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In my recent month of stresses I completely missed the fact that I have been a member of VR for 5 years! 5 years, 1 month, and 3 days to be exact.



This for me... is a milestone. I've always suffered from what I have come to call "the 5 year curse"





It takes 5 years for people to really get to know me. For me to open up and let them see the crazy within. For me to call them 'one of my own.'



Some make it in faster/easier and some take much much longer but ultimately that is when things solidify and the curse kicks in.



Once you finally see me, crazy and all..... You leave. It's just what happens and has been happening my entire life. 5 years and you're gone.



Sometimes my brand crazy is just too much to handle and you need to bow out for your own sanity. I get that



Sometimes you just don't like what you see and you want no part of it. I get that too



Sometimes I will drive you away because while it takes 5 year for you to get to know me, it takes me 5 years to get to know you as well. Maybe I don't like your brand of crazy...



But sometimes we just fall away for no reason. We both have lives or just find new people we click with or what have you.... Those are the hardest to understand.





I have a few who have clawed/cut/bit/nailed/and dug their way into my life permanently and I wouldn't trade those brave wonderful souls for anything in the world. They are rare, strong, and absolutely precious. I love them so.







So here I am, with another 5 year anniversary.... a simple website.... But so much more!



I have found more wonderful amazing souls here. Souls who welcomed me in, listened to my joys and sorrows (more sorrows I hate to say), taught me new things, made me laugh, and quite simply, made me feel LOVED.



It may be "just a website" to many... but for me... no matter how infrequently I make it on here these days I know I can always log on and will be welcomed home.