Vampire in Europe (The Aquarian Press Limited, 1980)
James B. Twitchell, The Living Dead: A Study of the Vampire in Romantic Literature (Duke University Press, 1981)
Leonard Wolf, A Dream of Dracula (Popular Library, 1972)
Came across this article today and it made me laugh:
http://notthelatimes.com/fatvampires.html
Obesity epidemic hits vampire population
Slurping cholesterol-saturated blood ruins Dracula health, study shows.
By Carl Kolchak, Staff writer
New Moon fat vampire poster
Instead of Transylvania, think Transfatsylvania.
A steady diet of high-cholesterol human blood is slowly sumo-sizing the nation's vampires, according to a new study.
"It's a grave threat to the vampire species," said Dr. Julia Hoffman, professor of undead medicine at UCLA. "As the creatures gain weight, they lose the ability to sneak up on and pursue their victims."
And because vampires can't see themselves in mirrors, many don't even realize they have a weight problem.
"Sure, I noticed my coffin felt a little snug, but I thought the reason I couldn't wrap myself in my cape anymore was because it shrunk in the dryer," said one blood guzzler.
Hollywood has also been forced to adapt. "Twilight Saga" vampire Edward Cullen put on so much weight after filming "New Moon" that the next installment of the series has been retitled "Shamu Moon."
"He loaded up on high school student blood," said a spokesman. "Considering all the junk food his victims ate, he might as well have been drinking pure Crisco."
Last night I dreamt of blood. I was working in a rustic bar and a waitress had dropped her tray and the glasses broke. I told her I would clean it up and I ended up cutting open my index finger on my left hand.
The owner of the bar, came over to help out and took my hand and started sucking on my finger. It was very erotic and the guy was to die for. Long dark hair, dark alluring eyes, I was mesmerized by him as he continued to suck on my finger.
It was an interesting dream and I hope that one day I get to meet this mystery man in person because it would be more than just my finger he'd be savoring, hahahaha!!
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Hahahaha...I dreamt of fudge brownies and some hot chick. I wonder what that was all about? She said something about her loving anal and how she tasted like fudge brownies....next thing you know, I'm in a kitchen baking brownies and smiling. Then I woke up. Go figure. LOL!
LOL!!!
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Got my Business proposal finished, yay me!!!
Now to make a power point presentation. Fun Fun!!
Going to practice, practice, practice because it's all in the pitch...should be interesting
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Got a phone call from a friend tonight, she was very upset.
She's a ghost hunter and all her equipment was stolen out of her vehicle while inside a restaurant eating dinner.
My first question was, was the equipment in plain sight? Her answer was yeah, rule of thumb, out of sight out of mind, do I not preach this all the time....gggrrr. She lives in Flint, Michigan. Theft capital of the world!!
I feel bad for her though, that's a lot of money down the drain and probably will go to some pawn shop and what really sucks, my home was investigated by her team last, all of my evidence is on her equipment. They were going to do the reveal with me on Saturday.
I do have some stuff that they emailed me over the last week but not all of it.
It's no big deal, the evidence that is. I know my house is haunted. What I'm mad about is that there are people that are getting away with ripping other people off, it's an epidemic in Flint and Saginaw.
Just be mindful is all I can say. Out of sight out of mind, always when out and about and I do carry mace.
Contemplating getting a CCW license...
But as for my friend, I tried to console her but if she truly did leave it out for thieves to see, that's just plain stupid.
I know tomorrow is Lovers' Day. Daughter doesn't have school tomorrow but is doing hair and makeup for the play that's this weekend.
Saturday, some friends are coming over, going to try some moonshine for the first time. Think I'll stay off VR while intoxicated, lol.
Not sure what else is happening, most likely watching the Olympics and doing some odds and ends that need to be done...I know, I'm quite boring but that's OK for now
STOP IT ALREADY!!!
Fuck, why is it that I'm nice to guys when they message and they want to jump into something more, do not answer this it's rhetorical.
Me just bitching about MEN!!!!! LOL!! Not all men just some..
Look, #1 I, in no way, shape, or form said I wanted a relationship, #2 I, in no way, shape, or form have lead you to believe that I wanted a relationship, so #3 GET IT THROUGH YOUR HEAD I DON'T WANT A RELATIONSHIP!!!!
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I just get pissed off at pushy guys, I'm not trying to be a bitch, I've said it on numerous occasions, I'm not looking for a relationship right now.
People are sometime stupid ....some can not see past their own scope of reality.....they have no interest in What others have to say....its late and I have this over whelming urge to shoot My bow....
Yesterday was just a horrible day for me. It was my sister's birthday/death date. She would have been 45 if she would have lived longer than a day. She was born blue and she was a premie. I just remember my mom being really sick. Today, my sister might have survived.
I also got news about a high school classmate that took his own life. His sister had taken her life in 2005. He had custody of her children. I think of those kids and what must be going through their minds...just praying for the entire family.
I'm a bit better today. I got up early, not by choice, lol but here I am up and ready to tackle the world, OK so I'm just going to tackle Yoga and do some Tarot readings today but hey, it's something!!! :-P
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A friend of mine messaged me on Facebook to tell me that someone we went to school with killed himself last night. This so sucks because his sister killed herself in 2005 and their brother also took his own life.
This has me all sorts of fucked up right now. The one that took his life last night, had custody of her kids. Those poor children!!
I try to wrap my head around the whys and the how could you but pain, anger, whatever it was these three were feeling took control and they only seeing taking their own lives as the only solution.
I miss my friend, we were close in high school but drifted apart as is sometimes the case, I did try to contact her but that was around the time she took her own life.
I'm just very sad and want others to know that read this that taking your life is not the best option, if you ever need to talk to someone I'm here, message me, I'll listen. Please seek help!!
I feel for the children, they lost a mother and two uncles to this, it's not a good day and it's also my sister's birthday. She passed away young so my heart is aching a bit more...
My house is haunted, I'm a witch, and I read a lot of books on the occult. With that said, one paranormal team came into my home back in August. They have this guy who claims to be a hereditary witch. Well, hhmmm OK, I am a witch, so I thought this will be cool to discuss things with him.
The first thing he tells me is to bind my tools, occult books, and Tarot Cards. I looked at him disgruntled, you do know that I use my tools and Tarot daily so I am not binding them. My house was haunted way before these things came into my house so I think you're full of shit!!
Well, this person was so high and mighty about binding and then he tells me he's not a witch, well no shit Sherlock, I figured that when you were giving me some mumbo jumbo. Anyway, he was ranting and raving about living by the Wiccan Rede and so on and so forth, doing harm to none but today I go on Facebook and noticed a post he made on a mutual friend's post. She's having issues with someone and he says and I quote, "Let me sick a shadow demon on their ass"
Seriously, dude, you're a assjack fucktard!!! Practice what the fuck you preach and oh yeah Karma is a Bitch and you'll receive what you dish out three fold!!
Boy did the pot call the kettle black on this one!!
I love the little Bavaria. I shop there quite often and I cam across a store that carries some of the things I can use for witchcraft. Very reasonable on prices as well.
Just love when I find really unique stores like the Enchanted Forest in Riverplace.
If you're ever in Michigan, Frankenmuth is a must!!
Now if I can find a store like Obscura here in Michigan, I'll be very, very happy!!
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Friday I had a friend over that does Reiki and also does stones/Tarot readings. She's also a medium and a fellow witch.
The Reiki was amazing!!! My Chakras were aligned, my crown was wide open but my third eye was clogged.
What does all that mean? Well, in a nutshell, being that my crown is wide open, I am attracting many different spirits and people. My third eye being plugged up is not a good thing, I'm not making good judgments, NO SHIT!! I already knew that one.
So everything was set right and I am now happy to say, I am feeling balanced and not off. I also have to stay away from the color purple but here's the kicker, my fucking bedroom is painted a deep, dark purple, my bedding is purple, everywhere in my house there's purple and I love purple in my clothes but because I am a spirit magnet, being in the color purple is not a good thing right now.
I now wear protection (an amulet) 24/7. I used to take it off at night but I am wearing it all the time.
Yesterday, I went to a yoga/chakra class. It was amazing, I love Yoga and the teacher was impressed at how well I am at it. The others in the class don't do Yoga much but I do.
I enjoyed my weekend, the first time I've really felt myself and having a clear mind, not so boggled.
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LordFangor
21:26 Feb 28 2014
Would it be transformers on utility poles exploding or maybe even trees themselves exploding ?
ZorayaAurora
02:19 Mar 01 2014
I've heard a transformer explode and no it isn't that.
I'll have to find the article about the popping bangs, I'll post it when I find it
Sanirah
14:23 Mar 03 2014
Oh