I should be able to sleep tonight or so I thought but i am mistkane again, the wind is whipping outside and there is a coldness in the air....thre trees are starting to become bare and the ground like a painters palet. Pumpkins line the steps of the neighboring houses... this is one of my favorite times of the year, time for rememberance of thos that have crossed in the past year and this year will be very hard for me....
So I will set the extra dinner plate and make sure the candles are lit in the windows....As light fades into the dark the days of warm sunny days turns to chilly winter nights...
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oh for crying out loud!!!....im sick and you go and get all mushy on me, see this is why you are da mean ole rachy lol....*kisses and da look* o.o
Yes I am lol and yes I am allowed to get mushy... *kisses* why da look dear ?
LOL you two are so cute , I love the Poem sweetie,
So ya today started out weird had bizarre dreams and then I went back to bed, I have been in pain most the day, but I deal with it...I have meds that I have to take so I don't get sick and yetI still feel aweful all the time. So then I go to my appointment today and find out that, things will finally be better for me in a week, and yes I am taking a fucking vacation, I deserve it... I do everything for everyone else.... so ya I was so super excited about the outcome of my meeting and then .......
I log on here and get a nasty email.. wtf I politely told you to stop sending me your bullshit because I don't want to get involved and then you make a nasty journal about me...
Who the fuck do you think you are ???????? You do not know me , you know nothing about me , so where the fuck do you get off calling me a vendictive little cunt ? and call me a whore a slut...? You know nothing about me ....... you rate me a 1 big fucking deal and yes I returned the one.... get the fuck over yourself.
Smart move asshole and then you sent an apology to my ole man???? Yes I have you blocked because I don't need to hear your toxic bullshit I want nothing to do with drama and yet you brought it to my doorstep.
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oh my goddess who is stupid enough to send you a email like that then Send one to AYW .... or do I already know.
life is like a box of cherries and then someone squishes them,seriously i dont think your a cunt but that's vr for you
"When governments fear the people there is liberty. When the people fear the government there is tyranny."
-Thomas Jefferson
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Very true.
Its almost there, well stated words
yeah and da mean ole rachys rules with an iron fist too lol
It really hurts to see my sister in so much pain because of a guy, especially being she has been promiced this and promiced that, I mean seriously you know she loves you and would do anythig for you, yet there is always a reason always an excuse and i see the tears she cries over and over and it just so pianful, the things we do for the men we love and what lengths we would go, you either love her or you don't and if you don't for petes sake let her go so she can be happy, she deserves to be happy she doesn't deserve this !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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~hugs~
love to you always sis !
everyone lubs da pinky...*hugs*
I have a 2nd acct that is up for grabs the Pm will need to be updated on 10/31... its a level 49 acct any ne wants it just let me know .
Well I was going over some of the files and aricles That i have have collected over the years, and thought hmm this one will be perfect....as there seems to be alot of misconception on the term, "Paganism".
It was from early Decemeber 1986 for USENET's talk.religion.misc.in response to a request for information on paganism.
Paganism is a loose word for the large variety of polytheistic,shamanistic, and mystical non-monotheistic religions. Paganism exists
in all cultures, from paleolithic to technological, but hashistorically waxed and waned. The ancient Egyptians are an example ofa highly pagan society; so are the ancient Romans; and all paleolithic
cultures from the Old Stone Age to the present have strong paganelements. An example of a less pagan culture would be the West for the last thousand years or so, since the centuries following the Fall
of Rome. The domination of the Middle East by Christians and Moslems has also largely shut out paganism.
Characteristic of paganism is a tolerance for other pagnistic ideas,even those that literally contradict one's own. Such persecutions as
have been directed against paganistic religions by each other are by-products of political struggles and mass population movements rather than ideologically motivated. The same is to some extent true
of early Judaism, which was the direct inheritor to the traditions of a strongly pagan society. A slave revolt apparently led to a few hundred thousand slaves with no place to live; to get them, they
butchered the inhabitants of pagan cities and took up residence in the cities themselves.They invoked their war god to justify this action.
Similarly, when the beginnings of the modern Greek mythology were laid down, it was as a result of invading Northern barbarians supplanting
the earlier (and somewhat gynocentric) Titan mythology with their imported religion, which grew more refined and less aggressive later on, as happened with Judaism.
Before it came under the thumb of monotheism, the West was dominated by the highly civilized Roman culture. The Roman Republic and Empire
were characterized by an unusually large number of religions together in a single social whole, frequently sharing the same geography and even the same temples. This explicitly eclectic (or "syncretistic",
as it is more usually known in studies of the Romans) synthesis is more similar to modern neo-paganism than any other form of historicalpaganism I know of. However, it ended after the Christian emperors
took over and Rome fell.
The post-pagan West experienced frequent resurgences of paganism in various forms. If we date this at 1000 CE for convenience, we see
first the Inquisitorial period, where paganism was punished with death and torture. Then there comes the Renaissance, in which pagan
symbolism and ideas in art and philosophy were somewhat more common than explicitly Christian ones. The Renaissance lasted until the 16th
century. Note that the Inquisitions lasted effectively until the Enlightenment period, and were bad during the Renaissance, but ceased to be mostly ideologically motivated after the first three centuries.
The Inquisition had become a political arm of the Vatican, a force useful in many ways other than suppressing heresy. It spent much of its time accomplishing political, antifeminist, and covert goals of the Church. We see in the trial of the Templars in the fourteenth century that uncommonly faithful people were caught in a secular political struggle between the King of France and the Pope. They were
routinely tortured, the usual prompted confessions were given, and they were executed, for reasons having nothing to do with ideology or heresy except as excuses.
It is also during the Renaissance that we begin to have evidence of what we may consider explicitly religious paganism again. Most of the
grimoires we have date from this era; alchemists, often overtly Christian but employing pagan symbolism and texts, were most common
during the Renaissance; the Kabbalah and Tarot originate in the Renaissance, forming the backbone of modern pagan symbolism. The Renaissance also saw the obscure origins of a rebirth, in improved
form, of Greek humanism, technically pagan because of its suppression by Christian Rome and its use of theistic symbols.
The Reformation was again a less pagan period; Protestant rulers like Elizabeth and James carried out their own anti-heresy pogroms, annihilating most evidence of witchcraft. Of particular interest in
the Reformation is Scot's "The Discoverie of Witchcraft", which presents the humanist and rationalist perspective on witches which has
generally triumphed today: that witch accusations were more often driven by factors such as ugliness, personal enmity, poverty, and so forth than on ideological grounds, and that in fact there were no
witches.
This is probably true only of the later Inquisitorial
period. Earlier on, the Inquisition certainly did help in the temporary stamping out of paganism; so if pagans are witches, there were witches.
We need not bother much with Murray's supposedly anthropological study of English witchcraft in the Inquisitorial period, except to note that
it has been devoutly accepted by many modern pagans, and to point out some of its flaws. Based on late Inquisitorial evidence and the consistency of the confessions obtained by the Inquistors, and tossing
in some disjointed scraps of English folk history and legend, Murray asks us to believe that a paleolithic subculture lasted in England, living semi-naked in the bushes, until nearly the beginning of the Reformation at least, and possibly until the current day. Of course
late Inquistorial confessions were consistent; they were practically dictated to the torture victim.
A much better account of the relationship of paganism to Christianity before and during England's
post-pagan period is Jessi Weston's classic "From Ritual to Romance". Its conclusions were derived from decades of intense study of the Grail mythology and its anthropological, mythological, and social
context.
As a parting note on the Reformation, we may note the peculiar phenomenon of court astrologers and alchemists and their ilk, the most notable examples being the sorcerer John Dee and the seer Edward
Kelley under Elizabeth. These were the inheritors of Paracelsus and the other alchemists and Christian medicine doctors, using pagan symbols and methods with a veil of Christian symbolism. Kelley stopped the work of Dee and Kelley under unknown circumstances; he is said to have been told by the angels to form a group sex arrangement with Dee and his wife, which they supposedly did for a while; in
another version, Kelley was driven from the work by a prophecy of a new age dawning, which was heresy.
So, on to the Enlightenment of the seventeenth century. This was more humanistic than religious, though humanism is a religion on alternate
Tuesdays; it all depends which of the many reasonable definitions you use. In any case, the seventeenth centuries saw the first applications of the renewed Greek humanism that originated in the
Renaissance. The counter-Christian current was running stronger; more and more, people were beginning to demand equal treatment for all, and
freedom from the rigid boundaries of thought and expression imposed on them by governments and churches alike. This humanism has colored most "opposition" religious movements in America since this time, much for the better in my opinion.
This is because principles of respect for the individual were put into the American system of government (as
an afterthought - the humanistic heyday had ended in the 1780's in America, and the new would-be ruling class had to be forcibly reminded), and the governmental structure was such that it was able to
make progress in its understanding of freedom.
Things did not work out quite so well in France's humanistic revolution, largely due to Robespierre, the atheistic moral grandfather of Stalin and Pol Pot. He interpreted opposition to monarchy as punishing high birth with low death, and then set out ruthlessly to purge opposition and deviation. Soon monarchy was
re-established in France.
The nineteenth century was a period of resurgence of paganism. The neo-classical movement was explicitly devoted to rediscovering the virtues of the highly pagan societies Rome and Greece. This movement was to be by far the dominant force of the century.
Humanism was further applied to the institution of slavery, resulting in war and social upheaval. The Prometheans such as Blake, Shelley, Byron, and
so forth were widely considered to be among the greatest luminaries of the period.
The method of science and its results made available much more information on religions of the East and of less civilized cultures. Contact between religiously different but politically equal forces invariably leads to mutual excuses for the other, largely to help keep
trade going, but also as a result of time spent in foreign climes observing the practice of religion. This creates, although not in great numbers at first, a different attitude toward religions than the
dogmatic denial of all other religions possible only under a large and self-sufficient monolithic theocracy.
Other religions are seen as not neccessarily conflicting with one's own any more than another art
movement does with one's own favorite.
There was a more open resurgence of sorcery in less overtly Christian forms, particularly in the last half of the century. This attracted many notable adherents, and from the publication of "The Magus" by Barrett in 1801, created a magical library in modern English which is still widely read and used. It used the work of Renaissance magicians, court sorcerors, Kabalists, and so forth, and attempted to apply the psychological principles of the day in various original
fudgings. There was also the Theosophical movement, largely discredited by Blavatsky's proven cheating on tests of psychic powers,and rather more like spiritualism with Eastern allusions than any
Eastern religion.
The psychical movement, which changed its name to parapsychology, grew out of spiritualism, which grew out of mesmerism, which was apparently fairly original and totally ludicrous, but did yield the secret of
hypnotism. This led legitimate investigators to examining the claims of other groups usually brushed off as mystical. The early Society for Psychical Research, founded in 1882 and led by prominent
scientists such as the American psychologist William James, was formed "first, to carry on systematic experimentation with hypnotic subjects, mediums, clairvoyants, and others; and, secondly, to collect evidence concerning apparitions, haunted houses, and similar phenomena which are incidentally reported, but which, from their fugitive nature,
admit of no deliberate control."
It is to be noted that there is still, a century later, no replicable experiment to demonstrate the existence of anything but hypnotic subjects in this list. It is also worth noting that while general models of the layout of the psyche continue to be employed in
psychotherapy, there is still no generally agreed upon experimental methodology to falsify features of these models. Finally, it should be noted that the ritual magic methods employed by many pagans, in
other times as well as today, still have not been placed under real scientific scrutiny to determine whether or not they produce any physically measurable effects. (My feeling is that such effects are limited in scope to participants in the rituals and people who have knowledge of their occurrence, whether such knowledge is true or false.)
Various factions of magicians struggled to survive in the early half of the twentieth century, against an increasingly Christian atheist culture; that is, a materialistic populace considered almost exclusively with day-to-day life and easy entertainment, but still
paying occassional lip service to Christianity and suspicious of all other religions. Most of the inheritors of nineteenth-century magical paganism were hopelessly fragmented and dogmatized, incapable of working together and resolving their differences.
In the late forties, Gerald Gardner began publishing books on witchcraft. Gardner was a known associate of Crowley's and his rituals use a lot of symbolism drawn from Crowley, but only a few actual references to Crowley. He is also reported to have associated
with Theosophist groups. Crowley was one of the chief inheritors of the jumble left at the end of the nineteenth century, as well as a traveller and student in Eastern lands. In any case, Gardner (after
Crowley) called for yet another neo-classicism, following the pattern of all the other resurgences of Graeco-Roman paganism, but more explicitly religious.
The laudable looseness of Gardner's system was more attractive to magically inclined people than the Golden Dawn and Theosophy splinters remaining. It freed them to create on their own, and they went at it with a vengeance. One reason for the greater effective freedom was that Gardner was not as hard an act to follow as many of the Golden Dawn leaders. He was soon gone beyond by his students, many of whom went off to form their own Gardnerian splinters and mythological histories of their origin.
Another reason was the less formidable Gardnerian system of initiation. Most magical groups had complex multi-layered spiritual hierarchies. These were supposed to represent psychological fact, but
little in the way of acceptable empirical observation was used to correct these schemes, mostly drawn from loose interpretations of the Kaballa, and they can't be said to have really compelling
inter-individual force. These were replaced by a simple hierarchy of three grades. This was the high-level structure of the Golden Dawn. and of a number of Masonic groups, which divided their degrees into
categories.
A common claim among neo-pagans is that paganism was suddenly revealed to the world in the fifties after centuries of hiding. This is demonstrably false; all that is needed is a bit of history, textual analysis, and symbolic comparison to see how close neo-paganism (as the movement came to be known in the sixties) is to its known historical antecedents. But mythological histories are themselves traditional in world religions. While it is important to know the
real history of a religion, this does not invalidate the possible value of mythological tales of the origin, because these serve as fictional statements of intent, often incorporating powerful
symbolism. They have literary value in this respect; and literary or other artistic value is a type of spiritual value.
Modern religious paganism has made a unique contribution. No eclectic/pagan movement of the historical past has brought the contributions of paleolithic shamanism into the fold as well as has
neo-paganism. In large part this is due to a rise in knowledge of such religions at the same time as the rise of neo-paganism. This is an extremely valuable contribution; in shamanism lies the roots of all
human religion. A coven meeting still resembles a GD lodge considerably more than it does a shamanistic lodge, despite the valuable addition of techniques originating in shamanism.
This has been a neccessarily brief and incomplete account. I have not mentioned Rabelais, the Rosicrucians, the decadent poets, Nietzsche,
de Sade, Levi, Gurdjieff, James, Augustine, Shakespeare, Masonry, Paine, American utopian communities, Jung, Merlin, art and spirit, or
Gnosticism, all of which are vital elements of the story; I have given short shrift to the psychical movement and its influence on nineteenth
and twentieth century paganism; and I have neglected many other relevant topics. But I hope this will suffice as a brief overview of the pagan history preceding neo-paganism.
Ok first off, yes I am opinionated and if you don't like it sorry, I really don't give a damn. As per my last entry, let me reinnerate that for you.
I do not like the fluffy bunny types that go read a few books like "to ride a silver....", my opinion I just don't like her. It would seem just as how Twlight, and TrueBlood and Vampire Diaries have brought the fluffy vamoire bunnies out of the wood work, October always seems to do the same. And just because they read a book and think it's the "in thing",and have decided to declare their religion is "Wiccan". No I am not Wiccan and no Wicca is not my religious choice and no I do not follow all of the rules and such. Why, well because that is my choice as a pagan, a mixer of many beliefs, not set on just one particular one that, Gerald Gardner to the publics attention in 1950's. Yes many contemporary Pagans embraced the practice. I am not one of them. I actually have many friends that are Wiccan, and sure we debate back and forth, and I get told that I need to change my ways, just as some of my catholic friends tell me,I need to repent and accept Jesus int my life. But they all know how I am and sure I will listen to what they have to say, but that doesn't mean I have to follow. Do I follow one way or the other, you may ask. Do I lean more towards the darker sider or the lighter side? I really dislike that question. My answer is always, "The simple fact is that magic, like any tool, is neither good nor evil, although it can be used toward either purpose as it is all in the intent."
Paganism is an "Umbrella Term", keeping in mind that there are dozens of different traditions that fall under the umbrella title of “Paganism”. Not All Pagans are Wiccans and not all Witches are Wiccans. There are many Witches who are not Wiccans. Some are Pagans, but some consider themselves something else entirely.
When Gerald Gardner brought Wicca to the public,a lot of Witches and Pagans were perfectly happy to continue practicing their own spiritual path without converting to Wicca. Although Wicca itself was founded by Gardner, he based it upon old traditions.
Therefore, “Pagan” is an umbrella term that includes many different spiritual belief systems – Wicca is just one of many.
Think of it this way:
Christian > Lutheran or Methodist or Jehovah’s Witness
Pagan > Wiccan or Asatru or Dianic or Eclectic Witchcraft
And if your still not confused yet, not all people who practice witchcraft are Wiccans, or even Pagans for that matter. I do know of a few witches who embrace the Christian god as well as a Pagan goddess. There are still also people who practice Jewish mysticism, or "Jewitchery", and atheist witches who practice magic but do not follow a deity.
My point being, I will never question anyone's beliefs, but if your going to talk the talk, atleast walk the walk and knowwhat your talking about and can atleast back up what you have to say. If you have questions or just want to learn more or just be a fly on the wall and listen, there are many covens and mentorships here on VampireRave that indeed to guide people.
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Yay Finely some one who knows the difference!! Rachy for President!! she,ll protect us real witches!!
err umm yes, bows.... The WWWF....better known as the World Wide Witches Federation...
Well being I have had a lot of time to think over a lot of things the last few days, (that is never a good thing to just leave a Gemini to think, as we tend to over think things) but anyways, I have given many things lots of thought. The last few years have been not the easiest by far, they have been downright depressing. So I have to ask myself, just what are the plans? what do I want the outcome to be ? what changes are going to be made?
I have just about a month to decide what it is that is going to occur, and I do believe I am going to take a few weeks to get things in order and then when it comes down to it we will see where everything stands.
For those that know the situation, and you know who you are. You know that I am at the point that I am ready for some serious changes.
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deadlines are a bitch.
*kisses da oleman* now be nice..you know your part of these decisions.
what a great way to start my first day of vacation... i check the mail today at 3 pm and what was in the mail box ut my approval letter for disability ! 3 weeks to the day of my hearing !.... I am just so happy, for those that dont know well it just opens a lot of doors for me... and well for those that do know why well you know that its phase one of the rachy plan in effect as of tuesday this coming week !
is wondering what part of ex boyfriend my ex does not understand the e or the x ... he has been beng way to nice starting to make a me a bit nervous.. good thing i am house sitting all week. he calls and tells e today he cant be alone... seriously wtf is the issue. We are not together we will never be together again. we have 12 yr old son together and yes because of that he will n some aspect always have that connection to me because I am the mother of his only child. He has serious attachment issues with me, its been over ro a long long timeI wish he would just move on.. I know that as soon as I am able to leave this area I will and I sure do hope this is soon. He wants pity from me because he is alone. well sorry thats not going to work and the selfish tactics that he uses is pathetic.
He knws there is someone else and he has knowsn this for the last year... but he just isnt willing to accept this.I am hoping that I get the judges descion here this week... I have a sort of plan of action but it needs sme other things to make it complete. There are few lose ends that need to be taken care of, but other then that there is nothing else holding me here.
There is no worse feeling then knowing how you feel doesnt matter as if you really don't exhist or that what you have to say is unimportant..... Alot of things are often taken for granted and sometimes alot of things are left unsaid. I cant help but be frustrated at this point...
I started my vacation today as I am house sitting for the next week for my gf while she is in florida so I wont be having to dealwith my ex what so everand that will be nice.. I have the whole house all to myself.... Her neighbor is an emt so in case I have some strange reaction to the methodexate sean can make sure I am there and taken care of..and hewill be there to check in periotically.....
SO I have to go back to the house and make sureI haveeverything I need forthe next week, smokes , cloths my blanket that I cant sleep with out... gee sure would be nice to be able to replace that with something else that i cantsleep without....0.o... but anyways... I don'tknow how I am going to react because no one reacts the same.. he also put me on a nother drug and the shots i got yesterday still hurt like a bitch as he says that is the only thing he is going to dowith me for pain isto give me these shots monthly screw that....
Wtf... I hate drs.... I get these shots today in my shoulders because they can't give them to me in my back or my hips so nope no cortazone instead trigger point shots.... ok point being I hurt worse now then before them. And yes they gave. Me the methotrazare to start which won't be uintil tomarow and I canr taake tylonal ore aqsprin or ibs for pain nor are they giving me anything for pain....... tells me id be b2etter off to move someplace warmer wtf ! I hate drs.... I w1as told there is a cklinic down south and at this point I just don't care anymorem./.
Sometimes.... I just really dislike people and then there are the people that I can't imagine life without... and it seems that list is getting shorter everyday...
so how do you know if you have made the right choice? after you have weighed everything out and thought of the consequences and you still have not come up with a solid answer...
Well there are not that many things that piss me off these days, most things I just laugh about. For example.... inductinga level 2o regardless of whether they are in a mentorship or not, I have many in my own mentorship that are in other covens. The point being that the rules are set up as any one that is a level 20 can be inducted into any coven, there are no saved people, sure there are some that dont beleive in forced inductions, but ya know what get over it, that is not howthis was set up. If X person is inducted an wants to go to another coven then a trade is made.... that is just how it works. and if you don't understand that well then yes perhaps you are in the wrong place. But I will not sand by and be told what a piece of shit I am by someone and told I am slime and afew other choice words. I have worked hard to get where I am at, my coven members have worked twice as hard. I trust my acms and I trust their judgement regardless of what others think. I run my coven as I see fit, but cming to me bitching and saying what a bitch I am and and that I have a loser coven is not the best way to make me want to be nice.
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atyourwindow
06:32 Oct 31 2009
would a sick old man next to ya help ya sleep dear?
LadyDarkRayne
11:56 Oct 31 2009
sure would dear....*kiss*