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Entertaining........................family........work..........



........TIRED of it...............................................



I know we should be grateful to spend time with our family and friends during the holiday season.......however.....



I believe the term is "I'll have a Vodka Valium Mocha Latte Please"............



Come on 2012.....time to look for a new job......

clean house, quit smoking.....hit the gym LOL



Hell, just gimme a bloody mary, menthol cigarette and a treadmill.....:)

It was great to see my sis and bro , who introduced me to VR.



For all those who celebrate Christmas, I hope you had a good one... Cheers



Next week.....NEW YEAR>>>>>>>



************BRING IT *******

Treat People as You Would Like to be Treated.



Karma's Only a Bitch if You Are.....

Good morning on this fine overcast and wet day. Have a case conference this morning in like 35 minutes and am nowhere even near the office yet.



Hate going into that office....bunch of clucking hens. Too many women in an office equals too much gossip.



Caseload is overwhelmingly large today. At best its 16 hours of work........going to be a LONG DAMN day :(



Too bad the days of knights in shining armor on a fiery steed no longer exists to sweep me away..



So all I can hope for is Calgon Take Me Away Bubble Bath and a Cafe Mocha valium Vodka Latte....



Peace Out

True wisdom comes to each of us when we realize how little we understand about life, ourselves, and the world around us.



Socrates



FYI: Socrates NEVER wrote a thing, Plato performed his writings.

Night-time has finally come. A time I savor and relish. I sit in the darkness, naked and cool, just listening to the sounds of aquariums surrounding me and ceiling fans whirring. Embrace the peace, quiet and solitude. There is no one to hold onto tonight but I enjoy the alone time, just me , myself and I.



Skin feels so different and softer when you touch it lightly in the dark. Getting to know yourself and your skin is both sensual and seductive. And YES it is possible to seduce yourself.



Watched Stephen King's Bag of Bones last night and I slept with the bathroom light on....haha.



My precious baby brother came by earlier, he is 31 now. has his own glass blowing studio and doing very well. I am so proud of him.



I had a mediocre day, no highs, no lows, damn. I need highs and lows to remember that I am ALIVE!



Wish you were here to whisper to me in the darkness and drink from the crystal challis I have reserved for you, my minion.



I taste you in my sleep...mmmmmmmm.



Mr. TR is somewhere in Colorado enjoting cool weather while we continue to bask in the waarmth in the middle of December!

Today was a totally non-descript, non-commital type of day.



Daddy bear on the road to Dallas so I can have a sanity break. Break good until Wed, maybe more permanent. Hate to sleep alone but hate to sleep with an asshole too.



Its only 630pm and I am so tired I could crash here and now.



Visited mom today and she cooked dinner. Rare raw steak and spinach. My favorite.



Went to MD today and told them I am not taking meds prescribed, made me sick as a dog.

I feel a little depressed...let start you on Cymbalta.

I feel a little anxious and have trouble sleeping...letts start you on Seroquel....

I feel a little moody, possibly bipolar with up and down mood swings....lets put you on Lithium....



As I lie down and try to go to sleep I feel myself slipping in and out of reality.



Am I here, are you here>?? I am having the strangest out of mind experience. ...I am believing that everyone I know and love are gone form the face of the Earth.... This is jacked up...its alright, just lie there and it will all go away soon. ....I fall further into darkness and finally languidly slip into the surreal astral world....Am I astral projecting? Maybe/ maybe not....its okay. After a few hours I will slam back into my heavy body and wake to reality....bummer...

If all else fails then quit using All Else

Everyone that knows me, knows I was born in Washington state. Therefore, we all know Seattle weather suckest.



Well it rained all day here yesterday and was chilly. Not that i mind the weather BUT...

I drove 80 miles in the rain with San Antonions that cant drive in the rain.



Had only 1 patient to see and 80 miles round trip took 2&1.2 hours!!!!



Missed a Christmas Party in Schertz, Tx. because I just didnt feel like driving the extra 20 miles from where I was in that CRAP.



Missed teddy's birthday dinner because he was in a crappy mood. I think its time to move on. He is only getting worse and his memory sucks. He is easily agitated and says really cruel things that come from out of nowhere. I think i deserve better than this, sis, like u and yours.



Oh well, gave him a raincheck for lunch today,.Couldnt help it that I had to work. He should know by now that Pediatrics takes precedence over all other things.



Here's to hoping today turns out better and only a 20% chance of rain.

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.”

― Marilyn Monroe

Down on your knees and submit...look into my eyes when im talking to you!!!!



Daddy is going to be 59 on 12/09/11. Seriously need to look for a new daddy who acts less.than 80!! The other morninv he put on Dickie coveralls to.go to home depot. Im not about to be aeen like that! Hes 15 yrs older but acts.like hes 30 ywars older than me.

Went to the MD today because Ive been feeling like Im crawling out of my skin. Like.I told Sis, feeling crappy. She said its SAD and a little depression and insomnia.lucky there is a med for all those because there.us no cure. I was born in Washington state where everyone gets SAD.



So I pick up meda tomirrow but.for.tinight, I lie here on the couch listening to the blood pulse through my carotid arteries, bounding pulse, elevated blood pressure and high anxiety.



The anxiety.stems from working with stupid.parents who feel the need to do heroine, cocaine, meth, etc during their pregnancies and their babies are born addicted. I take care of the babies.



I think this job is getting to me aft15.ywars. Uts not worth my health.



Love.you sis amd bro, hope to see you tomorrow. Swwet.dreams. Like they say , knock on the sky and listen to the sound....i love that movie!!!