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Please,

I'm begging you,

Please just listen,



I'm dying,

Can't you see?



Look at me,

Just look,



It isn't me,

I'm fading,



I'm losing myself,

I'm sorry,



I'm sorry if I pressured you,

I'm sorry if I'm not enough,



I'm sorry that I am this way,

Each and every single day,



I'm sorry if I'm not right,

I'm sorry if I seem troubled,



I am,

I don't mean to be,



I won't make you suffer too,

I promise,

I swear,



Look at me my dear,

I'm pleading,



I know you aren't used to someone like me,

I know you don't know how to help,



But I will fix it,

I will make it better,



So maybe,

If I still have a chance,



We can be together

My dear,

My love,

I have been thinking about you,



And how long it has been since I have had the privilage of seeing your beautiful face,

But listen to me,



Something is wrong,

I have not seen you,



I fear for you,

That you are hurt,



Or maybe something more,

But I cannot be sure,



Please, please just let me see you,

Just one time,



It'll settle my fears,

My racing mind,



The tears that creep into my eyes,

That rain down my cheeks,



Are all for you,

Just you,

And how we may or may not get the chance to finally meet,



I am scared,

I don't know what to do,



Because every day is about thinking of you

Your eyes,

Your smile,

The everlasting expression on your beautiful face,



Your posture,

Your dark, sleek tresses,



It is so much to take in,

Your beauty,



When I see you I get lost,

Lost in the flood,



The flood of love, of desire,

Of the aching pain,



The pain of knowing you will not see me,

See my undying love for you,



The pain of waiting too long,

The pain of passing up opportunities,



But it is not your fault, my love,

For you do not know,



I admire you,

Take in every feature,

So that I will not forget,

So that I may never lose you,



You are beautiful,

I love you,

I truly do,



Though we have not met,

I feel like I know you,



You must be mine,

I must have you,



It is unbearable,

The ache,

The hurt,



Though I cannot find myself forgetting you,

Never, I will never forget you,



And though you may not think this so,

I will always have you with me, in memory,



Forever reveling in the comfort the thought of you brings me,

The thought of what could be,

Forever loving you,

Forever wanting you,



But did you ever think, my beautiful dear,

That someday, maybe, I will have you?

Hello my darling,

Hello my dear,



Do you not see me sitting here?

No, don't speak,



Don't explain,

Only so many of your words can heal the pain,



But who do you love,

It must not be me,



For if you do,

My only love,

You hide it so I cannot see,



Which would make us alike,

In a certain way,



We would both see each other,

And look away,



But I do not see you doing so,

So it is quite hard for me to know,



Is this a message,

For me to get?



For if it is,

It has not set,



I want to deny it,

I can't today,



Your beauty takes my breath away,

In a sudden and almost painful way,



I'm sorry if you do not wish me to be yours, my dear,

I just wish that you would see me hurting here

My darling,

My love,

I need you now,



I want to talk to you,

But I don't know how,



You walk past and I gaze away,

At your breathtaking beauty,

Please, please stay,



Don't leave,

Don't go away,



I will die a bit,

Every day,



Until I am nothing,

Just an empty shell,



Gazing out the window,

Fighting the urge to scream and yell,



So please my darling,

Don't leave me here,



Just wait, please wait,

Don't leave, my dear

Hello my darling,

I am hurting today,



I have been thinking of you,

And how you are so close, yet so far away,



I think of you every day,

And it hurts me in every way,



To know that anything I do,

Will never be enough for you,



So consider this a bit my dear,

I seem unusual because hidden beneath is all this fear

Hello, my darling

What have you done today?



I haven't seen you, not yet.

It has been a while, I am starting to fret



But what is it exactly,

That I have done?



Have I scared you? Pressured you?

Is that what's made you run?



Goodnight, my darling,

If only for today



Just know that tomorrow,

Is only a night away

Hello my dear,

I was out today,



You didn't realize?

Huh, you don't say ,



Today I walked by your home, yet again,

Not a movement in the house, your time you spend,



But how, I ask,

What do you do?



Do you work?

Do you clean?



Do you read?

Do you snooze?



You are very difficult to figure out, my dear,

I won't get to spend any time with you, so I greatly fear

Some say you cannot love at a young age,

I say that if you know just exactly what love is, have observed, taken interest, desired, you may love whoever you want,



I have spent the last year watching you, observing you,

Now I have an uncontrollable desire to be with you,



They tell me to forget you, to move on,

But I cannot, I love you.