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19:19 Feb 23 2011
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Woo! Fuck yeah! I got my profile skinned. ;D Come check it out. :P LOL The online thing makes me giggle. >_>
09:13 Feb 23 2011
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Ask what you shall seek and I will tell.
01:38 Feb 23 2011
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Don't talk out of the side of your ass. No one believes it.
02:26 Feb 22 2011
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Ooooh, I have some stalkers. :o
19:05 Feb 21 2011
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I'm not stupid and that's not even a win. That's a lie on a bed of lies with lie sauce. You're all a bunch of liars. o_o
Heh, thank god I'm not friends with any of you now.
I'll make you eat your parents12:58 Feb 20 2011
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This video always cracks me up. It's probably my favorite of the whole series. Not to mention it's funny. Who the fuck would make someone cry and want them to eat their parents? XD
Disclaimer: You should probably not even read this journal.
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21:10 Feb 18 2011
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Frustrated
11:12 Feb 18 2011
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13:11 Feb 17 2011
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21:17 Feb 16 2011
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Curse you Photobucket. I'm too lazy to re-post that. T_T
06:17 Feb 16 2011
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Speaking of whores...
22:16 Feb 15 2011
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Oh, I really fucking hate you. How dare you. Well, heh, aren't you the little meat bag. You wouldn't give a shit about your friends.
23:07 Feb 13 2011
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And maybe something will happen. I'm not going to say a word though. I always end up jinxing everything that way. But hey, after all the crap on there it'd be pretty cool. Plus I'm great at well, being me.
14:53 Feb 13 2011
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Fuck it all. Can't ever [Edit].
01:39 Feb 12 2011
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SYSTEM HISTORY: Everything you must know if you decide to wonder about me.
Dear ******
Sometimes people can be hurtful and friendships end. I feel like shit when this happens but whatever happens, I'm here if you ever want to talk or get pissed at someone or if you even need to vent. Heck, the "kill the messanger" expression even comes to mind and I wouldn't care if you did.
Heh, this is a website but you're one of my closest friends on here, like a damn sister. So.. -Hugs- I don't want bad shit to happen to you and I wouldn't even mind if the whole website blocked me just because I couldn't help but watch out for you.
So yesterday, ****** had sent me a message slightly talking about ****** and I wanted to tell you so bad but I didn't know how to go about it. This morning after you left for bed she had messaged me. A simple happy thanksgiving turned into the below message... I'm sending this to you and it's risky because you could easly say that I sent it but I say Fuck It, you should have this message and know because it's the right thing for me to do even if it does break my trust with her.
I know that I must be rambeling on and such.. but I wish for you to be happy in life. So now to show you my last reply and to say that she never said anything to me after that. I don't know if it's because she had to cook and forgot about messaging me back or if she doesn't want to talk further but ah... here goes nothing..
Love,
*****
There was once a time in my life that the other two of me couldn't fix. That letter had changed everything and it was written by myself. Over so little too.
The reply I got back:
****, lol, don't freak out~
I'm not one for shooting the messenger. :P
And, she's starting to piss me off.
She says she likes this guy, she says she likes that guy.
Hell, she likes them all.
She's supposed to be "in love" with ***** , and yet she's going after several different men? Heh.
Don't let it get you down lol. I'll figure out something.
Love ya too, silly head.
That was the end of the reply. Keep in mind that most of these quotes are edited for reasons. Example the letter was cut off because I didn't need to show all of it.
Now, there is humping and straight forward fucking. SYSTEM was needed and fast. Brain fucking pun intended.
Let my history be told and let it be known my way.
So, how many guys could she like? Could someone with no gender get away with it? Just call them pretty and they flip their hair.
In love with so many but the other me or me couldn't pull it off. I wouldn't want to exactly lie but not tell the truth.
My profile full of musical things. Pretty crappy yet expressing that I'm a big fake. Psudo to the bone. Yet, human inside a robotic heart. No matter how many times I said, "SYSTEM says:"
Now, that was the reason why I was born. However, in love and war many battles waged.
The battle of the cult:
I was first a cat on here. Not on enough and clueless. Then I had went straight to Purg. Not even blinded.
The second me is my main character. A damaged flower with thorns. Never a musician. Oh no. I dislike music. I really do. Though it was what this profile was based on it's just not me. I'm simply an artist. I choose to be labeled as such.
The third me was a PMSing bitch. Out to get the world. Very fun and wild. But yet, not good enough. It was based on revenge for all the wrong stupid reasons.
And then there was me. The anal retentive; scratch that; anal replusive, vindictive little monster. Of corse, I did need a bit of influence.. >:)
.. influence enough to kick spiderman and doggy boy's ass.
So while the PMS me was getting fucked over, I was playing the guardian angel on here.
Here lies an edited letter by a spider:
Im getting the idea. I never thought you were stupid. I never said you were. I have ALWAYS understood your position in the middle and I have not envy'd you your place. I have pulled you in at times, something I should never have done. My post was NOT about you. I see how that was read as I scanned through the journals the other night before leaving. You can chose to believe me or not.. the decision is yours.. but I have and will always consider you my friend and one of my favorite people in the state of ** and on this earth. You are an individual, with a great mind and thoughts of her own. You dont let others dictate your life, your relationships, etc. and I applaud that. You are truly one of a kind and if our friendship is broken I am truly sorry for any part I played. I wanted to message you and tell you that MY leaving and *** leaving has nothing to do with ***or *** or You or *** or Anyone on VR other than the ***** themselves and ****. I have ALWAYS spoken my mind, I have never censored myself for others benefits (yes this can be construed as selfish, ok, so Im selfish, I admit it) but Im 40 and its harder for me to change.
I adore you *****, have since the day we met. I hope that our last days as friends are not upon us. You and **** are in my heart and I send you kisses, even if you dodge them. I was going to ask you to take over the Coven. I will pop in now and then, but not daily, maybe once a week. **** doesnt want the profile but you can have it if you like, he paid for it anyway. Let me know.
You do what is best for you.
Love, ~J
The above letter was never shown in public. Now it has been done. No, I never got that profile. In fact I still have it blocked. Plus I never want it. Ever.
I have been an ACM three times on here and after the hell I've been through, I decided that I would open up my own place. Then giving up my last title as ACM for the last time (Probably) and re-joining Infinitus Serenus. My safe haven.
My story will change in time. Grow longer. For the SYSTEM will always be that guardian warrior. I'll probably add onto this too when I get the chance. Just give me some time. The present is only a gateway to the future and a well balanced book for the past.
I will 'end' this by saying the story is dedicated to my mentor and the last picture shows my identity. Yet, it's also edited. So if you've known me or seen that picture in a journal from long ago then you'll have seen my side. The SYSTEM side.
But if you are interested.. creeper dots and all.. then I suggest you take a look in my journal. The older entries. The ones from when SYSTEM was first born on here. Section:JunyJay.
01:24 Feb 11 2011
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Heh, You'd never read what I wrote so it's cool. >_>
By the way, I wish I could get more spiders to go into that scroll box but I just can't find anything decent.
SYSTEM HISTORY18:50 Feb 10 2011
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I've updated my profile once again. Just showing off the scroll box skills. Not that I know many skills but I'm still learning and I must say my mentorship has been a wonderful help.
So my history story is complete for now. Not like many will read it anyway. :P But if some do.. then maybe, heh, questions will be asked. :x
Hope no one minds if I quoted them. :x
SYSTEM HISTORY15:34 Feb 09 2011
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I need to be writing my story one day. It will be on a very broing day but will make an interesting read.
09:37 Feb 08 2011
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So, I had nightmares that someone was hugging me. I guess I hate hugs because it feels so, smothering. Turns out I woke up with my arms around myself. O_o
09:06 Feb 07 2011
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So the virus makes me sleepy but I end up waking up in pain. I just wish it'd all go away.
00:35 Feb 07 2011
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So the SYSTEM is sick as a dog. I slept all day but this virus is just getting the best of me. I tryed eating food just now.. :x Not helping.
They wanna get a pizza. Ha. Well enjoy people. I can't be botherd eating today. I just want to drink soda. My stomach is killing me.
Jerk Off06:19 Feb 06 2011
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Then after that I believe I might just stay quiet. You're getting cocky. Go get the other you to do things. Stay or go. What do I care anymore. You never seem to amaze me more.
Really all I have left to say is what a shame.
-_-04:13 Feb 06 2011
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Sorry about that rant. I couldn't help it at the time. I'm going to be much nicer.
Reasons to be a retard14:12 Feb 05 2011
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Claim to be smart and have a love for something.
Bash everyone for all they have.
Then use people. But get owned by people who make you think they love you. Seriously you get more retarted by the hour.
Girl, you bitched about them so much and now you ditched your friend to join them. It's all cool. You were delt with by me.
Now, I wasn't going to do alot of things but you keep pushing my buttons. How dare you use her and then on top of that try to mess with me.
Here's an idea: You aren't about to get the men who will play you like a cheap whore. Why don't you just FUCK YOURSELF! People are tired of you humping them. You'd do anything to get your hands on a penis. What a sad day for humans everywhere and the thought of anyone having an I.Q!
21:28 Feb 04 2011
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21:02 Feb 04 2011
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15:32 Feb 04 2011
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I can give you a ♥ but I can't hand you a brain. Sad.
Only time will tell. Hell, years later and you still fail. >:/
Stupid smart people00:49 Feb 03 2011
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I'm going to try my best not to get angry with you. This is really going to test my skills as a leader. Stupid! I can't begin to explain how stupid you can be...
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Selkie
19:44 Feb 23 2011
awesome profile and love the 'online' thingy too :P
TheSYSTEM
19:51 Feb 23 2011
Is really the best mentorship I've ever been in. I'd like to thank my mentor for helping me figure out how to do things on my own. I used to get stuck in the middle of coding it all but the way she explained it was much easyer. I don't feel as dumb anymore. xD