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This past Saturday I went to the Black Veil Brides Black Mass tour!



And what a FANFUCKTINGTASTIC show it was!



They were joined by Drama Club (AMAZING!), Set It Off (Also AMAZING!), and Falling In Reverse.



This was quite easily in the top 5 of shows I've ever been too. The guitar solos were fantastic and CC's drum solo..... Wicked! He's a BEAST!





I did take pics and some videos (though the vids didn't turn out well because the bass was just too strong for my mic to figure out what was going on... AWESOME live though!). I Was towards the back (By the bar) so my pics aren't fabulous....



But to be honest I don't even care. I had more fun actually enjoying the show in person. I didn't want or need to spend the whole show behind my camera/phone.

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SweetEuphoria
04:37 Oct 31 2014

I am so jealous of you!!

Glad you had a great time though!!!

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VenusFire
12:56 Oct 31 2014

Looks like it was a blast Sleepy!! :)

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VenusFire
12:56 Oct 31 2014

Looks like it was a blast Sleepy!! :)

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This has just been the sucky-est last few weeks.



A combination of many small things and a few big things that have just dragged me down.



I seemingly have only 3 emotions left.



Sadness. Sometimes extreme and debilitating



RAGE! Borderline violent... though un-acted upon, I feel like any one little misstep (either by me or another) will cause that very thin line of restraint to snap...



and Numbness. If I am not fuming or in despair I feel nothing. I'll laugh but it feels hollow and smile for show but that is all it is... a show





Stress and depression maybe?



Stress; 100% for sure.



Depression; most likely



but part of the big strikes against me is health insurance related which has translated to actual health issues.... and it is no easy or quick fix. I must simply hold on and wait.



A lot of big things are out of my hands and control and all I can do is wait, hope, wait some more, cross my fingers, and try to keep it together.

Look who got her 4 year Batty :)

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VenusFire
00:53 Oct 15 2014

Congratulations Sleepy!!! *hugs*

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My friend the EFFING IDIOT (not her real name.... but it should be) had to put down her dog yesterday.





The poor dog (Halo) had come from a fighting ring and was used as both a breeder and a bait animal.



By the time EFFING IDIOT got her she was missing toes, covered in scars, malnourished, etc. So much so that she had pretty bad kidneys and needed to be on a special RX dog food.



I met this dog only a handful of times and every single time was heartbreaking.



EFFING IDIOT told me (almost every time I saw her) How Halo kept puking in the bed and how "annoying it was to have to keep washing blankets". How Halo wasn't eating much and what she did eat she threw up later. I told her every single time that this was not normal and she needed to see the vet.





The last time I saw her was when I went to Vegas. I stayed at EFFING IDIOTS house the night before we left. Halo puked in the bed next to us... fully undigested food..... 8 hours after she was fed.



She was skin and bones. I could SEE her entire spine and rib cage, and worst of all... She smelled of death.



She SMELLED like she was walking up to death's door. So I again said. EFFING IDIOT you NEED to take her to the vet. This is NOT normal or healthy. SHE NEEDS TO SEE THE FUCKING VET.



That was 2 months ago....



EFFING IDIOT decided yesterday that "Oh my poor baby isn't doing well I should call the vet"



By the time the vet got to her house ( Oh yes.... we make the vet come to US because we can't be inconvenienced to GO to an animal hospital or anything) Halo was in total kidney failure and EFFING IDIOT had to make the call to put her down.



I feel AWFUL that that decision had to be made... Its a position that is heartbreaking no matter what.... but for me... This was not hard nor really a choice.



3 or 4 months ago yes. When there was still things that could have been done. ie: different diet, medication, better attention and care, ANYTHING, it would have been a very difficult decision. But now... when the dog is CLEARLY suffering... No choice, No hard option. DO WHAT IS BEST FOR THE DOG.



She didn't. She DIDN'T do what was best for that dog. From the moment she got her it was "Oh I love her! She's the best!" But EFFING IDIOT was never home with them (yes she has another dog.... which is a whole other can of worms).



She is great at buying them clothes or new expensive treats, and FABULOUS at taking pictures to post on social media but she couldn't be bothered to take this SICK dog to the vet.



I just can't even look at her right now without experiencing extraordinary rage. There was and is NO excuse for not getting that dog to the vet. NONE.



And I don't think this is something I'll be able to forgive her for...





RIP Halo. This was not how it was supposed to be but at least now you are no longer suffering.