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I don't like to vent much any more but today I will.



If I listen thoroughly through a conversation, I expect the same in return. I don't get this from two people who one says they love me and the other says they're my friend.



Friends listen, they offer advice, or are there for whatever reason one needs them. I have always listened and offered whatever it is they needed.



However, in the last few days, I hate hearing mmmhhmmm, yeah, OK, or a half assed reply. If you care about me, listen to me, is it so hard to ask to be heard??? And then they wonder why I don't want to talk to either of them. I just don't, I'm spent. I can only help my friend so much and I'm tired of her crap anyway and as for the other well, I just don't have feelings in that way, I can't force them and right now I don't feel anything.



I'm not saying any of this to be mean, I'm not a mean person but seriously even good hearted people have their limits, I know I have mine. Today on the phone, my friend called, she's not a good friend, I only have one of those and when we talk it's great, we lift each other up, she's been my friend since grade school, she is irreplaceable. However, this one "friend" called today to tell me about her weekend with the guy she likes a lot. OK so I listened. She asked what I thought because he hasn't made a move on her and they've been hanging out a lot but nothing ever happens. I told her I couldn't really say because I don't know the guy. I never met him so I can't really say other than that maybe he's not that into her. I wanted to tell her things that happened to me over the weekend but she wasn't really listening, could probably care less, this is not a friend, a friend listens, a friend shares. She's just a taker, takes, takes, and takes so I decided enough was enough and so ends a one sided BS friendship or whatever one wants to call it.



I'm just breaking ties all over the place because I'm fed up. I am stronger and better than this and I won't settle for less than what I want. I don't like being used no one does so this is my rant and to let people know that the Bitch is back!!!

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Isis101
02:11 Apr 24 2014

I can't stand self absorbed rude people...some use to be 'friends' but I learned to just drop them.

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ZorayaAurora
16:06 Apr 24 2014

It makes me wonder how they learned to be rude...there's so much of it lately

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I've been working with a Shaman and a witch, two different people. I have been told that my soul is very old and that I have just a couple more lives on this plane before heading back into the energy field so to speak. Not the term the Shaman used but I will post it the right way when I speak with him again.



I have set up an appointment for a Shamanic Healing to reconnect the parts of my soul that are missing. I'm looking forward to healing because I feel disconnected as of late.



I think my disconnection came when I tried to help a person with something that I know I shouldn't have but did so anyway. I take full responsibility for this and have felt the brunt of the powers that be. They aren't happy that I helped a very dark person. She is very dark and psychotic and although I wasn't there, I gave her the means to do what it is she asked for.



She was draining my energy but I put a stop to it and have been able to protect myself and others around me from this. I know people energy feed, I have done it myself. I am careful who I feed from and how much. This person stated above is not. She doesn't care about anyone but herself. I have found this out the hard way and now that I know I have distanced myself from her.



Still, I have to be accountable for what I did and the Lord and Lady have reprimanded me in their own way and I am now on the right path again and forgiven. All will be well, I know this and this was a lesson learned and a path I needed to take to get to where I am..my journey continues, my lessons continue, my knowledge grows and this I am thankful for!!

Went out today to visit my parents. Then came home and spent time with Briana and her male friend.



Briana's dad has been around lately, Briana's birthday is Saturday. We've actually been very civil and laughing like we used to when we first dated. NO history will not repeat itself, it's just nice to be able to get along instead of bickering.



Found some gamers in the area, as in RPG as in Pathfinder, I'm new to Pathfinder so I am a bit confuzzled right now but I'll get it eventually.



Took Andraste to the vet today. She's all up to date on her shots and she will be spayed next month. Dooley is up to date and was neutered last month.

Just have the two cats to get in and that will be next week.



Car is fixed, it was a $20 plastic piece of factory shit that was worn and finally gave way, the idler pulley is what made my car quit. It's all fixed and even had a new motor mount put on, thank goodness Bri's dad knows about cars and what to do. One less thing to worry about and OH I get 30 miles to a gallon, that's so much better. Very happy!!



I have a ladybug flying around in my room. It keeps hitting the ceiling fan. My cat, Sookie is trying to get it, lol.



The frogs are loud tonight or maybe it's the fact that it's so quiet in my house that I can actually hear things. Now my other cat, Saphira has joined the party, lol. The dogs are in Briana's room with her.



UH OH ladybug has landed near Sookie, bye bye ladybug.

A trip to Montreal is in the works, it's going to be a mini vacation as soon as Briana is done with school. She has 20 days left and she's counting down.



2 weeks in Montreal should be fun, looking forward to seeing my best friend and make plans for her move to Savannah. I will join her after everything here is finalized.

Flooding is pretty bad in some of the areas around me, glad I don't live by the river.



Briana's birthday is Saturday. She's getting a tattoo, her dad is paying for it. I'm making dinner for the family and baking some cakes and cupcakes. My parents are Christian so we celebrate Easter with them, for me it's a spring time celebration.



I'm reading a book called Dhampire, sorry the author escapes me right now but the book is from 1983. It's weird to say the least. The guy and his wife are getting snakes, they own a snake farm, I'm just getting into the book and I'm already shaking my head, lol. Snakes, drugs, and vampires OH MY, lol!!

No one likes being lied to. I dislike it immensely!!



Someone borrowed a couple of books from me and they went and got them signed by the author, she volunteered to do this as I couldn't go. She also borrowed a movie from me that my company did.



I called her and asked if I could come down to pick them up since I was going to be in her area, she said sure, then when it came for that day she made all sorts of excuses, "I have kidney stones and I'm in bed but I thought you said 1 PM tomorrow and we're not going to be home" Well what the hell, if you have kidney stones today, you're going to have them tomorrow, they don't pass that quick, I know I've had a few and yes they are painful but well OK so I have a higher pain tolerance than most people.



Anyway, she said she would mail them out to me the following Tuesday which was this past week. She even went as far as sending me a tracking number. However, when last checking the tracking, the package was shipped to Tennessee, the last I knew I lived in Michigan where she lives, the dumb bitch!



I called and text her telling her that if she didn't have my stuff, because she sells things on Ebay, just say you sold it or you don't have it, don't lie to me or make excuses, it's going to be worse for her.



KARMA is going to kick that bitch's ass!!! If I don't get to her first!!!!!



What a nice way to start out my weekend, I'm not upset at the loss of my books or movie, they're replaceable, I'm mad that she's lying and cannot own up to it, just tell me the truth, that's all I ever ask of anyone!!!

Today has really bummed me out. The Ultimate Warrior passed away, the news flooded my voicemail and text messages. Thoughts and prayers to his wife and two daughters!!



My daughter's car broke down on her way to school. Had to have it towed home, just a pulley that needs to be replaced, thank goodness.



20 students stabbed at school, absolute madness. I cannot even imagine how I would feel if this happened to my daughter. Thoughts and prayers to all this affected.



My dad has to have surgery, they're replacing his pain pump it quit working, ugh!!!



Glad it's the end of the day, heading to bed soon..hopefully tomorrow will be better

I went out shopping a bit yesterday with Briana. She met up with some friends and decided to leave with them so I continued on my way.



I went to Ulta, the first time I've been in that store. It's got makeup and fragrances, a salon, it's girly, lol. I decided to try out some new makeup. The lady was amazed at how well my skin is for being 46. All I could tell her is that I don't drink, I don't smoke, I drink lots of water, I'm on the Paleo way of eating, and I exercise regularly.



Anyway, I decided to go with the Philosophy brand foundation. It's like Bare Minerals but honestly, I love it more!!! It covers my rosacea, I'm European, it happens. It looks and feels natural.



I came home to two very happy puppies showering me with love. I have a mastiff, she actually knocks me over, it's quite funny actually. She's a big baby. I also have Briana's little mutt, he's a lap dog but so damn cute. I call him Muppet because he reminds me of one.



Supposed to be very windy today so this witch isn't straying too far from home. Need to hit the meat market later and get me some liver, I love liver so if you don't that's OK but I love liver and onions, it's good for you!!!!!!



Also stopping to get some fish from the fish market and then off to get some apples, bananas, pineapples, and dates. YUM YUM!!!



Wrestlemania is this weekend and I have the WWE Network, friends are coming over Sunday after I get back from my pagan outing. Looking forward to this outing and meeting new people, it's going to be interesting and then watch Wrestlemania.



I grew up with wrestling. My dad's favorite thing next to Star Trek and the Twilight Zone. Maybe that's why I'm so into Sci Fi/Fantasy/Macabre. We watched all the horror shows and Sci Fi stuff together and then on Friday nights, wrestling.



Court on Monday not looking forward to court, does anyone like court? It's rhetorical, don't answer, lol.

Maybe I don't want to settle down. Maybe I just want more out of life. Maybe, just maybe...Naughty girls need love too...hahahaha Samatha Fox just popped into my brain.



Yes I am showing my age but I'm comfortable in my own skin.



It's spring, I want to spread my wings and fly...I have lots on my mind, the frogs being loud aren't helping. Maybe if I threatened to make frog legs for dinner they'd shut up...just kidding, it's alright but yes very loud.



How fitting for this witch to be surrounded by frogs and snakes. I'm sure I'll have my share of snakes this spring. I have one in my rose garden every year. Oh and I get this gigantic spiders as well. What I like about garden spiders, the females rebuild the center of the web daily. They're so huge and their egg sac is nasty big. Last year there was one right on my outdoor water spigot. I freaked so I was glad to have another water spigot on the other side of the house to use.



Frogs, lizards, and snakes do not scare me but I am freaked out by spiders and the praying mantis.



Back to my wanting to fly away, I need a vacation...pondering on where to go.



Savannah is a no go for now. My friend is waiting until September to move so right now I'm thinking a vacation and then I can start thinking of moving

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LORDMOGY
18:37 Apr 01 2014

Hey, I bet it's really comfortable in your skin. Tight fit and all. ^_-

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siddhartha
04:13 Apr 03 2014

nice..Sammantha fox ...I remember her too, I must be old as well..

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