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iv been questioning a lot of things right now. like why do i feel so alone in this huge world that i live in. why doesnt anyone care about me. im sick and i know that. i dont know how to fix it either. i cant eat. the only food i get in my sistem is what little bits my "friends" shove down my through every few days. then i dont sleep cause i dont have time. the last time i slept was on sunday night. my friends try and get me to sleep but i cant sleep around peopl i dont trust them. i guess blacking out every once and a while counts as sleeping. there are so may questions going though my head and i cant answer them. one of my best friends said im to deppresing for him today and it not the first time either. it just makes me even more sad and want to leave this world even more. what can i do? oh great another question. will it ever end? and another one. i guess not. such is the life of the ninja i guess. its not fair and i guess it never has and never will. why is that???????