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Think happy thoughts, think where is my happy place, ooops Pinja is nakked and blindfolded down to a bed there hehehe *rubs hands together*

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KattrinaK
03:51 Dec 29 2010

: )

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xxEmaeraldxx
15:18 Dec 29 2010

It is now the 29th of December.. is he still blindfolded? lol

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ladySnowStrixx
18:29 Dec 29 2010

Wow , All I can Say is I hope you are taking time out to at least feed him As he is gonna get very tired if you don't .

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WOOT! I leave in the morning to go see my baby Pinja, I can't wait I am so excited to get to see him again. It's been so hard being apart from one another, I love him so much it's ridiculous. Two more months and we won't need to travel across state anymore, he will be living here, counting the hours...

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ladySnowStrixx
21:05 Dec 17 2010

Good luck hun, have fun .

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Saetan
00:11 Dec 18 2010

Awesome. Have a great time and you two stay safe

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KattrinaK
01:58 Dec 18 2010

Yay lovely, call me if you need anything, you have the number yes?

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CarnelianMyst
02:18 Dec 18 2010

GET SOME FOR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

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I think I am over-sexed.....

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Seeker2112
21:53 Dec 16 2010

That's not possible

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PandorasBx
21:54 Dec 16 2010

That's not what my hormones are screaming at me lol

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ThePinja
21:56 Dec 16 2010

Oh... you will be.

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KattrinaK
21:58 Dec 16 2010

Hi, we're close in age...can you say in "muh PRIME"?



*casts lascivious looks at anything hump-able*

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PandorasBx
22:00 Dec 16 2010

*giggles* hey I'm still in my 20's *shifty eyes*....



Promise Pinja? ;)

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birra
22:57 Dec 16 2010

You know.. there are worse problems to have...

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CosmicSerpentGuru
23:03 Dec 16 2010

you think....lol

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CryingMist
23:24 Dec 16 2010

wait till you get near 40 lol it gets worst and I could say it gets 100 times worst lol at least you still have the youth's beauty ;)

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ladySnowStrixx
23:35 Dec 16 2010

you say that like its a bad thing!

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I am supposed to head over to Tacoma to visit Pinja for several days and attend Masquerade Mayhem in Seattle with him. But I'm waiting to see what the conditions are going to be on the Snoqualmie Pass. I don't have snow tires or chains ugggh...living where I do you would think they would be a given. I really hope there won't be any restrictions, I miss him so much, February seems so far away...

I feel sad. Not really sure why. It seems as though the dynamics of our relationship has changed. I suppose that is to be expected after a time but it seems too soon to me. Calls are now relegated to the end of the day or night actually if they are remembered at all when it used to be during work breaks, from your sons house, the first chance you had. Most average 1 hour when they used to be 8. I tell myself that this is natural and that truthfully there isn't much we haven't discussed or talked about at this point. And that is true. There is only so much "new" things in a day. I worry about other things that have dwindled down to nothing pretty much and that doesn't seem normal. It's been around 6 months and 3 since a commitment. I don't want to lose the spark, maybe we have already...



I am having a moment of insecurity and it totally sucks.

I haven't seen him since October when he came here to see me. I was hoping to see him this month for either New Years Eve or the Masquerade concert but with Christmas this month traveling really seems like an impossibility. It's really getting me down. I am afraid that being apart for such a great length of time will cause me to lose him....it scares me and I can't keep from worrying.

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CosmicSerpentGuru
18:03 Dec 10 2010

sometimes you just got to let things happen naturally,stressing out is never a fun thing

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Be careful with me. Sometimes when you think the decisions are all yours to make you turn around and find that they have already been made for you.



A friend on here pointed out something to me and he was absolutely right. WTF.

Obsession is feeling fearful that you may be losing him; detachment is knowing that he may be losing you; and apathy is the past tense of both.

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SinsOfTheSuccubus
19:45 Dec 06 2010

I loved that quote when it was on your profile. So true.

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I just did something really foolish, love will do that to you. It won't happen again. I could hear all the answers in just the tone of your voice. I hope life is good to you, you deserve only the best.

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captainglobehead
19:18 Dec 03 2010

I think YOU deserve only the best.

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PandorasBx
19:48 Dec 03 2010

Thanks Dave :)

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ThePinja
20:23 Dec 03 2010

Acting is not something I do well. Hiding what I feel is not something I do well either, unless i'm unsure. These last few days have left me more unsure than I've been in a long time.

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My best friend tells me I need to bend a little, she says this in tears, she worries about me and I love her for it. But she is right, I don't bend when I should, I am too rigid in my beliefs. Changing a lifetime of habits is hard...but if I am ever to be happy in this life I need to start.

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Saetan
21:13 Dec 02 2010

She is exactly right. You determine your happiness, hun, and no one can make you give something up that you don't want to. No one can make you change where you do not want to change.



Only you have the power to make yourself happy, and you know what? You are a wonderful person all by yourself, no matter what anyone else says.

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Oceanne
20:52 Dec 04 2010

Yep.I second that.

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PandorasBx
22:45 Dec 04 2010

Thanks you guys...

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