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So.... I failed.... again



By 7 points. 7 FUCKING POINTS!!!!



*Throws a couch*



Ugh! I just makes me FURIOUS that I get SO close but still don't seem to make it! It's not fair!



I worked SOOOO hard! I did all my homework AND extra problems, I practically LIVED in the tutoring center, I ALWAYS asked questions when I didn't understand something, and I studied my brains out!



I just don't know what to do... I needed this class (it was a pre-req) to get into the ONE class I need to graduate.... ONE. CLASS!



ARRRRRGGGGHHHH!!!! FML

"Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, Ring the Hogwart Bell, Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, Cast a Christmas Spell, How Wonderous the Ways of Christmas, Have a Merry Christmas Day, Move Around the Sparkling Fire, Have a Merry Christmas Day!!!"



Hope your day is filled with good food, good company, and good stuff!

Well... it's out of my hands now



I'm actually 98% sure I didn't pass (seriously crushing thought) but I can't do anything about it now...



SO I'm just going to forget about it for now and focus on the holidays. My brother is coming home on friday and I have 2 great friends coming to visit in early Jan :)

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TaintedPoison
11:31 Dec 16 2010

you are wonderful, never forget that

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*Chucks book and notes across the room and stomps off*



I HATE THIS SUBJECT!!!!

Today I just feel like a total failure :(



I've been struggling with this stupid class for years now. This is my 5th time taking it and I ALWAYS come up within 10 points under what I need to pass :( And getting my unofficial grade today... it's the same thing again!



I still have to take my final, but I am HORRIBLE at taking tests and have extreme anxiety about it. I've done seminars, done practice test after practice test, I've even gone to a therapist to try and help, but nothing works.



I know I'm a bad test taker, I can accept that, but when it literally gets in my way of getting my degree it just makes me feel like a stupid failure.



Cross your fingers peeps and hope for a miracle...maybe I'll make it through

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TaintedPoison
12:18 Dec 11 2010

i hope you do darling

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Looks like I found that wall...



15+ years of my life now seem wasted... and now I question everything.



The friendships I've lost. Were they because of her issues with the person? Was she jealous of them? Or were they because of something I didn't like? Was my decision sound or influenced?



The relationships that ended. Were they because she didn't like them? Was she jealous because she was single? Could she not stand to see me happy? Or were my reasons solid? Did I end them because I wanted too?



I just don't know anymore. My head is spinning and I can't make it stop.



And the sick thing is... I still feel sorry for her. I still want to help her.



I feel awful leaving her to her own devices... She is sick and needs help. I know you can't "save everyone" and some people just "can't be saved" especially if they don't want it...



But I can't help but feel guilty leaving her like this... with no one.



But on the other hand I can't keep letting her do this to me. I need to stand up for myself... even if that means leaving her to her own fate.



The question now is: Where do I go from here?

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AnaliethiaThionoeSangita
06:26 Dec 07 2010

that sounds very simmilar to an experiance i had i can't speak for you but if she was hurting you then you made the right call you need to end things before the sick make you sick.

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