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Easier To Cry

12:10 Aug 28 2007
Times Read: 559


Easier To Cry



Do you lie in the meadow of deep despair?

Are the storm clouds overhead about to strike fear

In the very core of your soul?

Is it safe to be alone?



Do you ever hope for rain

So that no one sees your pain?

Is it easier to cry

When there is somewhere you can hide?




© 2007, The WindStormy. All rights reserved.

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NymzanSusauren
NymzanSusauren
07:43 Jun 20 2009

Why do think I am so addicted to the rain?



I used it for a place to hide my silent tears until now it represents a cleansing of my soul. Each time it rains I can feel my burdens and sorrows washing away with it.



Hiding my tears in a storm until the storm itself WAS the embodiment of my tears. Now, I am happy every time it rains. Goodness fills my heart with every dark clowd in the sky.



You can only see the light (rays of sun) through the darkest skies (thick rain clowds). Beauty lies where you see it...Rain is my beauty.



Jenna Karro





 

My Immortal Master

20:27 Aug 25 2007
Times Read: 567


My Immortal Master




In fear I have sought Him out

Trembling have I stepped from the shadows

My purpose unknown

With head held downward

I have agonized

Should I lift my eyes to meet His gaze

Would He strike me down

Would He leave me to naught

Destroyed and broken

This spirit unmended



What has He to do with me

A lowly servant among so many

Nothing am I to such power

Such awesome strength

Wielding His forces

With effortless will



Yet, I have come to Him

Waiting here

Seeking wisdom

Drawing from His strength

I wait in the dim light of His chamber

As He steps out of the shadows

Into that flicker light

I see Him with dread

Terror binds me

My breath caught

Unable to respire



His hand lifts to me

I bow at His feet

Offering me servitude

To his highest

To Him



Will I be forced to leave

His awesome presence

Or will my sacrifice be recognized



I grope for air as I kiss His shoes

Wondering if I will survive

Or will my life be lost

Will I die without hail or furrow

Will I be torn to shreds

By His terrible wrath

And be cast aside

No mourning

No sorrow for my plight



Ah but His hand rests

Atop my menial head

Lifted to my feet

I am offer his deadly kiss



My Immortal Master






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NymzanSusauren
NymzanSusauren
07:48 Jun 20 2009

Hahaha...good mental image there. I like it. You need to edit for a few minor spelling errors, but it is lovely all the same. LOTN, I assume? Lol...



I wish you would talk to me again. I pray you are safe somewhere. You are a wonderful writer. I am not too into poetry, but poetry was never where your best skills lay. I am glad you write. I am glad you allowed me (once) to read them.



Did you ever get that book published like you planned? I haven't...Time be kind to us all.



Jenna Karro





 

Another From The Archives...

19:22 Aug 24 2007
Times Read: 574


This is a poem about cutting...







A Single Blade







In the deepest chasm of my soul

There deforms a force so bold

All ration is scattered to the wind

As pain again befriends



Boiling to the surface

Darkness replace

The light of truth

Shadowed in darkest hues.



Action becomes reality

Tools to find peace in me

Cold

Hard

Coursing pain

Comes together in a single blade



Sting...

The slice it's not that deep

A little more, oh... the ecstasy...

To feel...

To know...

The flagrant need...

I am still alive...

To bleed...

To see...

There is yet life inside of me.



Deeper...

The gash it goes

Breathing faster

My body reposed

A sense of erotic

Power in this foe

The flagrant need

Almost hypnotic

The sensation knows.



Sting...

The slice it's very deep

A little more, oh... the ecstasy...

To feel...

To know...

I am still alive...

To bleed...

To see...

There is yet life inside.




© 2005, The WindStormy. All rights reserved. No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.







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NymzanSusauren
NymzanSusauren
07:56 Jun 20 2009

@.@



Oh, you know I hate this! I love the feel of the poem, but not what you are doing to yourself...



You scare me, Billy. I hate all of those suicidal thoughts in you head. I am not the happiest individual in the world, but never once have I believed in being maimed or killing myself (accidental or intentional)!



I want you see you smile. I want to hear you laugh. I want to know you are safe, even when you are scared, angry, upset or miserable. There is nothing I can say to change you...Only you can do that.



Where is the Billy I know? Where is the person who gave hope and inspiration to others? Where is Billy the Councilor? Billy the Wise? Why do you only see BAD BILLY, when everyone else sees you for what you really are?



Don't let a few bad apples spoil the whole damn bunch...words to live by. You should be able to count on yourself even if you can't count on others.



Jenna Karro





 

From The Archives

14:18 Aug 19 2007
Times Read: 582


Pain



Why won't this pain go away?

It lingers hiding much too deep.

The fingers lurking, forcing my heart to constrict.

Piercing the depths of my soul

with a morbidly frigid cold.



The arms embrace me in shadowy darkness

Void and Emptiness are my friends.

Touch of despair, or was that a handful?

Leaves me breathless and cold.



It never seems to end.

The constant murmuring blend.

My heart can't take anymore.

It is withered and sore.



Much to my soul, it's vast resounding pool

The persistent bleeding wound reopened.

Pain...

So cold...

So deep...

So old...






Freedom Of Pain



Why is pain such a close friend of mine?

Why do I thrive on what I don't understand?

What causes me to show so much emotion when

It seems that nobody really cares.



Oh, I have my circle of friends that love me.

And I know they do, they tell me everyday.

They support me, guide me, lead me by the hand.

I couldn't ask for none better.



But, there is a place so deep inside, that no one

Ever sees.

It lingers, teetering on the edge of sanity.

My longing for what hurts.



I am not a fool.

I do not believe in the things of the past.

I know I've gone through it, but that was only a dream.

Still, I hope for something that just seems to slip my grasp.



Pain,

It is all I know.

It follows me everywhere I go.

I must bend to its will.

The shadow that encompasses me, never allows me the light.

It never lets me see the freedom I hope for.



Lust, is close behind.

I lust after the pain I want and long for.

But if I give in, the whole world becomes enraged.



Just one moment.

Only one cut.

Let me bleed just a little.

I long to feel its blessing....




"Pain"© 2005, The WindStormy. All rights reserved.

No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.



"Freedom Of Pain"© 2005, The WindStormy. All rights reserved.

No republication of this material, in any form or medium, is permitted without express permission of the author.





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NymzanSusauren
NymzanSusauren
08:03 Jun 20 2009

Dear...just know how much I love you.



You remind me so much of me if I hadn't loved myself too much to scar myself up. Please...don't cut. There are other ways to enjoy pain without slicing that perfectly wonderous skin you were created to wear.



I too long for things I can never find. I too wonder if I will ever see one single moment where I am truely happy. It will come. If not in this life, then in another. I will wait. Silently or raging in the winds of a storm, I will wait. Wait with me...



As screwed up as you are, you are the only person I know who really understands me when I speak from my heart. What does that say for me? We are two of a kind, my old friend...I need you even if you don't need anyone.



I miss you. Love you...

Jenna Karro








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