I have had this overwhelming urge to go in my bedroom, shut the door, crawl under the blankets and cry. Maybe have my own little pity party under there. I haven't felt like this in awhile but I think things are starting to catch up to me.
My personal life is in shambles right now. I just can't seem to obtain happiness, it whispers to me and when I reach out for it......And mistakes I have made are biting me in the ass.
Besides the fact that I can't ever seem to keep my mouth shut, say the wrong things or its misconstrued and I hurt the people I love and care about.
My son Justin just got home from the Oregon Coast and he is so proud of his shark tooth necklace and the arrowhead one as well, they had an awesome time. His first time fishing in the ocean, first time seeing the Pacific Ocean for that matter. I would love to go there someday...
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Aww lovely pictures! :)
Nice pictures
AH, he came home early! Yay. Scrub the other comment heh. X
Very nice my dear!
Shit, my hair is starting to fall out again, my body is betraying me. I'm kinda freaking out, which just makes it worse.
"Think calm thoughts, think calm thoughts...." yeah right, me think calm thoughts pffft.
:(((
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Think 19 days ;)
YESSSSSSSSS! That thought just makes everything better ;)
hon, hair lost is part of getting older ,but I know what ya mean ,, now have no idea what 19 days has to do with it but if it works for you let me know.
I'm not talking small amounts here, this is an issue that has to do with my stress levels.
oh ya I know that feeling.. stress does crazy stuff to a person's body...hugs
Sit dowm put your feet up and I'll rub your toes...and then you just relax..
That sounds damned good about now TB thanks hun
Wow I found an old pic of me with my daughter when she was a baby, can you say dated? LOL, not telling what year that was ;)
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telling by the hair I'm saying the 80's hehe *runs
Close.....lol, knew that would be a dead give away...a lil' later :P
Oh ya I am going to go with 1988... girl you should see my *dated* pics on my facebook lol
Pretty mommy and baby...1992? Is this the one that's making you a grandma soon? Heh heh.
90's people sheesh...
And THANK YOU Indulgence :)
Late seventies.
Bite me Bones
Holy 1980's hair..
Awww...Im gonna say 1992
To cute :)
OOooo I was gonna say 80's too because of the hair lol it is really cute ( :
I didn't ask anyone to guess the era lol but alrighty then...
Aww that's a lovely picture hun! :)
Thanks sweetie :)
Dam I missed this, it is a really nice picture, you look sexy with all that wild hair lol!
Awww thanks TB :)
I know what year it is... it is in the year of perfection...wow for a Hot babe mommy.
thankies Gordy :)
My son Justin just left to go to the Oregon coast for a week with his dad, it will be the longest we have ever been apart. Is it just pathetic that I had a lil' tear in my eye and my son promptly gave me a hard time about it LOL.
He is the last chick in the nest, what will I do when he is gone, I've been raising children for so long I'm not sure how to live my life without them.
Well I have about 10 more years to think about it lol
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Don't worry mom, those cords stretch but never break!
Yeah I should know that by now lol
Aww *Hugs* :)
You sound like a super Mum :) x
Awwww, thanks Emmy :)
Go get yourself a dog! :P
Are you volunteering? ;)
Well all hell broke loose here last night. I get a phone call at 1:45 in the morning and its my ex-husband Jason, infuriated. He starts in on me yelling about how he doesn't want Justin, our son, out night fishing with his brother Tyler ever again. Now Tyler is 22, Justin will be 10 in like 3 weeks, they fish everyday together its something they both love to do. So Jason was pissed because there were 2 other friends with them and he assumed they were up to no good, which was far from the truth. The funny thing is that Jason heard about it because his step daughter was down at the river with her boyfriend, yeah at midnight and he is worried about Justin, ok. Jason has taken Justin night fishing many times, his issue is with my son Tyler who was doing nothing wrong but spending quality time with his little brother. Tyler and Jason have never gotten along.
So instead of talking calmly with me about the situation or waiting till daylight to discuss it he is YELLING at me, TELLING me what is allowed and not allowed. Uhmmmmmm, just who the hell do you think you are talking to? We have shared custody, you do not call my house and tell me what my house rules are to be. I always put Justin and his well-being first, he wasn't in any bad situation or doing anything wrong. So I basically had enough, told him to fuck off and hung up on him.
I'm sure this isn't over.
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He (your ex) deserved nothing better. right on!
It was probably immature of me to tell him to fuck off but I was pissed heh.
I would have told him why don't you go and worry about what your TEENAGE daughter is doing with her boyfriend at the lake at midnight any way....and I would have told him to fuck off as well.
Oh how infuriating for you, that is so unreasonable of him I KNOW if I had of been in the same situation I would of done the same thing.
Don't think I would have waited that long to hang up.
Damn babes I'm sry
Well, Its kinda stupid to call the mother of his son in the middle of the night and threaten her, , you could find it very hard to see the kid . and what is a kid gonna do at night while he,s fishing? throw bombs in the water ? I mean ghee if he has a problem with someone then he needs to talk about that and not use something else to show his ass.
Who has primary custody? Here the primary custody holder has the most say so in what goes on.
No one, its Shared, equal.
absolutely got what he deserved... that is for sure. I think that as the mom here you would know what is best for your son.
I think I would of told him to fuck off, well done you!
Ok this is weird. Just got a call from my ex-husbands wife telling me that his mom had just broke her ankle and would be going through surgery tonight. Ok........I'm thinking what does this have to do with me right? So they are calling me to see if I would sit with her this evening at the hospital for a few hours.....and....they would pay me. WTH?
Ok, last time I checked I was the EX-WIFE. I gave up all claims to his family 3 years ago. I haven't even talked to her in like a year at least. Last time she was in the hospital and I was still married to Jason then she asked for me not her kids mind you, me. I care about her but this is just a wee bit strange...apparently their schedules are full heh. Seriously I can't accept money for that, that would be fucked up. And honestly this would be going well and above my ex-wife duties...
CRAP.
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could be that she ask for you and they made up something to tell you other then that.
Sounds like it and it could be a little jealousy on their parts too because she asked for you.
I think maybe it is she likes you and trust you to take better care of her than they would.
Wow, what a strange situation to be in!
That's bizarre , take the money and RUN!!!!!!¡¡¡¡
Hahaha, I said no.
I was in a similar kind of situation not long ago, my ex's dad rang me out of the blue and wanted me to take my daughter to meet him for lunch as he was passing through the area on his way some where else, this "Grandad" has seen my daughter ONCE in 5 years, he hasn't bothered at all, I found out my ex had had a go at him and that was the only reason he had rang me I believe, my daughter doesn't know him at all so needless to say I declined his offer, he hasn't bothered in 5 years and I didn't see why I should go out of my way to meet someone like that who was probably only wanting to do it out of guilt, I put up with him when was still with my ex, don't have to now.
Yeah, obligation is gone.
I just got home from the beach and had one of the best days ever this year, I simply can't stop smiling. My oldest son Darren and his wife and kids came over from Montana this weekend to visit and we all made an outing of it today which includes his wifes family, which can rival the size of mine LOL. That's saying A LOT! hehe. It was just one of those days when it seems all is right in the world, a rare day indeed but a cherished one.
Other areas of my life are feeling amazing too, I'm going to remember this day and hold it close to my heart.
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Awwww I love days like that ( : yes cherish them doll because that is what gets us through the shit storms sometimes...
That sounds like a great time...I'm happy for you.
Thanks you two :)
I'm glad you had such a great time.
This guy just asked me how old I was or rather boy cuz I believe he is under 20 yrs. of age. Hasn't anybody ever told you that you NEVER, NEVER ask a woman her age. Well, now you know grasshopper lol....And to help you all out, I am older than all of you most likely....but I will modestly say that I look at least 10 yrs. younger. Do the math and don't ask.
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Older than Bones?
or PsiVampire? ;o
Now what did I just say :P
Hey Jadee.. Can I be your grasshopper? lol
ooooh ooooh ooooh I know I know!!! *waves hands in air*
LOL, sure Matty ;)
Pinja, you tell and I will have to do you bodily harm :D
Now wait a minute little one..I am the ancient one here. Send the virgin males to my altar for de-flowering. Heh.
There are virgin males? LOL
I was always told that to ask a woman their age was the same as asking a loaded question and considering that I don't have any riot gear.. I will always refuse to ask that question..
Smart man MOS
Hee hee...just last week, while waiting for a bus, this 'kid' pulls up in his car, tells me I'm beautiful, blah blah blah, and asked me out...all I could do was laugh, thank him for the comp, and tell him that I wan't interested since I was old enough to be his mother.
Then you are what... 30? Marking the mid 40's in a month myself. :)
I mean because you don't look over 20 something, add the ten years.. doing the math..
God damn it... I hate when people tell me to guess their age.
I swear when they do its a trick question to see how much of your foot you can get in your mouth.
You look young is all I am trying to say.
*shuts her mouth and goes away*
I still date em' when I'm old enough to be their mommy *winks*......
And VW, God bless you :)
Dont feel bad had one ask me my age today then looked at their age displayed in the same place as it was displayed on mine - and they were just 20. *Face palm*
some people don't use the common sense they were granted with.
Aye but ya gotta look at it this way. A man in hid early/ mid twenties is in his prime. Sorry can't be deflowered here, just enlightened. :D
Hmmmm, imagine that, I'm in my prime too ;)
Lol some people....
I just say the right age
Ooo an age thing : ) I know!
Once again I was reminded of why I left my ex-husband, seriously, he is one cheap SOB. I had asked Katy (the new Mrs. Brown) if Jason had started any school clothes shopping for Justin yet, we split the costs usually, he hadn't of course so I told her I was going to get some shopping done tonight. Katy says she will give me some money to help with it cuz she knows how Jason is by now lol. Well he ends up giving the money instead......a whole $50. Like, really? These people have money I kid you not and I know that Jason just sold a house so wtf? It's like, it's not for me you ass it's for your son! Oh well, I'll make sure Justin has what he needs, I always do.
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kick him in the stones!!!! lol. sorry thats my usual outburst.
As Pinja says.. What a meanie
Oooooo, he just came by and gave me another $20 lol
Cheap ass mo fo.
I think I would have given it back and said : here you keep it , obviously you act like you need it more then we do.
having little reminders like this is a great way to let your self know you did the rigth thing in leaving the man...I always have nice little reminders of why I left mine :)
Heh yeah....aren't those reminders fun :P
Pah, exes....! lol
I would of taken him school shopping if I had been the ex, he sounds like a total tightwad and lazy.
that $50 will get you crayons, notebook and cheapass bookbag
I have this terrible habit of biting my bottom lip constantly, an anxious habit and thus they are bruised in a lovely shade of what? Hard to say, burgundy? And it hurts to drink out of a cup *pouty face*
That is all...
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So your a bit of a Cannibal
Hehehe, come here and you'll find out muahaha!
I do exactly the same thing when i'm anxious, annoying habit I have.
Yep, I do it too.
My son Tylers dog got sprayed by a skunk last night NASTYYYY! I so wanna gag right now, it's so rank. This is going to be fun trying to get it out. We are using a hydrogen peroxide and baking soda recipe we got from the Internet. But whats worse is he jumped in my sons car after it happened and well yeah, it's pretty bad :P
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Ewwww PU!! lol
Hydrogen peroxide and baking soda? Hmmm, I guess tomato juice is a little out dated...hehe. Good luck with that!
Yeah, tomato juice doesn't work that well and thanks ugggh.
uggg ya I know that is an aweful smell my husky got sprayed by one a few years back, now mind you he is white and we did the whole tomato juice... he turned PINK it was aweful. I hope your remedy works.
That smell will last forever.
OMG it's not working, we are going to try a deskunker from the pet store, gah!
See if your son had a pet penguin this would never have happened.
.... Skunk got part of my leg once. It bled through the jeans to my skin. Gotta give that dog a deep scrub
ewwwwwwwwwwwwww
I can only imagine the smell!
What do skunks smell like???
Whew...also try soaking the poor pup in tomato juice.
This is a pic of my newest shot glass from my latest trip to Vegas, The Pink Taco and I just de-virginized it with a shot of Coconut Rum hehe, deeeeelicios.....
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aomnom
Hahaha! *passes you a shot*
I'll have to do a sandy bottom if you pass me that shot glass!
You're on TB! lol
I got to the breaking in of the cherry of the glass...and for some reason I didn't think you put something IN it. Laugh. I thought it went IN :) of course..that's just me.
I love to take a spoon and eat the peanut butter right from the jar, forget the bread......
That is all...
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It's much better on bread with sliced banana.
Ooooh, I love doing that. The bread just gets in the way of the yummy.
I've never had it with banana might have to try that next time...
Grill it like a grilled cheese..put some banana in there...YUMMO! :P
My son eats is with banana all the time- it was Elvis' fave sandwich. But it was specifically, 'fried peanut butter and banana sandwich'.
Fried or grilled just does not have any appeal for me, sounds nasty lol so I'll take your word for it :D
Sometimes it's better that way.
I must say that I eat it out of the jar as well.
I do not eat alot of bread.
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KattrinaK
19:51 Aug 26 2010
My Story as well....*nods*
::hugs::
May you feel better.
xxEmaeraldxx
20:04 Aug 26 2010
I think you are missing your wee man..hugs to you Pandy x
ladySnowStrixx
20:06 Aug 26 2010
Sorry hon, I know how you feel sometimes.
PandorasBx
20:11 Aug 26 2010
Thanks girls
IFsadnessHADaCHILD
21:08 Aug 26 2010
*leaves a cookie*
MDLIVE13
22:18 Aug 26 2010
*Hugs*
We are all dealing with shit in life hun That is how it is.
I know how you feel.
I realy do,
But remember this
it only makes us stronger.
And that mouth is part of you, We love you for you!
If you are not you .. who the fuck should you be?
Don't stress it Jadee.
It only gets better as we go on.
PandorasBx
22:23 Aug 26 2010
Thanks Matty, love you ♥
ThePinja
22:32 Aug 26 2010
*hugs*
xxBlueFairyxx
03:18 Aug 27 2010
I think we have all made mistakes... I know I have and they have bite me in the ass a few times. I know how you feel. My life work wise is great , I got promoted , major raise. But I come home and I realize how lonely I am. There are so many people in the world and we are all so lonely sometimes. People who love you should know where your coming from. And sometimes we all have bad days and say things we don't mean. That is why there is forgiveness and understanding. Your a great person pat yourself on the back.
PandorasBx
03:25 Aug 27 2010
Thank you :)
Theban
16:49 Aug 28 2010
Your a great person don't forget that! *Hugs*
DarkCrystal
04:14 Aug 31 2010
I won't ever leave our friendship. (Hugs)
I know how I can make you smile... Remember the pole dancing monkey?
Besides that. Maybe it is 'the time' for you to take a quest for understanding? To take time out just FOR yourself. Go to Vegas and enjoy the entertainment...and also gamble with some money.