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I Remember when my world was black and desperate destruction, you called me angel

You told me how i saved you from your darkness

And i smiled as i was drowning in my own

Not realizing what i meant to you or what you meant to me.

We grew apart i blame myself everyday for this

And no longer was i your angel

Just another disapointment that you wouldnt stop caring about

As i lived my life and tried not to dream of the man

Who was the most light ive ever seen in my days of dark

But i couldnt forget of you,i always wondered why

But then i saw how much i meant to you

And i felt how much you meant to me

This time i didnt push it back with doubts and negativity but embraced it

My face grew older in these days my eyes colder

More pain from living makes me tired and numb

I damn the choices i made.

Hard days from men i loved and could never trust within an inch of there lives

And they couldnt even erase you from my mind

I still had dreams

Where you called me angel

And said if i waited long enough, you'd come and save me

That id always be yours

And i would always have you.

But i am alone now

No man

Just old lies that buzz around my head and a beautiful boy that deserves more then this tired body loving him.

I look at him and see what i desire

A family,the mother wife and mate i always wanted to be

And i hate myself for missing your call so many times

But as i open my eyes

I look for you and finally call back with my lonely hearted urgency.

If i looked into my dreams id find you there

waiting for me again like you always do

But this time

i was waiting for you too

Waiting to be your angel again.

i heard the call once

From the angels of Astralnon

They spoke to me so sweetly

In my dreams i heard the whisper

The melodies they sang to me calmed my spirit for many months passing.

They told me to wait for them

told me not to embark on my journey to the afterlife

That a man would come and heal the broken doll i had become.

So i waited.. in the dark i slumbered, ill and desperatly seeking someone to find me.



Months passed without a whisper from the angels

I forgot of them and what they had told me

But still i waited, my mind seeking out the man they talked of

When he came is was not as i had hoped

He wasnt the one for me, more of a healer so i could move on with my life unspoiled by darkness

The scars still remained but i was whole again

And a beautiful child was made from our brief love.

After i left him and started planning my journey back east the angels called to me again in another dream

They smiled down upon me and told me i was beautiful

And my son was to be king of the undying lands

I smiled back

And told them i was lost, unmated and incomplete

they nodded looking among themselves and them at me

And said that he would come

Arriving swiftly, bursting forth from my dreams and into reality

And then the angels spoke no more

And i had forgotten them again.

Now i wait remembering their words but not the mouths they came from

And i wonder

When will he come for me

His mate is waiting

And shell wander this earth for years

looking for him