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no sleep today, again. i had to go out and assist my family with the thanksgiving feast. of course i was stuffed, and im going to gain 10 pounds, but itll be worth it. :) its nice to have a family again. :) and so my new life will continue :)

Today I went to a funeral of another one of my dead relatives. i guess death is just a natural part of life, though. i should be used to it, but yet i still am not. watching all those people mourn and cry about one they lost. i dont understand why they cried in front of others.. dont they know that that shows a sign of weakness? it sucks that she is gone, but thats just life.

Im so sick of people who judge and hurt. i had to miss an entire week of school because my throat burned so badly. sometimes i just wish it would all just go away and i could be normal. i dont want people to be afraid of me and i dont want to hurt them anymore. i feel so alone....