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With a soul so cold you'd think I was dead and gone. Im not dead Im alive Im not gone Im here. You cant see it but Im kicking and screaming trying so hard to get out to bed heard. Im stuck here in this lifeless body with a cold soul, I needed help but no one cared enough to bother with me. All I ever wanted was to be loved and wanted, doesnt everyone? People tell me to move on but how can I move on when Im still stuck in the same place I was? You cant move on to a place youve never seen, never been. Ive always been stuck in this cold lonely hellhole known as my life. Im the same little girl that just needed a hug when she was hurting and youre the same person who couldnt deal so you left me there alone. Now Im grown and still hurting but I just dont show it. I hide behind my cold soul making sure no one ever sees my pain. I make damn sure you never get to see me cry because you would get the satisfaction of being the person who comforts me. You had your chance so now dont be surprised if you never see past the dead stare

Here i sit alone and cold

No one here for me to hold

My eyes are heavy,My bones are weak

My mind is shot and i cant speak

My tears are wet they taste like salt

The wind is loud as i try to find my fault

The time has come for me to go

to that dark place way down below

There is no time left for me to weap

help me mama im starting to fall asleep

I'll leave you a note telling you im sorry

For all the pain and sorrow ive caused you mommy

Now its time for me to go

im sorry for leaving you with this horror show!!!

I am the temptation,

burrowing under skin of the weak.

I'm the hesitation,

daring the tempted to follow me.

i am the foundation,

strengthened by the blanket of deceit.

I'm the revelation,

trust in me for its my grace you seek.

I'm the lack of feeling,

numb your nerves so you don't feel whats near.

absence of everything,

you follow as i slowly appear.

just open up to me,

let us begin to strengthen our bond.

unconditionally -

I'm here, while everyone else is gone

i will fulfill your needs,

giving a glimpse of eternal rest.

while robbing you of sleep,

I'll force upon you my hand of death

They are all around me,

Staring, listening, talking.

I don't speak or look at them.

But I listen.

Listen.

Listen to their voices,

Gasping, sighing, yelling.

The speak words,

That are blurred.

Words I cannot understand,

But I know who they are speaking about.

Me.

They never used to,

Now they are.

They repeat their regrets over and over.

But they don't matter.

No-one matters now.

Especially me.

Here in the darkness

There is no life

Here in my weakness

There is no light

Death is rendered

The corpse is fresh

Young and tender

She yearned my carress

There is no warmth

Within my skin

Only deep darkness

And cold blood within

Her mouth was rosey

Death blooms on my lips

Her life a fresh posy

And I've withered the tips

Death has now claimed her

Burried in her shallow grave

Flowers dead, I above her

Still, I do not know her name

The noose

Hangs round you neck

Till you're kicked loose

Then you hang

Asphyxiation

I thrash your innards

SODOMIZED!

DIE DIE DIE DIE

FUCK FUCK FUCK

KILL KILL KILL KILL

I revel in the death of others

Thrown for the whores of the world

Into a bowl

To end your fucked up life

Death is the requiem of the soul

A tasty delicacy

Hangs from my meat hook

You body is

Post-mortem beauty

Delectable meat

Ripe for the eating

CANNIBALIZED!

DIE DIE DIE DIE

FUCK FUCK FUCK

KILL KILL KILL KILL

I revel in the death of others

Thrown for the whores of the world

Into a bowl

To end your fucked up life

Death is the requiem of the soul

when you die

you leave behind

a world that did not care

when you die

who will now sit

in your tattered chair

it hurts to see

you leave so soon

we're all the same

under sun and moon

was there something

i should've said

to make you choose to live

was there someone

you loved instead

who took but would not give

there's nothing now

that anyone can do

to make your wishes

all come true

but even if

you got your wish

would you still be here

please take

a look at this

it's a single tear

a tear that made

a wish for you

because there's nothing

i can do

so when you die

i only hope

it wasn't by your hand

i only hope

it's because

of the cycles of this land

Such deep wounds

such a small window

but i'll squeeze through just to touch you

But you can't wait for the night time to sneek outside

You love your night time, well so do I

Such sweet lips and sharp eyes

such a deep soul and a strong mind

your perfect in my eyes

yet to afraid to come outside

I'll follow you into night time and watch you glow

I'll bet at night time all your scars show

We'll run away to the night time just me and you

unvailded beauty underneath the moon

I will never follow you

Even though I can’t forget you

Things are going not very well

But I have never felt so swell

I have no longer the need to hide

I have moved away of your side

I cannot pretend and lie

That you are still a part of my life

I know you’re right

Then the train fades away

Through the distance you see it sway

Amidst the nights embosomed dark

I will never own your heart

I will never stalk you

I will never call you

I will never forget you

I will never follow you

I will never talk to you

I will never fuck you

I will never lie to you

I will never hold your hand

I will never exist

I will never be something

I will not

I will not

I will always be nothing

Things have never gone so well

I live inside my shell

I live inside my hell

But I’ve never felt so swell

The cuts and bruises steam

And the lust for blood comes rippintg

I have never felt this well

I have not yet began to melt

As this pain tends to increment

My skin I intent to make bleed

Until there is but scars left

You have fucked up my head

I on you depend

I will swallow all your pain

I will make you new again

Even though you never talk to me

I think that sometimes you believe

Believe in me

what do i write

when nothing comes to mind

except morbid feelings i deny

so i could try to live a normal life

what may come

when you have no one

and yet you still are breathing

will it be suicide or will i keep living?

but why should i live a life

a life that i never asked for

it is not fair to be granted decisions

that you didn;t make on your own

and the road keeps waning

and i am running out of strength

strength to keep going

even though i have no friends

as I approach a light, an opportunity

some outside force steals it from my sight

leaving me empty handed

like any average day of my life

My name is nothing!

My fate is death!

That what is real

No more, no less.

It doesn't matter

The way I live

For my existence's

So short, so brief.

The only question,

Which still makes sense

Is "How this nonsense

is gonna end?"