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Only in my dreams do I find my peace in his warm embrace

As his strong arms enfold me in the bittercold night

It is only through his soft touch that I feel safe... sane...

Protected... accepted... even loved.

His image is always shrouded in my visions

Yet his deep husky voice resonates in the very depth of my soul

"Everything is gonna be fine now; I'm here..."

How it echoes within me; stirring my passion

Yet his nature remains ever so gentle, ever so sweet...

For many times I have longed to taste his kiss

Upon my waiting lips

Yet he respects me so to just keep me in his arms in this realm

Maybe when I meet him, I will know true love in this life.

Forever lost in this damp pit of uncertainty

Where else does this tainted soul go?

Now I lie in this big, huge, cold bed

Mindlessly tossing and turning

As blessed sleep eludes me once again

Why are my thoughts being dark and troubled like so?

I try not to remember...

I know I must forget...

And my mind succumbs to the painful whip of restraint

Yet my heart beats wildly against the savage beating

Though the visions do not cloud my consciousness

My chest feels heavy with such frantic emotions

For how long must I endure all of this?

I stand under starry sky and gaze at the moon

Forget... I should forget...

I must forget... no...

I must forgive.

For dreams are made from nothing as we all are

We keep on wishing at each shooting star

For the lies we keep sometimes in our hearts

Are what makes us alive and well and sane

Love is but a theory we cannot explain

It is felt... but with each person

It is defined differently...

We all long that release to know the truth

And still, we yearn to believe in the lies we keep

Praying they soon will be real to us in time

Music is but concrete proof

Of how many lies we need to listen to

That we secretly long to have that one person

To have and to hold and to cherish for all time

Who would love us for who we really are inside

Who would accept us for the liars we are within

Even you in your denial of self righteousness

I can guarantee that in the deepest recesses of your mind

You wish to be embraced fully by someone

Who would still hold you close

Despite the knowledge he or she has

About the darkness that envelops you

That he or she would understand you unconditionally

That he or she would LOVE you with no reason

Because blind love is so very true

So my answer to you now is...

If you were to look into my eyes now,

What would you see?

Would you see my truth?... or see the truth you wanna see?

In my waking hours, I seek truth in every moment

But it is the lies I naively believe in

That keep me surviving each night that passes

For it is the truth that makes me weep at night

Yet it is the lies of finding my soulmate

That keep me waking up to face a new day

Yes... I am a liar to even my own self...

But aren't you one too?

With that bold statement, I leave you with your thoughts

So take heed of what you call truth and what you call lies

The difference in telling them apart

And the deciding factor that drives you

Can lead either to your happiness... or to your downfall...

Even your death.

Breathe deeply the lies for the truth will choke you

Lies will comfort you as truth never can

Lies will chase away your fears and truth will bring you to them

Pain is all truth can bring while lies can offer hope

You seek truth and yet live on lies for that is all you want

Fairy tales and stories... fantasies and dreams

Lies comfort and protect you; but only truth can save you

Hear my soft voice though I am so far away

Know my thoughts and my strong desire to stay

For you have touched me in ways unimaginable

And I have fallen so deep in ways that seems misunderstandable

Do not shun away from me this present time

For secretly in my soul, I want you to say "she's mine"

Yet time is not on our side, my dear

Still, this does not diminish my longing to have you near

To feel your smooth skin warm against my thigh

To never ever hear you say goodbye

Till fate will turn and smile our way

Utter happiness shall be felt in that very day

That we'd be together, me within your arms

Keeping me safe from all hate.. from pain.. from harm

Till then please stay with me and hold on tight

Let us keep each other sane in the passing of night

Till love shall burn in both our hearts

Till the dawn will come

When we shall never know how it hurts to be apart

Till the time we embrace and kiss and make love

Till our stars shine brightly together from the heavens above