Have I ever mentioned how sexy it is to talk to someone of the opposite sex that is intelligent and knows how to hold a stimulating, witty and intellectual conversation? Damn that turns me on! LOL and *drools*. Girls you know its true .....
You've got it going on babe...I love talking to you.
Trust and communication are two of the most important keys to a happy and healthy relationship. I know this. Unfortunately I seem to be failing at the first of these. My new relationship shouldn't be cheated or damaged by the aftermath that Dylan left in his wake. While I know that you are not him, not by a long shot, I still seem to have been holding onto that issue. You have never given me any reason to doubt you and so I am going to get my shit together and remember that and give you my trust, wholeheartedly. I don't ever want to do anything to harm what we have and what I know we will and can have. I really love you... ♥
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just relax and take it one day at a time sweetie , I understand how you feel , I have been though this myself , give him a chance he isn't Dylan if he was you would have never met him , meeting you and doing a face to face is a good point .I,m here if you want to talk to a expert on this stuff.
Thanks Caro :)
oh, now why didn't it leave a reply?
i said to stay in the moment, take each day one by one, and by doing that, you'll build trust and learn to trust again.
Thats what I'm doing hun, all I can do really . Thankies :)
I know where you are coming from... It will be hard, but as time progresses trust shall bloom. Now cross my hand with silver for gazing into my cystral ball for you!
Will a thimble do? :P
The trust thing is really hard, I have those issues from a few previous relationships and it does make it hard when you enter into a new relationship, you want to trust that person whole heartily and even though they don't give you any reason not to trust them things creep into your mind, I think you can tell though, I feel completely different with this person :)
Stay Golden and it will be all fine *hugs*
Do you believe in the old adage "Out of sight, out of mind" or the contrasting one "Absence makes the heart grow fonder" ? Hmmmm.....
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Well from my own personal experience, when me and my ex split up and he moved back to Scotland I think it really helped the out of sight out of mind thing, I wasn't missing him, where as with the person I'm now with when we haven't seen each other for a week its wonderful when we do see each other again, I think it depends on your feelings for the person if your relating it to a person, if that makes any sense?!! lol :)
Yes it does *smiles*
Since I've moved to where I am now three weeks ago, I've gotten a little serious with two men. With one, I sort of forget about him if he's not around. With the second, I'm always missing him when he's not here. My room feels empty, my bed feels too big.
She's right. It depends on how you feel about the person.
I still miss you dearly. It'll be either cold and rainy or frigidly cold. So I'll make sure I'm nice and cuddly for you.
Hmm, i would love to see some photos of you two together!
Yes I also think that absence does makes the heart grow fonder.
that prayer doesn't get answered around here lol ^.^
I haven't felt this way about anyone in such a long time I'm not sure how to act. Sure I had a few fleeting thoughts over the last 3 years but they weren't even close to what I am feeling now and it scares the hell out of me. This is real. It's deep and beautiful. I am just so grateful that you are in my life right now. You are always on my mind and I long for the day when I can be in your arms again. You are simply amazing...
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very cool, im happy for you two....now if we could just hook up ole moonies lol
Awwwww there is those warm fuzzies again (:
I am happy for you (:
i'm very happy for you both. :)
:)
Nice.
I just got home about an hour ago. We had the most wonderful time together and leaving was sheer torture for me. Our meeting was everything I had hoped it would be and more, much more....I miss him something terrible right now.
Thank you for being you ♥ .............now somebody pinch me lol
Laying beside you this morning, there were so many things I wanted to say to you. Like how much our time together has meant to me and what an amazing man you truly are. This road to discovery has been bliss "I'm falling in love with your ways".....
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*Wipes a tear away and sniffs*
How lovely, sounds like a fairytale! :)
: )
True happiness is found in many ways...even when we are not looking in those places.
What DarkWolfman said.
I have barely left the bedroom lol. WOW just freaking amazing.....and so is he. I'm smitten like a kitten ;)
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lol, hope you got lots of lubricant cause sounds like to me your gonna be really sore by the time you come home.
Who needs lube if they are doing their job right? LOL
lol...that is very true...glad you're enjoing yourself XD
Ooh get you!!! ;)
Have fun lol
RAWR!!! is all i'm saying on this matter ~giggles~
Glad you're having fun hun. Sorry about the comment last night.
:) Good for you, well..both of you.
Whoo hoo! You go, girl!
I'm the only guy so far to comment but....damn you get you some.
Go Pandora Its your Bday , wooot wooot.
Woop the three years is over, doing a happy dance now! Wait does this mean I can't flirt with u anymore :(
Lol, well done you!
I'm getting ready to go meet him, it's a six hour drive without the stops. I am so nervous I am literally sick to my stomach. He has came to mean so much to me, I just hope I meet his expectations. I haven't wanted something this bad in a long time..
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Have a real nice time :)
Enjoy!!!
hon, if he doesn't like you he,s just Blind and stupid.. Relax.
Lolz
YOU'RE driving to see someone?
Not the other way around?
Lolwuuuuuut
Relax and try to have a great time.
take some deep breaths and enjoy your trip
he is probally filling his pamper's he is so nervous about meeting you too ill bet lol...have fun ^.^
well looks like it's all ok. : )
Just 3 more days, I am leaving Monday and will arrive there in roughly 6 hours. I can't wait to meet him! Soooo excited. And nervous heh. So I won't be on VR next week and with any luck I won't be leaving the bedroom either *grins*.....shameless I know ;)
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Have a blast Pandora you deserve it .
I plan on it, thanks hun :)
Have fun....lots of it!!!
That sounds like some much needed and deserved fun
Have a blast (:
have a fun and safe trip :)
*Hugs*
Good luck sweety,
I always want you to be happy.
Have fun! :)
Go for it hunny! All the wY, or no way! X
Good luck and I hope you both get on great!
SCREAMS!!
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YEAH... I KNOW.
lol try again.....
Joins SCREAMS! Don't know why we are screaming but sounded like fun. :-)
Yeah I like the idea of a scream.....
SCREAMS!!
Reading over certain sections in my journal forced me to think of you. I try not to. And really it's not that hard, not anymore. You were the love of my life and you almost succeeded in taking it from me. Not that I can lay all that blame at your door, I will always be accountable for my own actions. It took me a long time to get over you and the Love Game has a good 8 months of zero entries. I won't let the memory of you steal anymore time from me.
You have had a good part in changing the way I look at love and relationships. My heart was an open book before I met you, I was spontaneous, I just went with my heart and damned the consequences. You made me start to see things in just black and white. I trusted. I trusted you. I believed in you. I believed in us. And you just watched, just let me, let me hang myself.
I spent countless hours, days, months....just trying to figure out why you did it. What did you get from it? Who are you really? I cried, I sobbed, I screamed. I couldn't even escape you in my dreams, you followed me there too. How quickly love can turn to hate.
I hear from others that you have been back on this site with a new profile for some time now, that you are up to your old tricks. I feel sorry for whoever your next victim is. Because you are good, very good, at deceit. But you will get found out just like before. Liars always do.
You took something from me. But guess what? I'm taking it back. I'm moving on and I can finally see something, someone worth being my true self again for.
I wash my hands and memory of you. Oh and btw, I threw all your stuff out :D
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It hurts us to the core when people are deceitful. They have no business doing what they do, but they do it any way. It's very much like rape. It cannot be forgotten or washed away. You are a beautiful woman and have many beautiful qualities and some day there will be someone who will be blessed enough and worthy to have you as their woman. /mush
That means a lot to me Christine, thank you. And you were one of those people that was there for me when I fell apart and I will never forget that, I will be eternally grateful and cherish our friendship.
Amen, sister!
This made me go back in time to ponder on my own fucked up love-life.
Like you, I have learned from the experience.
Thats all we can do...
So glad to see you moving on...since I'm leaving Town shortly...good luck monday!
Oh and btw...my own love life has seen this Result one too many times also. It still mystifies me to this day why my ex was as he was to me, then amazingly, shortly after we split up (or rather, I should say, I developed the courage to leave him finally) he married somebody else and is still married to this day.
I wonder if he's abusing her as he abused me......
It truly confounds me.
I thank my stars that I live in another Town...if I ever see him again, I'm gonna knock his ass out, simply put.
Hon, if your talking about who I think you are . oh please just let him open his mouth to you and hell will bust wide open and I,ll be holding the pitchfork , and Ob said yeah please , please Show his stupid face cause he,s still waiting for his ass.
I wish he would just so I could see it lol
Do you ever ask yourself "how well do I really know this person?" How many times have I believed I knew the heart of someone and been totally wrong.
Because right now I feel a little sick to my stomach.
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Que?
No hablo Espanol heh :)
I think it’s very difficult to truly know a person; people are so full of surprises!
You know, I've felt that way sometimes looking into the mirror.
Yeah hun,
You like to think you know.. but you dont.
I have found that to be quite annoying. Like when you think you know someone and then they show their true colors and they really are not who you thought they were to begin with. It isn't even them changing in any way- it's just they acted a certain way to show off a certain persona then BAM who they really are comes out.
I had to move on from close friendships after I had my son. A lot of people started to show their true colors and ended up being people I didn't want or need in my life.
I'm getting cold feet. I don't know if I can do this. I am really starting to feel the pressure and I don't think I can measure up. I've never had problems with my self esteem but now I am having them all over the place. If I don't go I won't have to deal with my feelings of inadequacy. I'm not good enough for him, thats all there is to it.
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WHATEVER!
dont let your unfounded fears take this away from you.You have been waiting and waiting..Go through with it!!
if you don't try, you may have regrets
NO, NO, NO, NO!!!! lol
You are good enough and you must go, I think most people have some sort of esteem issues at some point but you will probably regret it if you don't do it and could be missing out on something wonderful :)
Its better to just give up before getting started bro
We all have moments of self-doubt but to miss out on something because of it would probably leave you with regrets, and you are not inadequate in the least. Go for it and enjoy :)
Sweetie just take a deep breath and one one step at a time , let it take its own course , you never know it could just work out great stop putting your own feeling onto him , you don't know what he thinks or feels give him a chance, I had the same problem when Ob and I first got together I drove from NC to SC not knowing what to expect and I,m not half as Pretty as you are and i forced myself to take a chance and everything worked out wonderful , so calm down and take the chance you,ll regret it if you don't it will always be what if.
Put on your big girl thong and buck up lil camper. I am overly sure the only expectation is SHOWING UP. The rest of it is just natural. Just be you and things will be fine.
Ok Ok...now...look in the mirror and reflect.
Say this...
I'm Good Enough, I'm Smart Enough, and Doggone It, People Like Me.
Thanks everyone, you guys are the best, and by golly Jay you are right lol
WTF after all this time, I am so not letting you get cold feet, if u don't go well… I'll spank the shit outta ya, now get back in that game......... Um what was we talking about again?
Yes - it is better to dive in, so you won't have to deal with any self-doubt later on.
No 'I should've or could've' stuff will be present to make you nuts.
Good luck!
Don't put yourself down Pandy and have achieved so much in life which includes an adoring family. Go for it honey x
you'll deal with the "what coulda been's" for the rest of your life if you don't go....
Just go for it.... : )
So you are back. And where is the first place you went? My profile. Thanks for the rate and all but we both know what that was all about. I don't want to talk to you so just stay the fuck away from me. You lost your place in my life. I don't consort with liars.
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And of course, he messages me *sighs*.
Oi I'm sorry.
Oops.. well you need to be surrounded with people who can take the hint!
Lets, hope he gets the message
Nine days. That is all that separates us now. Yes my dear readers, I am meeting someone from VR, not divulging who so don't go getting too excited lol. Yes, I CAN keep my mouth shut on occasion hehe. I've become very close to this person and yes my intentions are one of a romantic sense but I have learned a valuable lesson from my "VR" experience and that is you NEED TO MEET IN PERSON before you can even think about being "together", they are like-minded. Hopefully there is chemistry if not then we both can say we have a life long friend in one another. I'm hoping for the first. Wish me luck ;)
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I hope it goes wonderful for you two. I think either way it goes it will be a wonderful experience. I'm excited! -claps hands-
Remember there are outdoor activities..
Thanks Lainey, I am too :D
LOL @ Dan, oh I plan on taking it outdoors too ;)
Absoloutely! I wish you the best in this endeavour.:)
Good luck with this, hope it turns out as wonderful for you as my meeting with my man from here has for me! :)
Is it someone fat and pigfaced?
If so I would advice against it, just my two kronor
Nah, he's a hottie :)
Good luck Sweetie.
I wish you look and think this is fab, You deserve to be happy. :-)
You finally meeting Cancer? Gosh! :P
LMFAO! Oh lord lets not get that one started haha
Outside can be fun, just bring a blanket and find a good hidey-spot.
Cancer, eh?
Ohhhhh he's a hottie!
: P
That's right woman do go spouting about how we are getting that hotel, with razor blades and whip cream, that's out secret! Ummmmm…shit I did it again dint I? Lol
Ait you're going to be there too Jay? Now I have to bring a spare gimp suit!
*Hugs*
I am very happy for you hun. ;)
Oh kinky, bring it big boy well make it a orgy ( jumps around in a gay fashion clapping hands)
i hope you 2 are made for each other, good luck!
Like I said, bring a blanket and find a nice hidey-spot..it's the best time of year for "outdoor festivities".
Good luck!
"You finally meeting Cancer"
That really made me laugh!!
Good luck hun!
Whoo hoo! This is so cool - I hope that you two hit it off. If not, like you said - you can still be friends if there is no romantic spark - other stuff can be in synch!
Thank God for second chances and that you were big enough of a man to give me one even though I probably don't deserve your mercy or forgiveness. I need to reign in that mouth of mine ;) You are one of the most amazing men I have ever had the privilege to know and I hope to always have you in my life, it would be a sad and lonely place without you in it. And in 10 more days I will be able to tell you just what you mean to me. Unless we detest each other lol...don't see that happening though *crosses fingers*.
Thank you ♥
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awww I love seeing entries like this (: makes me all warm and fuzzy (:
*Smiles* HE makes me feel all warm and fuzzy ;)
Awwwws, so cute. :D
it is so nice to see warm and fuzzies (: lately most entries are all drama or about pain and despair...
Well, this almost was one of despair :( But thankfully he is who he is. :)
Aww...a warm fuzzy cupcake! :P
Awww remember to hold your farts in..lol
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ThePinja
20:26 Sep 25 2010
And you think I deprive myself of sleep because you don't have those qualities? Love talking to you too Hun.
CarnelianMyst
21:54 Sep 25 2010
What's that like? It's been so long...*sighs and kicks a can in the corner and walks off*
ladySnowStrixx
23:10 Sep 25 2010
lol look out now!!
BLOODLIFE
23:48 Sep 25 2010
No one from VR then :-P
Theban
16:41 Sep 26 2010
Lol I like that Bloodlife!