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23:25 Apr 29 2010
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For all of you who have a blog or a "Blogger" account I ask you to please become a "follower" of my blog



http://www.jacobboglewrites.com



I'm using it for the more important of my articles and would like to get more people interested in it and it's reach farther. And to please feel free to link your blogs to mine and I'll do the same with yours.

10:01 Apr 28 2010
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Well I figured out how to make my doctor happy and Kevin very happy. Now, usually I'll eat around 1000 calories a day, sometimes as low as 500 BUT I found a way to fairly easily eat at minimum 2010 calories a day :D Now that should give me an extra 2-3lbs a week.



I just hope I can keep it up. As you know I have stomach problems which interfere with how much I eat but I'm also a borderline anorexic so as long as I feel full I tend to just not eat...and it don't take much to get me full.



Wish me luck but I think I can do it :)

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09:45 Apr 25 2010
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05:16 Apr 24 2010
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I had a pretty good day save for one part.



While I was out walking to get to the bus an SUV pulled up beside me with 3-4 guys in it and they started yelling "fag" out the window. I ignored it and kept walking but as I was crossing a street they pulled on to it, sped up, and missed me by about a foot. The driver screamed "watch out!".



I really don't understand people like that. Somehow I wish that they could see just how idiotic and disgusting they are.



Aside from that, it was a beautiful day. I got to be out in the sun for around 3 hours, got "Avatar" and ate out for lunch. There were two good bus related things that happened. The first is that I applied to get a disability ID card so I'll only have to pay 1/2 price and the lady said I'd have no problems getting it. (that would save me upto $30/mo so it aint bad) Unlike the gov this won't take 3 years but a week maybe lol. The other is one passenger said she thought I was 21 :D that of course was the most important and best thing to happen today lol. I'm in my 20's but I'm not 21 and I am rather sensitive about my age (just ask K) so that was a nice little ego boost.



I just finished watching "Avatar" and it still made me cry a few times, and get a lil "excited". Those blue boys are damn sexy! lol



And now I'm hoping Kevin will get off work in time for us to chat for a few.



Normally at this time of year here in Middle Tennessee we would have had several large thunderstorms and maybe even a tornado or two. I adore massive storms but we haven't really had anything, yet. Well, it seems like there's a large front moving in, the wind has been crazy all day. And from the NWS it looks like early tomorrow morning and through the day we'll finally get our first big storm of the year. I hope it's great :D Of course I don't want people to get hurt or lose their property but there's nothing quite like a super-cell storm hehe.

08:18 Apr 20 2010
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I just got off the phone with Kevin, I love his voice *gush* hehe



Any time we're able to talk it's pretty much the highlight of my day. We don't get to every night for different reasons but really I kinda think that's a good thing just because of that whole "absence makes the heart grow fonder" thing, but when we do, I love it.



He giggles a lot which is really cute. Of course so I lol



Things are sooo close to us finally being able to live together it's almost unbearable. No matter where we end up living, I can't wait. It'll be the happiest day of my life, honestly.



Like I told him earlier today, it's like I fall in love with him each new day. I don't know why it's like that but I don't want it to end. For most people after 3 years they've settled into a fairly "familiar" routine of emotion. Of course they love each other but the spark has somewhat leveled out if not gone down. With me, that candle flame does lots of dancing.



A friend of mine once said "heaven help the man you truly fall in love with" and he said that because he knows about the depth and intensity of my emotions, on either side, good or bad. I've loved before but not fully. K is the only guy I've ever been in total love with and fully surrendered to. Any type of future thought, plans, ideas, life thoughts and so on, he's there automatically.



There's nothing quite like the feelings of love, stability, security, safety, loyalty and trust...all complete and without condition.



Only 18 more days till I get to be up there with him :)

04:47 Apr 19 2010
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I know I talk about this a lot so you don't really have to read if you don't want.



I just miss Kevin a lot. He's been working tons lately and so we don't get much time at all to talk. I know he has to and I'm not upset or anything, just miss him and wish there was something I could do to make it easier for him.



I love every moment we can chat and being able to talk for an hour or 4 or more in some cases, well, it's just great. Even the times we didn't really "talk" or had a misunderstanding. Just knowing he was there if I wanted to say something, or knowing that even if we disagreed we were still talking and learning about each other. And the fact that even after 3 years we still have tons to learn, it's a real good thing.



One thing I can't wait for is being able to spend a week or so up there with him in May (if all goes well). It'll be the longest length of time we've had together and as weird as it may sound I can't wait to actually be able to do the things a hubby is supposed to do in a "living" environment. Just makes me happy and I'm not letting anything happen to prevent it.



Still dream about him, still think about him, anytime I need some strength or to de-stress all I have to do is think about him, his face, voice, think about our recent time together, the feel of his arms around me.



I'm such a girl I know but hey that's what happens when the love is real. True love, that "honeymoon" period, well those feelings don't go away if it's real. Things may dim or rise, might have problems here and there but no matter what, the person you think about that gives you the most joy, when the only voice you want to hear is his, when you still get giggly or one of those dumb smiles when his name is mentioned...ya it's real and it's great.



We've been through a lot the past 3 years 2 months and 18 days and there isn't much I look forward to more than another 3yrs without an end with him.



I'm done now. I just wanted to gush a little bit, get some thoughts out of my head and say how much I'm looking forward to May.

09:49 Apr 18 2010
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I'm really getting scared about my weight. My BMI is 15.6 (low avg is 18.5). I don't need to hear about "eat some greens boy" because food isn't much of an issue.



I've begged my regular doctor to give me something for my appetite but they just don't want too.



If I'm not hungry, I'm sick and can't eat much or I get full way to easily. I've started drinking protein drinks but even they can make me a little nauseous if I'm not careful.



I have no clue what to do and this really worries me. I've always been small, my highest weight was 136lb but now I'm 115lb and haven't been over 120 in months. If I could just get to 125 I know I could do better but being this small...it's like being on the edge of a cliff. One cold or something, drop a few more lbs and I'm freaked I'll end up in the ER with a bunch of IVs in me.

19:21 Apr 16 2010
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Well I had my hearing :)



It was a fairly rough morning really. On the way up I started getting really sick and about lost it a few times. I think some of that though was nerves.



Anyway, the hearing was at 9 and it lasted maybe 15 minutes. It was a video hearing so I had a camera and mic in front of me.



I swore an oath, the judge asked me a few questions about my work history, dates etc. My evidence file had exhibits 1A-22F, which is fairly extensive lol.



The judge said that the limitations my Dr's have given me all make sense to him and that it might be possible for me to do light work but that it wouldn't be possible for me to maintain it for long.



Between the things he said and my lawyer it looks really good that I've won. It's just a matter of time and paperwork now :)

19:33 Apr 15 2010
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It's finally here my friends. Tomorrow morning I go and have my disability hearing. Tomorrow is going to determine the outcome of a 2.5 year battle, will determine if I'm able to get proper medical care, will determine if I'll actually have an income and insurance.



So, I'd like to ask all of you for your prayers, thoughts, well wishes and anything else, that I might win this case.



I'm excited and uber nervous at the same time. Whenever I get home tomorrow I'll make sure I tell you all about what happened.



Wish me luck :)

08:14 Apr 12 2010
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I can't believe I'm actually saying this but I haven't anywhere else to let it out. My brother stole and sold 1/2 of my pain medication today. I don't know when he took the pills but I noticed something was wrong today and when he got home at 1AM he admitted to it.



He claims he'll give me the money tomorrow (apparently he gave the pills to some guy he 'trusts' and will get it tomorrow). I told him if he does that things will be alright.



If he doesn't, I'm not gonna say that here.



The point is I'm stunned, worried about when I run out and completely ashamed.



I never thought my life would include an episode of "Springer" and while that may sound a bit funny it's basically a massive insult and really hard to swallow.

07:52 Apr 09 2010
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I made a new necklace today :)



It's made up of 22 white pearls, 54 Swarvoski crystals, 32 other beads and the pendant is a cameo. It's 20" long with an easy use twist clasp. If'n anyone would like it let me know :)

08:56 Apr 07 2010
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I've been watching this show about Mormonism. Since I was about 12 periodically I'd study or at least read up on this religion (as it IS separate from the holy catholic church (which is not solely Rome) and isn't a part of actual Christianity).



Aside from the abundance of inaccuracies/contradictions of Joseph Smiths own words and his less than "holy" personal life I keep trying to figure out how more than 14 million people could actually follow this religion.



The biggest problem I have is that there isn't a single shred of physical evidence for the unique stories and history told in Smith's writings, at least none that I've found. Unlike Christianity modern archeology hasn't been able to prove or even potentially support the idea of existence of these American cities, tribes, people etc.



What I have said isn't bashing but fact. There isn't evidence for these things and Joseph Smith was a known "story teller".



~~~I would love it if someone could show me some physical evidence that these stories are a true part of history. ~~~



From a personal perspective it's really sad to know that because of the lies and possible mental instability of one man millions may have either gone or be on their way to eternity without God.

06:12 Apr 06 2010
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Am I not the greatest wife a boy could have? lol



I bought this for Kevin today (please, don't ask how :P)

It's a 46.05ct natural emerald. I have a few connections at various mines around the world so even with my "special" economic situation I'm able to get the occassional goodie.



I figure this might make us even on the gift front :)



As an additional note, if anyone is in the market for stones large or small, including flawless and on a budget..come get me.



On a sorta related topic I'm going to start buying up rare-earth metals, more so than silver or gold. They're still rather cheap but with extremely low supplies and with everything I've researched in the next 10-15 years their prices should be through the roof. The good thing about RE's is that they are a must for the production of computers, cell phones,certain types of screens, medical equipments, usage as catalysts etc. Unlike with gold and silver RE's aren't so much a part of todays "ether-like" economy but are a very real and integral part of everyday objects.

17:36 Apr 05 2010
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I have a Dr appt today so that should be fun.



I'm in a whole lot of pain which I expected because of yesterday but it still sucks. What sucks more though is the fact that my stomach has been hurting since either Thurs or Fri and I'm really getting annoyed by it bc I miss being able to eat.



One nice thing is I mailed Kevin's surprise present off today :D He better like it lol.

And I was able to get some more, larger, black pearls yesterday for the bracelets I'm making.

04:42 Apr 05 2010
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My brother was in a 7 month treatment programme. Today, 2 months after he started, he walks in and says he's quitting and mom is letting him stay here.



I'm not happy and I won't be until I've moved out.



The only good thing about today was being able to talk with Kevin and getting to play with my niece and nephew for the first time in almost 4 solid months. We really did have a lot of fun.

05:35 Apr 03 2010
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Am I gay?

06:44 Apr 02 2010
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So I'm rather pissed right now. People have control over their own actions and if you know you're not supposed to do something you simply don't. Any excuse is a sign of weakness, lack of self responsibility or an out right cop-out.



I was just annoyed at the start but now I'm fairly mad.

01:52 Apr 01 2010
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Ok, here it is, me new ring :D



(sorry that I couldn't get a better pic)

I really love this ring and I love K almost as much :P