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The last few weeks have been rather hard. I know that often times I say too much in my journal, things more often than not of a highly personal nature, things that many might think, including myself, that I should keep private.



I won't apologize for being an emotional person, it's who I am. Do I regret many of the things I have written here? A few. Not many though. Because it is my way. I say what's on my mind and damned the consequences. I alone must deal with them.



Anyone that follows my journal knows that my love life has been chaotic at best. It has been volatile. And right now it feels like it was all a lie. He did indeed lie, he did indeed cheat. He lied to me, his friends, his family and to himself. Oh he's sorry now no doubt about it but the damage is done. I have not been perfect in this relationship, I have damaged it in my own ways BUT that doesn't mean that I deserved what he did to me, what he did to us. Things were getting much better since he moved here and now I'm left to pick up the pieces.

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Bijou
19:13 Apr 26 2011

I do hope things start to look up for you

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Theban
12:13 Apr 28 2011

*Hugs*

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I'm just at the point of numb. I had about an hours sleep. I yelled, hit, broke things and wept hysterically. We talked in between those things. But in the end, the damage is done and still there. Who is this person that I loved? The person I fell in love with would never betray me like that. Or so I thought...



I don't deserve this. I feel like I've been stabbed in the chest a million times over.

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Bijou
03:42 Apr 14 2011

My heart goes out to you. This is a pain nobody deserves to feel I am truly sorry to hear all of this. ~hugs~

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moonkissed
03:45 Apr 14 2011

You deserve so much better than this.

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deringerdan
03:49 Apr 14 2011

If my words mean anything i am Sorry for you **hugs**

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Deity
03:55 Apr 14 2011

:(

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FeverDreams
04:54 Apr 14 2011

o.O another one of those betrayals ... you are going through it all over again ... i am really sorry ...

kick his cheating ass out please ....

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Theban
12:24 Apr 14 2011

*Big Hugs* Be strong x

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TheHollowAngel
08:43 Apr 16 2011

I'm around if you need to talk sweetie

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Vampirewitch39
19:05 Apr 16 2011

Take what your heart./ body is telling you. Take steps to take back your life, to make yourself happy. And only you can say what those steps are.

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Oceanne
13:05 Apr 26 2011

And it was great ,seeing how happy you were.



The dudes a schmuck.





:/

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There's a whole lotta things that I will forgive

But I just can't take a liar

I was by your side 'til the very end

'Til you pushed me in the fire



I tried to believe you but something is wrong

You won't look in my eyes, tell me what's going on



It's you and me against the world

That's what you said, that's what you said

If you can't be honest with me

Then I'm afraid this is the end



Hurry up, hurry up

If you ever really cared about me

Tell the truth, give it up

You sound guilty 'cause you're stuttering



Oh oh oh oh oh, ey ey ey ey ey, oh oh oh oh whoa

Yeah you're stuttering

Oh oh oh oh oh, ey ey ey ey ey, oh oh oh oh whoa

Yeah you're stuttering



Now the seconds turn into minutes now

But you won't give me an answer

You can tell me this, you can tell me that

But don't say you don't remember



'Cause I know you better than you know yourself

So don't say I'm crazy, I know very well



It's you and me against the world

That's what you said, that's what you said

If you can't be honest with me

Then I'm afraid this is the end



Hurry up, hurry up

If you ever really cared about me

Tell the truth, give it up

You sound guilty 'cause you're stuttering



Oh oh oh oh oh, ey ey ey ey ey, oh oh oh oh whoa

Yeah you're stuttering

Oh oh oh oh oh, ey ey ey ey ey, oh oh oh oh whoa

Yeah you're stuttering



I-I-I don't, don't wanna hear you're sorry now

The best thing you can do for me is just spit it out

I-I-I don't, don't wanna hear you're sorry now

Stop, stop stuttering your words, it's only making you look worse



Hurry up, hurry up

If you ever really cared about me

Tell the truth, give it up

You sound guilty 'cause you're stuttering





Stuttering lyrics

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LadyDarkRayne
03:36 Apr 14 2011

I'm so sorry Jadee. did you get your new phone yet ?

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PandorasBx
03:38 Apr 14 2011

Not yet hun, hopefully tomorrow...

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I just found out that Rod (ThePinja) cheated on me 2 weeks before he moved in with me! I have the proof, it's on his phone in a 3 day text message with a girl with him sending her nude pics and talking dirty to her, asking her for pics and so on. And other text messages from dating sites.



I have been throwing up for hours. I am waiting for him to get home from work to confront him and kick his ass out.



I am fucking devastated.

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Bijou
04:44 Apr 13 2011

~hugs~ I'm sorry to hear this.....I'm here if you need to scream shout cry or just talk....I have two ears to listen to ya

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chrysanthemia
04:49 Apr 13 2011

I don't know you very well, but any ear will do when you're this upset, I'm sure.



I'm glad you're kicking his ass out. None of that second chances bullshit, it never works.

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Famine
05:10 Apr 13 2011

I'm so sorry...

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MooniePie
05:32 Apr 13 2011

:(



Hunnie, I am sorry.

Really, I think you should private this entry until you get a chance to do what you need to do about the situation.



I just don't want to see people use it for wrong.

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Deity
06:18 Apr 13 2011

-Hugs-

Lots of fucking hugs.



♥





I'm so sorry. You do not deserve that.

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CosmicSerpentGuru
06:23 Apr 13 2011

Maybe he just needed one last fling before he threw in his gloves,if he's with you now that's the Important thing

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PandorasBx
06:25 Apr 13 2011

Oh we had the talk. I'm done.

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xxPAYNExx
07:30 Apr 13 2011

I am sorry to hear this Pandora. You deserve some happiness...

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Oceanne
12:40 Apr 13 2011

Im really sorry to hear this .

People can be such morons.

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Mystic
17:42 Apr 13 2011

Hugs - I am really sorry. And as the others have said you do NOT deserve that and you do deserve to be happy and with with someone that isn't going to pull that crap with you.

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Theban
18:37 Apr 13 2011

OMG I thought this was going to be a joke when I first started to read it, really sorry for both of you X

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spookshow
20:31 Apr 13 2011

Yes i'm with Theban i thought this

was gonna be a joke omg i'm shocked

really hope you will be ok

what an idiot to do this to you



take care x

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Saetan
03:22 Apr 14 2011

I am so sorry, babe. I know you are hurting and I am here if you need me, shoulder to cry on and hugs and will tells you I wuvs you. You got my number, call if you need me.

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moonkissed
03:27 Apr 14 2011

I am sorry it turned out that way for you.

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It's official......YOU are a PERV.....

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ThePinja
05:40 Apr 12 2011

Durrrr come on, I mean I learned some of my best moves from you.

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PandorasBx
05:41 Apr 12 2011

This....I know :P

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PandorasBx
05:54 Apr 12 2011

Oh and did I mention that he was sitting in the next room when he sent this to me? lol

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Theban
11:38 Apr 12 2011

I am not able to see the image : (

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From wonderful to ruin in 1......2......3 seconds.







That is our sad story.

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birra
03:12 Apr 11 2011

Well.. you got to enjoy the wonderful for three seconds.



Appreciate the little things.

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