Last night was nice. My roommate said she could hear me giggling and my bursts of laughter, she said it made her laugh out loud and that it was a good sound. You bring out the laughter in me, thoughts of you make me smile, I'm glad to see us back on track.
love you baby ♥
My good friend ladySnowStrixx posted a very nice comment to me in an entry and it she says "just be yourself" but what happens when that isn't good enough? What happens when they don't like who that is? When all the hearts and flowers are gone, when love seemingly isn't unconditional. I don't know if I can change that part of me that is so unattractive to him....I don't know if I am good enough.
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*Hugs* Both of you are good enough!
pan Sweetie , I use to think the same way for years , I wasn't pretty enough or smart enough or slim enough and it took me years to find OB we both have flaws but we work with them and except them He freaks over the small stuff and Me the big stuff but we help each other if he truly loves you and you love him then you both need to sit down and talk and just except each other for who and what you are . work with it the things the others might fine off putting about him could be the thing that drew you to him and the same for him to you STOP trying to annualized it , you can't its emotions and feelings you just have to jump in and take the chance and let it go where it wants to and I know its hard to do that but anything else will kill it before its gotten the chance to go anywhere. Good luck Hun
I just don't know if I have the energy for this anymore. Neither of us are happy. It shouldn't be this hard.
It takes a special kind of guy to handle a woman like me, admittedly I am quite the handful, hot tempered feisty and opinionated. I will test you time and again, I am damaged, I am sorry but there is nothing I can do to change that about me. I will try harder because the love of a good man is so very hard to find. And my man is the best, I love you Rod.
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I would love to handle you.
what kind of fucking comment is THAT?
O.o
glad you're doing better hunny!
A saucy one I think lol
hun, you are a very sweet woman who has has a few hard times you are not damaged , stop telling yourself that , you beautiful , bright and full of love and life you deserve to be happy and can be if you just let go and let yourself.we both know what happened before but do not let that be a problem in this Rod is not him .
I had thought I had found a partner. You know, someone you could say anything to, share all of your deepest and darkest thoughts and secrets with. Someone that listened to the good AND the bad and was there for you through it all no matter the situation. Unconditional time and love.
Found out today I was wrong. And guess what, I did just fine before you and I will do the same after you. I have plenty of other friends that will be happy to let me cry on their shoulders and offer solace and/or advice when I need it.
When you start drawing lines on love and support, I guess that says it all.
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Excuse me, I did not SAY I didn't want to hear it. I told you of my concern, about how serious you take every single thing on VR. So again you hear what you want to. My love isn't conditional, it just sucks when you feel like you're coming in second to a website. Is that what you wanted? Tell that to all your wonderful friends, oh wait they just read it.
I'm done.
Obsession is feeling fearful that you may be losing him; detachment is knowing that he may be losing you; and apathy is the past tense of both.
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:(
sweetie, stop looking for things that may or may not happen just go with the flow and let it happen naturally , you just need to relax and stop doing what if's.
Can't sleep, waiting for you to wake up so you can drop the other shoe. Let's just get it over with shall we.
Living so far away from him and not being able to see him is making me sad and somewhat depressed. It's just that, well...I've never been good at this sort of thing and it's very lonely. The phone is no replacement for the touch of his hands. I miss him. :(
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Is someone going to relocate?
Yes, he is moving in with me where I live in Idaho but it will take time as he has things to take care of there first...looking at next year sometime
Well congratulations! I wish you both the best. ^^
I can sympathize about the distance. It's definitely a lot easier with someone who can be there with you.
I know from experience how hard it can be but Look at me and Ob we went through that and now were a old married couple , just keep believing in you and him and it will be alright you can do it Hun I know you can.
:( I can't imagine... I get depressed if I don't see my bf for 2 days. I am a soft bitch though :P
Glad you are moving though and will no doubt make up for the current lack of cuddles xx
yup sometimes you just need to be able to hug :)
Hey I am going though the same thing he just left a week ago i been going crazy with out him the phone and computer is all we have right now until he comes back or i go there i understand your pain .. ( Hugs)
Good luck
Hey, I have missed a lot in my two weeks away! That will be just so perfect you two getting together :) Congrats n' luv to you both x
Hang in there. :)
I miss you too Love, I'll figure something out for inbetween.
I know that you view offline a lot, check your messages please....
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I did and you just wrote that I smell!
Ahahaha! :P
Well looks like bad news travels fast, apparently good news to this person. Cody called me this morning, tried to cheer me up and then the conversation lead to what I knew it would. He told me that he still loves me, has never stopped and asked me if there was a chance at all of me taking him back.
How can I when my heart belongs to Rod. I have no room for anyone else. And I don't jump from one guy to the next. I might be a little vulnerable right now but I'm not a fool.
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*sings the zelda song*
If you just gave me all these guys facebook accounts it'll all be better ;) Just kidding hun.
I'm still here, and I will be.
The Zelda song lol, I love you babe.
I would stick with the one that has your heart go with your heart ...
No sense in pretending we can behave like adults apparently, thats been blown to hell LOL. Nothing like airing our dirty laundry for all of Vr to see but heh, what else is new. I enjoy answering a gazillion messages in the morning concerning the shambles of my love life....yeah, uhuh.
And just for good measure, I love you regardless.
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If you act like an adult you can't be a toy-r-us kid no more.
Well fuck that adult shit by all means then :P
`hugs~ yeah gotta love the high school ambiance of VR eh?
noooo kiddin'....eh.
Really? If someone has nothing to hide but they take precautions to hide things nonetheless, wouldn't you say they were guilty?
The thing about trust is, you have to at least behave in a trustworthy manner for fucks sakes! And not pointing fingers here *coughs* but for those of you who think you have the upper hand and are playing the player, think again. I'm one step ahead of you.
Everyone underestimates me.....still. Even those closest to me. How does that saying go? "If you look like a duck, talk like a duck and walk like a duck, then guess what?" .........
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then we are having duck for dinner? :)
Roasted Duck yummy
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VAMPIREBONNIE
17:49 Nov 29 2010
aaah, this entry made me smile. Glad you 2 are doing good :)
DarkCrystal
18:48 Nov 29 2010
I wanna know is why you were giggling and laughing?
ThePinja
20:24 Nov 30 2010
hehe I do make a good laugh. What can I say, I like to make the male staff at work very uncomfortable with my homosexual gestures and remarks.
Thrust walking, my favorite past time besides Thrusting at traffic.