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17:47 Jan 26 2010
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*grins* let me just say.... it feels good to wake up in bed with my oleman ! So yes - I made it to TN. And will be mia for a few days getting. Unpacked... I am just one very happy rachy who loves her oleman very much and that the horrible drive was sooo well worth it !
06:35 Jan 24 2010
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Yay !!!!!!!!! Its Sunday I leave today ! Now off to bed so I get lots of sleep for my trip !
08:52 Jan 22 2010
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woke up to the most excruciating pain in my lower back, tried stretching only made it worse.. tried heat nope still hurts tried ice nope nothing. think I may have over done it and pinched a nerve in my back.. just great...
23:31 Jan 21 2010
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So ya I am pretty excited...Just a few more days and then I am out of here. Just goes to show what a lot of patience and love can get for ya.
Some still say that i have lost my damn mind, but ya know people are people and they will say what they will but it is what i think after all is said and done that matters.
If you know me at all then you already know that I follow my heartand my heart has led me to TN to someone who truely makes me happy.
06:51 Jan 20 2010
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random thoughts...
If we let fears control our lives we never get to see that there is so much out there, that we may have been blinded to.
Most people walk a straight line, me I decided to take the swirly line and let it take me to where it goes.
Yes I am sporatic and just love being random in some aspects of my life yet in others I am very predictable.
It's just part of who I am, I don't want to follow the crowd nor do I want to lead it.
It just feels good to be alive again. Been dead for such a long time, dead as in feeling empty inside not literally lol
05:22 Jan 20 2010
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I have this one friend *Penny* and I adore her she has always been a great friend and we went out dinner about a week ago, it was a bunch of us actually, got all my brothers and their girlfriends together and we went out.
Well this one friend *Penny* she just kept saying, Rach I can't believe you are actually leaving this place. I'm just like, Yes I am leaving and saddly I can't wait, less then a week to go now.
I can only be around here so much because she is always down, and I want positive people around me. I feel bad that I don't go over to her house too much these days, but I stopped over last night, and she and her boyfriend just broke up and he moved out and all she does it cry.. I tell her if she wouldn't try sooo hard tomake everyone happy... I know she wants me to tell her how its going to end, and just as I know certain things I knew way back when it would end badly, but she didnt care she just didnt want to be alone.
I still have to take a day and go see my Girl Tammi in Buffalo, I swear she is taking this the worst, shes like its one thing to move an hour away now ur leaving the state, meand her go wayyyyy back to my early 20's. The skeltons in out two closets....wow.. she is the type of friend that you call at 4 am Um girl I really screwed up come get me and she would be there.
There are many people that I am going to miss, but they all know that I am me and i always follow my heart, and well in this case it is taking me to TN, but it wouldnt matter where he was I would go anywhere just for him ( ♥ )
The Lovely Bones....03:17 Jan 20 2010
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I just went and watched that movie... It was fantastic, always like tosee what other peoples views of live after death is all about and i think it was really captured in this movie... it was sad looking at it from a parents point of view, if you haven't seen it, you should !
23:27 Jan 15 2010
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Its been a weird day for me so I thought maybe I'd take some time relax a little bit and do some creative, but I am always the most creative when i am happy, so I threw on some tunes got comfy * really relaxed* and did some creative work
One of my friends on facebook was saying how most of our friends hide behind their men... we just laughed because both of us are very outspoken and back in our younger days we were a force not to be reckoned with.
So well being that the oleman has deemed me the Mean Ole Rachy I thought I might take some time to explain how The Rachy became mean.
Way back when I was a nice Rachy I was even a cheerleader an 8th grader hanging out with the seniors.
Rebelious as hell, had pretty much what ever i wanted as that was the only perk of being an only child of two parents who always wanted to out do each other. Such as I bought her a car, oh ya well I bought her two horses can you top that ?
So anyways I was pretty much a tom boy I really don't like other women...way to much drama....(come on how many of you have thought the same thing... I mean honestly ladies ya know its true)
I grew up with all boys, so I did as the boys did, built forts did crazy dangerious things , blew up things. got all greasy working on cars... and the first time i got to go to the rifle range well lets just say I had that gleam in my eye..... I wasnt about all the new in things and cloths a ripped up pair of jeans and t shirt and my hair in a pony tale with my Yankee cap on was good enough for me....Now all the boys which I sweetly refer as to My brothers....were very over
over over protective. Bad enough having my Dad sitting on the porch with a shot gun over his knees say" you best have her back by 11pm not a second later.
Watching how all the girls fell all over my brothers telling me how lucky I was to be One of the Boys....(rolls eyes)
Well as it was expected I ended up dating of the brothers when I was a sophmore...let me tell ya.....that is a task in its own sense.
Dating till the end of highschool
But being as I was rebelious and wanted to try everything...partied all the time moved out of my parents at 16 and got emanstipated (sp)
I moved away after highschool came home over the holidays (one part of my life I wouldlike to just erase is 92-95 It was a blur...Getting married to a man that was 10 yrs older then me...
taught a few lessons..........I didn't like it ! I am my own person and don't like being told I need to do this wear this, say this say that, you shouldnt be drinking a beer out of the bottle........what ever....So yes I am very against having a peice of paper saying your someone elses property, my opinion has stayed that way for a long time and thats when i first started to become the mean Rachy....
Having a 14 year relationship with someone that drank every day and beat me more times then needs to be stated drained the life out of me
It made me cold and uncaring, but you would really have to know me well to know whether I was actually smiling or if it was a fake smile.
Between my ex husband and my sons father I even had a girlfriend because I was already about done to death with men and all their damn excuses.
I left my ex on april fools day packed up the house and just left that was the beginning of timeline...
Over the next 14 years it was easierto just be cold and not care.... after i got in my car accident things turned and i really hated the dark place i was in and wanted to live again...I started going out alot getting back in touch with ole friends
Let me tell ya you dont ever know the real person you been with either married or not until you got thru a custody battle or a divorse....Its like jekyl and hyde
So i guess what made me have such a mean streak in me is because I have seen what people arecapable of no matter how much they say your their everything, because people let you down its just in our human make up.
Me I dont have any expectations of people anymore and ask others not to have any of me, because I do what is needed and what works for me, and I am not afraid to speak whats on my mind... some say that makes me a Bitch, well for those that think that...to each their own, not real worried about it, because I know I can be a bitch, I wouldnt say I am heartless bitch though.
So as the oleman has said that I am a Mean Ole Rachy there is some truth to that haha and he thinks he is in control, I will let him think that for a little while...he may claim to have me tamed and domesticated, but if I go to the Kitchen its because I wanted to, not because I was told to go there lol
Any questions? Take a number . . .
My New tattoo to go along with the new look22:20 Jan 15 2010
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19:52 Jan 14 2010
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Whooo Hooo !!!!!!!
I am free I am free....not much left to pack all that will need to be done is load the truck, good thing I have big brothers for such tasks... I am a very very excited Rachy and even though its a long 12 hour drive it is going to be soooo worth it No better feeling in the world then to actually finally be able to to be with the person who I love more than anything. I am one very lucky woman to have someone who loves me as much as he does. And even though things have crazy for me between a psycho ex and me being sick all the time I just know with the new adventure on the horizon its going to be great and I wouldnt want to share it with anyone else but him.
Lots of great things to happen this year and let me tell ya this is OUR year to make it all happen. And besides he gets a two for one a premade family both me and my 12 year old who will be joining us as soon as school is out here in NY.
Yes I am going to miss some friends here in NY my sisters especially, but as I have told them its only a 12 hour drive
3 years wow07:46 Jan 14 2010
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There sure has been a lot of changes since i created my first profile on Jan 09 2007....I gave that profile away to a friend but thats the one I started with, it now belong to Draven and has changed hands a few times. But even this profile was created on March 11 2007 and has been owned by a few people.
Decided to make this one a Lifetime Acct, as I don't forsee me going any where, may take a break from time to time, but I always end up back, to many good friends amoungst the vast amounts of bad apples, but you will have that any where.
strange happenings ...18:41 Jan 12 2010
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So as most of the regular readers know I am moving here shortly, and let me tell ya it has been an experience.
The oleman called on a place and the old guy told him that he doesn't rent to people that are not married and he asked him if we intended on getting married, and the ole man said, "I don't think the ole lady is going to go for that."
So yesterday I called on a few places and ran into the same thing, " Are you married or are ya planning on getting married anytime soon?"
Now as most ya know I am not a big fan of getting married. I have my reasons and they are my own, I don't see the point to having a peice of paper to prove how committed or how much you love someone. But being we are moving into Bible Country, living in Sin in frowned upon. This is not something that I expected to run into, but did. And I am certain that the oleman has had a few chuckles at all of this at my expence. But it's all good.
Has anyone else ever run into such snags when renting a place or is just me ?
16:36 Jan 09 2010
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Uggg I can't wait to leave here ! Wake up this morning blindly walk to the kitchen in search of coffee.... of course there is none made even though its automatic and was all set to go last night... but no.......
I turn on the kitchen sink and I must admit I was really shocked but, of course the pipes are frozen no water.... no water that I had been collecting in the fridge either.... I need coffee in the morning,I can not function with out it ! So I walk back down to the utility closet and what do I see, the switch for the heat tape is off again grrrr
20:20 Jan 06 2010
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Only thing left topack is the kitchen and well everything on my desk.... very accomplished today.... I so can not wait to be get out of this state ! Although being told I am just going to get locked in the kitchen in another state, I'll take it, because I know I can escape from the kitchen hehe
So I decide I am going to go spend some time with my brothers, because I am gonna miss them ! whoo hoo off to the bar for this Rachy tonight !
And in another week, the mean ole man will have me all to himself...
So for all that have followed the AYW and LDR story, a chapter is about to end just to start another book and that my friends is going to be great !
10:27 Jan 05 2010
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It's so predictable that I will have a nightmare flashback of my car accident the night before the day I got in the accident. The roads are just as bad this morning as they were 5 years ago. At this very moment 5 years ago I was thinking maybe I better stay at work until the storm lets up some but after working a 12 hour shift I just wanted to get home. But as we know everything happens for a reason..
Alot has changed over the last five years. I have changed alot of the last five years as well. And the changes that are about to occur in the next week are the biggest changes I have ever made.
Moving to a new state, starting a new life with someone else. Leaving the past behind and moving forward.
12:40 Jan 04 2010
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Day 3
Kind of took it easy yesterday the artic coldreally did me in yesterday and it was very slow going. Got the dog crate for the move went out to see my uncle and my granny as I didn't know if I would make it out there before i left. I was relieved to know that my dad my aunt and my uncle are going to be placing my Gran in a home so she will get the care she needs.
As much as I am going to hate the long drive down to the oleman, it will be well worth it when I get there ! *kisses da ole man *
Day 2
04:53 Jan 03 2010
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Went and spent sometime with my friends who I am really going to miss. And they got me some beautiful presents that I just love ! And then I get home and I get the call. Lease is signed, place is ours...all the details have been worked out...Now if you all could just pray that mother natural will cooperate and give me a safe passage on my trip down with out any crazy weather, that would just be fantastic ! The last thing I was this excited about was the day my son was born.
Day 1
04:16 Jan 02 2010
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I am just in total amazement as to what huge things can be accomplished in one day. It is so fantastic to see how thing are turning out just as they were meant to turn out. With a New Year with so many wonderful changes, and so many wonderful amazing things still to come. Just goes to show that when you have a goal and you stay on that path and not let other's judgement cloud your judgement things really can be more beautiful than you ever imagined they could ever be.
I hope that everyone else get's everything they wished for in this New Year
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COMMENTS
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Isis101
17:49 Jan 26 2010
YAH!!!
Spiritwalker
03:12 Jan 27 2010
Yay, she finally made. lol Thanks for the call to let me know you were ok. look forward to seeing pics of you guys together and all that jazz.
nobodysfallenangel
12:25 Jan 27 2010
you better not freaking give my brother a stroke YOU HEAR ME! Damnit woman.. I love the both of you, and I am so HAPPY HAPPY that he found you, and you guys are united finally!