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Hmmm i guess the nxt logical choice for a journal entry would be how i ended up like i have.



Idk how to decribe myself before i met her.....a nobody. The guy that everyone knew..but know one noticed. I wasnt....anything. I didnt have a group of friends, i didnt have a "look", i didnt have a "social" class...i was just...there

Then i befriended this girl....she tought me things. She tought me how to be rebelious, how to question authority, and how to live in the shadows. She tought me everything i know, and gave me a reson to live. She changed me...from a nobody to punk rocker....human to vampire.

As my image changed...so did peoples perspective of me. I went from noone...to a satinist, gothic, wrist cuting emo!....and im none of those things....but thats how people saw me. With just with a simple change of wordrobe and out look on life....everyone judged my complete personaliy and beliefs.

I was facinated by this....how shallow and judegmental the avrage human is. How a person sees black...and instanly thinks "unholy, devil, emo, goth".............i loved it! Let them judge me...cause until they REALLY get to know me....they will never know the real me.

My friend vanished shortly after saving my life, idk where she went...or if shes even alive. I havent seen her scence i was 13....im now 17. I never got to thank her for what she did, or let her know how grateful i am to this very day.