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Sometimes all I want is for someone to love me,

Someone to hold me in their arms,

But all I get is icy coldness,

Which burns all the same.



I wait by the window,

Hoping you’ll remember me as the daughter you love,

But now all I get is hatred.



Do you know how it feels to be loved by no one?

Do you know that feeling of desire every minute of every day?

I know that you don’t,

Because you make those feelings possible.



I stare a picture of you back in the good old days,

You were so happy and calm.

Why can’t it be the same?

Why wont you love you family?



You don’t know how much I miss you,

How much I care for you even though you’ve broken my heart more than twice,

I feel like I can’t go on any longer,

Like you’ve trapped my heart in a vice.



So here I am all locked up in my room,

Just waiting for my breath to stop,

I may not be crying tears of joy,

But I want you to know,



I forgive you.

I'm sorry I’m so disappointing.

I’m sorry I’m such a disgrace.

I’m sorry that I’m such a screw up,

That you won’t even look me in the face.



I’m sorry that I’m not perfect.

I’m sorry that I’m so cold.

I’m sorry that I’m just not good enough,

And that I give you such reasons to scold.



I’m sorry about who I have become.

I’m sorry that you always yell.

I’m sorry that you think I’m rude.

About what, I cannot tell.



I’m sorry I don’t get straight A’s.

I’m sorry I don’t do things right.

I’m sorry you look at the dark side of things,

And never just look at the light.



I’m sorry that I’m such a failure.

I’m sorry that I beat you down.

I’m sorry that you think so little of me,

And I’m sorry that you always frown.



I’m sorry that I’m bad and

I’m sorry that you’re good.

I’m sorry that when it comes to me,

You have never understood.



I’m sorry that you hate me now.

I’m sorry I hate you too.

I’m sorry that you thought you tried,

Even though that wasn’t true.



I’m sorry about our days long past.

I’m sorry about the tears.

I’m sorry that you couldn’t stop me,

From being consumed by my fears.



I’m sorry that you snapped.

I’m sorry that you’re mad.

I’m sorry that you never ask,

What it is that’s making me sad.



I’m sorry that I’m wrong.

I’m sorry that you’re right.

I’m sorry that now every day,

We yell and scream and fight.



Perhaps one day you’ll understand.

Although that won’t be true.

I wish that maybe you’ll forget,

How bad I was for you.



I’ll leave and I’ll be gone a while,

And maybe you’ll be sad.

But the feeling that you’ll feel the most,

Is that you’re very glad.



So long, farewell, goodbye my friend.

These wretched days are through.

I hope you know that though I’m gone,

I’m sorry I love you.

Loss



a loss of a llife can never promise something gained



a loss of a heart can never promise anything new.



a loss of a song can never promised to be renewed



a loss of a soul can never promise eternal peace



a loss is a loss with any restraints



a loss is like a bitter day with out you,



a loss is like the day you leave me behind



a loss is like a blackened day when the sun never shines



a loss is a black bitter rum after you leave me for anything



a loss is a forbidden dare that can never be regained



a loss is what gods wrath hath brought upon the world



where sins, lies, and decite, burns our very hearts & souls, while our minds are reduced to smouldering ashes.

Ah! ever bending, un-yeilding, hated love, why do you cause me such a fiery willful pain, While a hopeful spring dies in my hands while continuously trying to let hope survive?.. I shall never know this ever hated loss now and forever...