lol me and steven watching tv
i tried to find a band website...
typed the band name in...
ended up going to porn site...
Jamila is not a happy camper
A song that i enjoy...
is by the Jonas Brothers....
*dies*
no sir...this isn't going to work
I was looking at The Satanic Apprenticeship (mentorship) and i thought it was pretty much amazing. I kinda wish i was a lower level so I could be in it.
"Llama?"
"Yep."
"Well, who's put it there."
"It's a llama...llamas can be anywhere they want to be."
*I squint angrily*
"Who's llama is it."
"I dunno, but its a damn cool llama."
"Ross, why is it in the building?"
"I did."
"Why ?"
"Because it's Jesse's uncle's llama and i said i would watch it fr the day..."
i shake my head and walk away...that's what i get for asking a pot head vague questions
in the past few weeks i have experienced about 54 types and brands of beer...
i will stick to my Bud...
lol
Just a little something i think is funny...
My roommate lost her keys...but
she still locks the door when she is asleep or leaves...
We barely have our lighters, yet we have so many.
We know cool tricks...among other things.
We are immune to finger burns, tell people to suck it up when they are burned...
...yell like someone killed our pet when we are burned by anything other than a lighter....
a few things i wanted to bring to your attention
i am very excited about getting all of my work done or at least having the goal in mind.
AND i am not just saying this: my friends are damn sexy...
we are all different shapes and sizes and have different styles and lifestyles...
and we get hit on at least 5 times a day
OW! we are a sexy bunch...
LET ME BE SHALLOW FOR ONCE!
Today's Quote said by Patrick M. while exiting the bathroom. he is holding his head and displaying a face of disgust...
*lets out a slight sigh* "There is a very dehydrated young man (gold piss) that needs help with his aim..."
i reply , "well...it COULD be Cinnamon Shits(a kid that was in the stall next to me had shit that smelled like cinnamon)..."
Patrick: "I never thought of it that way..."
hey infomercial....
Where exactly is the Amish heartland ?
Did the Amish get mucho pissed off when you brought a video camera into their heartland?
Can the Amish create a remote powered machine that you dont have to plug in?
(p.s. Actual Amish Craftman...no actors.) wonderful! lol
Go upstairs...
Turn down my bed...
Make a sandwich....
Plug in my computer...
Re-open my computer...
Eat the sandwich...
Stretch to relax...
Pretend I am not cold...
Lay down...
Think about Katelynn although i know i shouldn't...
Close my eyes...
Think some more...
Dwell...
Sleep....
Mission will soon be complete!
Disney World April 2009
Suess Landing Kiddy ride: The funny faces my friends and I made as we realized that getting on the ride was a big mistake...mainly because we were too big for it AND because the story we were being told over the intercom was awkward , random, and a little psychotic...
i think i am slowly killing myself.
every night i lay in bed thinking about her.
the only reason i dont think about her is because I am trying to avoid the thought of her.
i continue to try and think of ways to not think about her but they dont work for very long.
as soon as there is a gap in conversation, i'm done for.
As bad as i feel about the situation...as often as i am told that she doesn't want a romantic relationship with...as crazy as it seems...
I am attached...
I love...
It's pretty much suicide for me to be like this. But i can't stop...and i dont think i will until i get what i want.
My level just dropped by 2!!!!
Someone cleared the forum...
MY ACCOMPLISHMENT!!!! GONE!!!! I was almost to 600!!! *whine*
Girls Gone Wild Best Breast Ever commercial comes on.
Sam (male) and I (female) are sitting side by side.
We both give the TV the same blank stare.
Once the commercial is over He expresses the following: "Oh my god, this shit keeps getting worse! I hate that men need..." blah blah blah complain complain women's rights blah blah...
my thoughts: "Mmm, boobs"
If you are a true friend...I don't believe you have genitals...
Example one: I dont think my best friend Sam has a penis...
basically, because i can't imagine him having sex...
waking up as empty as i did the day before only shows me that I am going to be like this for a while. so many questions are going through my mind i can't control...another bad day...
In the past few days i have been blocked by two people.
One: an old friend that talks to me often. he always complains about how i never message him or text him. for some reason or another he won't un-block me.
Two: one of my supposed best friends has a fiance that i didn't know about. i wanted to begin talking to her. she mentioned me to him and apparently he has no idea who i am. Now, I am on her blocked list. whenever we spoke before he had no problem bringing up how much we didnt talk and now that i am back on VR our relationship has gone to pot and he can't even grow the balls to tell me to go away?What the hell is going VR?! Why is it that people are so fucking afraid to be honest?
i feel like i will never feel anything again. i cannot seem to do anything but think about her and live with the fact that i may have massacred the only thing i care about. i denied most of my life to be around her only to turn around and make myself suffer. i regret the things i have done. maybe if i would have denied everything...i would be happy again. but not that i am not i now feel like i am not worth what i thought i was.
(.Y.) aha boobs...
Somtimes i wonder why some people like A Perfect Circle and not TOOL OR like TOOL but not like A Perfect Circle...
To me, they are the same band....well, kinda. and sound the same...Maynard is Maynard
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tool has a more rough sound to it and harder beat to it then APC where as APC is more a relaxed sound and more for the lack of better sense softer sound.
I agree...LOL!
The more i am awake...the more trouble seems to brew...
maybe i should just go back to sleep...
i really really want to stay up super late just so i have an excuse to sleep the day away and ignore the world outside my cell walls...
sounds dramatic eh?
I totally forgot to delete my other profile...and now i can't delete it because it has been suspended FOREVER!!!!
again oops.
i seem to have this odd knack for making my life worse. i pick situations that i know will fuck up something and stick with it until i prove myself to be right. i put myself in places i know i shouldn't be in and then when something goes wrong i bitch myself out.
tonight i can honestly say was one of those situations.
i got myself more than excited only to realize that something was bound to go wrong.
i was right.
1) her friends: seemed like the kind of people that only put on the smiley face just so they don't cause trouble.
2) the party: although they are all " friends" they still sectioned each other off into small cliques , which of course leads to conflict. I ,on the other hand, sat alone a good amount of time because being social is not something i wished to do due to the awkward fact that even the people that knew each other didn't speak.
3) The Lovable Jackson: Although he was a very lovely person to talk to, he made both her and i feel a little weird by asking if one,we were together and two, if it would be okay to ask her out to dinner. that's definitely a deal breaker if i must say so myself.
4) Age: for some reason, the only people concerned about my age were the attendants that were maximum 5 years older than me versus the 35 year old sober folks that constantly asked me why i wasn't drinking and having a better time.
5)Ly: I have never really had to deal with someone that is so unsure of themselves that it rubs off on other people. giving someone excuse after excuse after excuse and tossing them around only causes for more problems. Which occurred and led to my silence during the rest of the evening.
i can honestly say that i am done with the whole trying to make friendships work out thing. Once i am rubbed the wrong way. your out. second chances have always been something rare with me. and thee way things are going now...i don't believe that is going to change. i am so sick of having to work things out that have nothing to do with my own life issues. sometimes i wish i wasn't so sure of myself. sometimes i wish i could be so indecisive about my life and my actions. so i can actually feel what its like to not be so emotionless. i lack sympathy ,yes. my careless attitude lacks 'proper' emotion, yes. but why is it that in most instances i am the one that's stuck waiting for everyone else to speed up?should i be on the hunt for someone that is like me? or is it my calling in life to have some ungodly affect on people to make him or her crazy to the point of non belief? not that i am questioning my purpose, but do i really have to wait this damn long for a close to decent answer?
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It's lame, I know, but I'm sorry you had such a sucky night last night. IF you would like to talk, call me... or if you would like to ignore it and just hang, that'd be cool too. I'm currently stuck in Knoxville with no car, but I will be back on campus tonight.
Let me know what's up. And again, it's corny, but: I care about you.
All I could do was stare. I couldn't bring myself to do anything but stare. I was empty. Officially empty. She continuously tried t explain herself. Make comments about the night. I refused to respond. she tried to make idle chit chat, but of course that meant nothing as well. my mind went blank but i could still think of plenty of things to say. i chose to stay silent and not make things any worse than they already were. I kept my mind drained of all that could possibly be said. the more she spoke the more empty i felt . Not only did the evening slowly get worse, it ended with a bang. if i may say so myself. she spoke. i stared. that's it. i come home with a deeper hole where my heart used to be, a lame alcohol induced hug, and a temper as big as the earth.
i should sleep on it.
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