I have NEVER. EVER. in my life thought
"I need to be in a relationship..."
or
"I'm not happy because I'm not in a relationship. I need to find someone to be with in order to be happy."
I've been perfectly content with just being with myself when I was single OR being perfectly content when I was in a relationship.
I never "needed" someone to make me happy. I can do bad all by myself thanks.
In fact, people who can't be happy WITHOUT a relationship baffle me. Anger me even. How could you ever expect to be happy with someone else if you can't be happy with yourself first?
All that being said... today all I can think about is "Crap! I'm single, my life sucks, and I'm miserable..." which has lead to: "Maybe I should start dating again..."
WHO AM I!? I'm not that girl! I hate that girl! I want to punch that girl in the FACE!
And yet... that twinge persists.
UGH! And then to be hit with that news...
If a girl THAT crazy, THAT mean, THAT .... OFF can pin someone down and get them to marry her..... WTF am I doing with my life?
Granted she is a size double 0, GORGEOUS, and has a $30 million trust fund....... but still....
I don't even know who I am anymore.
Got my 2 year batty today :)
Who knew that when I created this profile I'd be kicking around here for 2 years... I guess I like it here ;)
Ok, you're mad at me... I know it. What I said was a harsh truth and you didn't want to hear it, but I stand 100% behind what I said.
How could I not? What you're doing is just going to come back to bite you in the ass. And you know I'm right!
CLEARLY since you hid this from me for over a YEAR AND A HALF!
I'm the one who should be mad and hurt here. I tell you EVERYTHING! And you kept this from me... why?
You either knew that I wasn't going to like it and what I was going to say about it and therefore didn't want to hear it. OR....
Or you're finally catching on that I'm just too crazy to keep around.
You're finally seeing the sutures keeping me pieced together... keeping the bugs and creepy crawlies inside.... keeping me, ineffectively, a person.
Is this the beginning of the inevitable? Are you done with me?
It's ok... everyone ends up running screaming from me in the end.
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I have never Run Screaming from you. I hope I am always there when you need a **hugs**
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