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This day has royally sucked.



But before all that.. I've gotta start at the beginning.



I started talking to a guy I'd met, and we texted for a week before I met him. I met him last Friday and was pretty stupid, we had unprotected sex. He pulled out before he came, but then we did it again. When I got home, there was stuff there that should not have been there.



So I went out the next day and bought emergency contraceptive and took it. I felt (and feel) so stupid, so much an idiot. I should be getting my period before this weekend but keep freaking out that I don't have it yet. I go to Planned Parenthood this afternoon to get on a different birth control because the one I have a prescription for I don't use, have only used once. It doesn't work for me.



I keep having this OMG moment of 'what if I go to take the urine pregnancy test and they tell me I can't get the shot because I am pregnant?' This is freaking me out so bad I cannot even tell you how upset I am. I hardly know the guy.



I really don't need anyone telling me I'm stupid, careless, ignorant, etc. Because I already know that.



This situation has made me feel the worst I've felt in over three years, made me think thoughts I haven't thought in three years.



I haven't been able to tell any friends because no one had been around to talk to.



Back to why this day has royally sucked. I found out this evening that the aforementioned guy might be moving back to NY at the end of the summer.



I may hardly know the guy, but I've already begun to become attached to him. We text almost constantly all day long, even while he's at work. It's gonna really really suck if we can't see each other anymore.



To make that worse, I'm gonna be gone for three weeks starting mid-July. His job might be over by then and he might move while I'm gone if he can't find another job.



This sucks so bad I can't stand it.



I can't believe I was so stupid.. And the thing is.. I had even brought condoms to use, but we didn't use them. I feel like SUCH the utter fool.

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CelestiaLaura202
12:12 Jun 24 2010

stop beating yourself up we have all done that one time or another. :-)

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