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For everybody who has left such lovely messages on my profile, rated me well, and just in general welcomed me I would like to say thank you. I know in this day and age, saying "I want to be a vampire" can be misconstrued as the worst kind of posing, and is the biggest reason I pulled in on myself and tried to hide what I have. Coming to this site has been the biggest source of regeneration and solace I have ever found, and many people have offered their help, and continue to do so. It would seem that I was right in trusting my instincts one more time, and giving both this site and the inhabitants within a shot at helping me discover my path in this world.

Having been laughed at, condescended to, and in general abused because of what I want, I can relate to anybody who has ever had the same kind of treatment. In this time, with sacchrine sweet versions of vampires abounding, sometimes it is hard to distinquish the dedicated few from the simpering masses. I wish to be nobody's slave in exchange for a few drops of precious blood- I wish to be what my instincts are telling me and have been telling me for years- a vampire.

I have been a bartender for 22 years, yet only within the last 4 or so have I been able to acknowledge the empathic side of my nature that has been so essential in making me as good a bartender and friend as I am. I have a strong back, broad shoulders, a good heart, and an open mind to go with that empathy. Should any of you ever need someone to talk to, cry with, or just in general unburden yourself to, please- do not hesitate to contact me. That applies to anybody, vampire and human alike.

For those of you who have patiently waited for me to settle in and get comfortable, I would like to say thank you. I believe that I have truly found a place where I can feel comfortable both with what I am now and what I wish to become. I now feel comfortable enough to put my wishes in print, and anybody who feels like they can help, please, by all means add your contributions. If you feel the need to razz, jeer, or be condescending, knock yourself out-I can deal with that too-I'll ignore it, but I'll deal with it...deleting is a wonderful thing...lol

I wish to find a vampire. Not one of the fake fang wearing, leather clad, makeup wearing poseurs. I want an honest to god (you'll pardon the pun) vampire, one who can finish what I and genetics and environment have already begun. I realize that few people today actually believe that real vampires exist-I do. I know there are a lot of people who like to play at it by dressing up faking it- I do not. I wish only the reality of vampirism, not a mere actor's shade. If there is anyone out there who can honestly help me, either by being what I need or knowing someone who is, I would greatly appreciate any and all input.

No...I do not expect vampirism to solve my problems, make me rich, or give me anything I don't already have. I only want to complete the cycle I have been living with unfinshed all these years. Please, do not think I take this decision lightly-I do not. I have put years of thought into this, many hours of research, and countless prayers and incantations into this decision. I have no need to exploit what I wish to become either-for me this is a very private thing, and I fully intend to keep it within my own circle of family once the change is finished. So, if you can help, please contact me, and if you have any other questions you would like me to answer, please don't hesitate to ask. I am eternally grateful for everyone here and their warm wishes and help during my settling in. Once again, I am yours in the night-

Luanne