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Carol Burnett Show
06:49 Jan 27 2008
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Ok, I know this is going to date me, but I absolutely miss the Carol Burnett Show. For those of you, too young to know, the Carol Burnett was a live comedy/musical show. There were no takes, it was live and one of the goals that the actors once told an interviewer, is that they would go off script and try to crack the other members up. I remember this one episode, where Tim Conway, did his best to crack everyone on stage up. On stage is Vicki Lawerence (purple dress), Carol Burnett, Tim Conway and Dick Van Dyke.



******Warning to the Biddies*******

Make sure you go to the bathroom before watching this!!!!

OMG Thank you Good Sir!!!! I'm Honored.
18:59 Jan 24 2008
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I was having a conversation with Cancer last night. I have been working on a VR Profile help page for 6 months now and I finally got it done and offered it up to our Dark Prince. He said it looked good and told me to put it in the forums. So I did….and after posting I sat there staring at the post, trying to figure out what that little mark was under my nick. It took awhile and when I put my cursor over it, it said, “LadyChordewa carries the Mark of the Dark Prince.” OMG OMG OMG lol.



My two year anniversary is coming up soon and I had set goals to accomplish before this came about. My goals on VR, were to make Acolyte, make Sire, make a Coven where the kids could be safe and they want to be there. (I don’t care about the ranking of my Coven, as much as the feel inside of it) and to eventually earn the Dark Prince’s mark. I wanted to earn it, not buy it. I wanted to earn it to know that I did something that he noticed, that he appreciated. I accomplished that. I accomplished it all. Now to sent new goals. WOW.



Thank you My Lord. I am honored to carry your Mark.

Thank you Unknownskull48
18:45 Jan 24 2008
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One of the main protection marks I have been graced with....Thank you hon.

LOL---If only my dad was this cool.
18:05 Jan 17 2008
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I took my dad to the mall the other day to buy some new shoes. We decided

to grab a bite at the food court. I noticed he was watching a teenager

sitting next to him.



The teenager had spiked hair in all different colors: green, red, orange,

and blue.



My dad kept staring at him. The teenager would look and find him staring

every time. When the teenager had enough, he sarcastically asked, 'What's the matter

old man, never done anything wild in your life?'



Knowing my Dad, I quickly swallowed my food so that I would not choke

on his response; knowing he would have a good one.



And in classic style he did not bat an eye in his response, 'Got drunk once

and had sex with a peacock. I was just wondering if you were my son.'

Say Thank You
17:58 Jan 17 2008
Times Read: 936


The Gratitude Campaign





--Red Shirts on Friday

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AND SAY THANK YOU!!!!

Comment on Lord Vlkodlak's Journal.
02:59 Jan 14 2008
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This is in response to Lord Vlkodlak’s journal. Interestingly ignorant writer. Again proving that some people write just to see words on a paper and do no investigating or research to give a balance or a smidgeon of truth.



I am new to the wiccan religion and I chose to look into the wiccan religion, not due to the cool clothes and the dancing around at midnight, nude (or skyclad) as the case may be.



I chose it, due to the other religion's I have come across, seem hypocritical. I will give you examples of the devote religions I have come across. These are people that I knew, were friends of my parents. So please don’t come to me and tell me that all people aren’t like that. Or that they were wrong. I know, but for a teenager, trying to find her way with the Lord, these are what I came up against. The Catholics that I knew, they could be, vial backstabbing people, degrading people, using their words just as good as a sword, to cut people down to size. Yet, as long as they received their sacramental wafer and wine, every Sunday, then, their sins were clean and they were free to do what they choose. My In laws were Catholics and I saw this first hand for 8 years. Not just to me, but to others misfortunate not to be born into their graces. They ended up giving me a phobia about sitting in a church, due to them telling people. “Oh she isn’t really religionist, she just comes because we make her. Maybe someday she will be worthy.”



The Baptists I knew, was a family of 10 children that I use to baby-sit. Yes 10. The oldest was only 6 months younger than me, yet I was able to control this horde of kids when the parents went out for the night. Every night, they would come home to a quiet home, nothing destroyed, part of it actually cleaned, to their kids sleepily peacefully in their beds. As they drove me home, the mother would tell me that I was a wonderful responsible person, I was a great role model for their children but have I been saved? I was told that it didn’t matter the kind of person I was, or the responsible caring individual that I was, what mattered is I was a daughter of Eve and that I was born with sin, that I needed cleansed to be saved from the sin of being born. Otherwise I would never be let into Heaven. I fought with this woman, telling her that if God is so judgmental that he won’t look at my deeds and loving caring attitude, that if he would look that I lead my life with the Golden rule and do my best to take care of those less fortunate than me. If HE is going to ignore all of that, then he isn’t the Lord that I was brought up to believe in. They continued through the next 5 years, to convince me that the emotional turmoil I had was due to not totally believing in the Lord and not being clean.



I wonder what they would think of me, if I told them that I chose wiccan. My parents even see wiccan as strange. After one of my father’s hunting buddies died, his wife turned wiccan and bisexual, using the farmland as a place to do the wiccan rituals naked. Hence the thought of dancing around in the woods naked. I tried to explain that not all wiccan’s practice the same way, same as not all Christians practice the same way. I will get in more depth with it, with them. But as I said, I am just learning the religion. So far, it seems to fit everything I feel and that is what matters.

Just searching Journals and found this...
19:52 Jan 11 2008
Times Read: 997


Wilder’s journal



Again thank you for the kind words, My friend.

I totally agree KCRC.
22:51 Jan 10 2008
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KCRC’s Journal



Bravo Bravo!!!!!

Oh well, no biggie
22:36 Jan 10 2008
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This was pointed out to me only a couple days ago. I knew that someone petty would come along and mark me a one to knock me out of the spot. No biggie. I do want to take time to thank those that did rate me for the profile I put together, not for other reasons. Thank you.

Thank you to Hellsguardian69 and xPsychex
21:53 Jan 08 2008
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A gift from Hellsguardian to LadyK and I. He often called us his profile goddesses. He asked a mutual friend, that has been trying to learn all she can about making stamps and profiles, to make this for us. Thank you to both xPsychex and Hellsguardian69.

Thank you for confirming things...
02:40 Jan 08 2008
Times Read: 1,026






I love my friends dearly and trust in their judgment but when a perfect stranger comes to you and tells you something you need to hear, simply for helping with her profile, it helps solidify what you have been told.



Thank you to all for the love and support you have shown me over the past year.

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On 20:12:18 Jan 07 2008 (-6 GMT) Wilder wrote:



you are one hell of a lady and i respect you and the work ive seen on peoples profiles you have done :)



you are a credit to yourself, your family and Vr, truly you are xxxxxxxx

For those of you who KEEP CHECKING
19:32 Jan 07 2008
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Your Status: Sire (Level 28)



You have completed 100% of this level.





Pages Viewed Score: 29 x .30 = 8.7

Time Spent Score: 29 x .50 = 14.5

Ratings Score: 26 x .10 = 2.6

Posts Score: 22 x .10 = 2.2

Score: 28

Referral Points: 0

Referral Modifier: 1

Mark Bonus: 0%

Mark Modifier: 1

Total Score: 28





Ratings Score: 26 ( 8619 of 15628 or 55.15% )

Thank you dearest.
01:10 Jan 05 2008
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Thank you dearest. I know its a rarity for you to post about things like this in your journal. So, I am honored.



Hellsguardian’s Journal

Friendship definition.
19:45 Jan 03 2008
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I wrote this once before...but it is appropriate right now.







I have been thinking alot about friends and what the definition is. Here is mine, tell me if you agree:



-A friend is one that is there to celebrate your goals, accomplishments and achievements, as well as your failures, let downs and set backs.



-A friend is one that, if they do speak behind your back, they are honest enough to tell you about it.



-A friend will be honest with you, kicking you up side the head if needed, to make you see the light.



-A friend won't hold back, even if they know the knowledge they possess might hurt you. Honesty is always the best policy.



-A friend will defend you and protect you, viciously if needed.



So, this is how i feel about friendship. How do you know if i consider you a close personal friend? If you have to ask, then you probably aren't. There are different levels of friendship.



Acquaintenance - This is someone you barely know but you are being polite about everything. If they ask you, How are you? Generally you will say good, no matter how you feel or what you are going through. The level of trust hasn't been built yet.



Friend - You know this person and have good interesting conversations. You inquire into their well being but so far haven't reached having that deep conversation that will change their status. I trust them, but maybe not with my most intimate thoughts yet.



Best Friend - These are few and far between and the title isn't to be throw around easily. This friend is cherished and you feel a hole in your heart when you don't talk to them for awhile. This is the person you trust with your most intimate thoughts and know that betrayal by them could be a heartbreaker but you chance it anyways.



Unfortunately, I tend to trust once. If you hurt me, or break my trust, you won't get my full trust back. The only exception to this is Best friends. Sometimes, you need to hurt to let the relationship grow. My sense of distrust might come from the abusive relationship, where "I'm sorry and I will never do it again", rang a sour note because I heard it so many times. So, an apology will only get you so far with me, especially if I don't think it is heartfelt or if you don't know exactly what you are apologizing for. Actions speak louder than words, with me.



What brought on this? I'm not sure. Maybe my friendship with others is being tested and I'm trying to equate myself with that I am learning. Maybe I am feeling bad about being judgemental and i'm trying to put it right in my head. No matter what, these question will plague everyone until the end of time.



-How do you decide who to be loyal two between friends? Easy answer is the one that didn't put you in that position in the first place right? yeah ok...maybe, try it.



-How do you decide when someone is hurting you, if they are oblivious or doing it purposely? Yeah interesting thought huh?



-How do you figure out if you are letting past hurts, interfer with what you think of a current friend? No comment on this one.



Interesting questions huh? Give me a shout if you figure it out, please.

Best friends week.
19:39 Jan 03 2008
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Think about this for a minute.....



If I happened to show up on your door step crying, would you Care?

If I called you and asked you to pick me up because something Happened, would you come?

If I had one day left, to live my life; would you be part of That last day?

If I needed a shoulder to cry on, would you give me Yours?

This is a test to see who your real friends are or if you are just some one to talk to you when they are bored . . .



Do you know what the relationship is between your two eyes?

They blink together, they move together, they cry together, they see things together and they sleep together, BUT THEY NEVER SEE EACH OTHER... that's what friendship is.



Your aspiration is your motivation, your motivation is your belief, your belief is your peace, your peace is your target, your target is heaven, and life is like hell without FRIENDS.





Who is your best friend? Will they answer you if you send them this?

Why the name change?
19:27 Jan 02 2008
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As the new year comes and goes, I feel the need for change. Not to hide, or to get some high score but I have been working on my profile off and on for about 6 months now, but I always give my profile away, so that a person I cared about, would have something creative and memorable from me. But I digress.



In the past year, I have gone through alot. Divorce, injury, homelessness, helplessness, depression. I have discovered things about myself that I didn't know and now that my eyes are open, I am looking ahead.



The name change is a minor one, but for me significant. I went back and read some of my earlier journal entries (saved and then deleted them) that started in January of 2006. They showed me as a submissive person, willing to do anything to please the people around me. Showed me as someone that could be easily lead with no backbone.



Thanks to several women on here, I am not that person anymore. To RedQueen, Nightgame, Vampirewitch, Silverbow and Queenmorbid, I learned that its ok to be a strong individual and stand up for my own rights. To no longer, be the submissive and do things just to please others, but to please myself. Once that change was made in my head, it came out in my real life also. To them I will be eternally grateful.



I learned that I was loyal and viciously protective of what I considered mine. I learned that it was ok to do that lol. I learned that I could fight back. Before I would apologize for my existance. Now, I can verbally state my feelings, even during an arguement. I have a gift with words, I am told.



So, I think of it this way. I came here as a whelp, a begger, looking for subsistence, not only in my mind but in my soul. I was nothing. I look at myself now and see how far I have come. I have the respect of others, the friendship of many and the knowledge of myself to learn and continue to grow. I went from Whelp to Sire, or simple peasant girl to a Lady. Hence the name change.

So what did you learn this year?
18:59 Jan 01 2008
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One of my member’s posted this question in our coven….



What have you learned this year?



Let's see my year. January 2nd, I told my husband that I was leaving him. On December 28th we had a huge fight, basically 2 hours of him telling me everything that I have done to ruin his life. So, without talking to my best friends (Vlkodlak and HG) or my family, I made the decision that I was unhappy enough and had been long enough to leave him.



At the end of January, I asked my ex husband to be, that he get a Home Equity Loan to pay off all our bills before we parted. He threw me out of the house. Just me and my two dogs, thrown out into the snow. What a wonderful start to a New Year.



At the time, I was living in a hotel with both my dogs. My Parents came up from Florida to get all my stuff out of the house. My mother was just starting a MS attack and my father was just out of the hospital. Yet they came up to West Virginia from Florida to help their “baby.” Once they we got all my stuff put into storage, they gave me money to make it up to my Aunt’s house in NY. It filled my heart, to know that my parents were there for me, yet again. I burst into tears when I saw my Mom and Dad. I love them completely. It just shows that even a 35 year old woman still need her Mommy and Daddy.



For 5 months, my Aunt put me and my two dogs up. She is a wonderful woman and I think that we became closer, the longer I stayed. Along with my mother, I consider her one of my best friends. She is misunderstood by her kids and honestly her kids are too self absorbed to take the time to do anything but criticize her. She has a great sense of humor, a very caring heart and a wonderful understanding way about her. I love her with all my heart and she made my time with her bearable. When Harley was injured and would yip in the middle of the night in pain. Aunt Donna paid for me to get her meds and have her checked her out. While in NY, I was told I possibly had Breast and Lymph Cancer, but both came out negative with tests. At that time, I felt that my year couldn’t get any lower and hoped it could only go up from there. It did.



In March, I had an amazing thing happen. I finally got to meet for the first time, the man that I had been talking to for 2 years, online, that live 3000 miles away. I had been talking to this man for over 2 years and was there for him, through the crumbling of his marriage. He became one of my best friends and I began to depend on his laughter, logic and caring attitude, even though we had never met and lived 3000 miles away. He had helped me through the break up of my marriage, the same as I saw him through his. This is the man I had spent Christmas and New Years, on a web cam, watching movies and it was the best Christmas and New Years I had spent in a long time. But finally, instead of cyber hugs, I was going to get to meet him. He flew over to New York and spent a week with me. All I can say is it was amazing to finally meet Vlkodlak in the flesh. It was the coming together of two lost souls, holding onto each other like life preservers. It was the beginning step for each of us….toward healing.



Beginning of May, I began the Guardian of Darkness with Vlkodlak and Hellsguardian as my Assistants and began collecting kindred spirits from around VR. At the end of May, I was invited to my Sister in law’s house who lives in the same state as Vlkodlak. I drove to Chicago and met up with Vlkodlak and the 4 of us made the trek across the states together. V, Harley (my lab), Maddie (dashund beagle mix) and I. It was a great time, as V and I got to know each other better. We started making plans to live together. My sister in law, told me to go to Vancouver and help V find a place to live, that would take the dogs. We found a place, but Maddie was injured due to her negligence. As Maddie slowly recovered, I never forgot the betrayal I felt, for my dog being injured in her care. V and I decided to never look back and have been together ever since.



The things that I have learned….



I have learned that being a loving individual, is not a personality fault. That there are some people that appreciate friendship, caring and a kind ear. I learned that I am a stronger individual that I ever thought and I have wise words to ease someone else’s pain. I also have a sharp tongue when one of those I care about is threatened.



I look forward to the new year as my life continues to unfold. I wish to try to get a job and to have a child. To buy a house and to live my life with my love. What I learned???



I learned what love was. I learned that love doesn’t hurt, physically or emotionally. Love caresses your face, cups your neck and kisses you like you were in the movies. Love dirty dances in the kitchen in the morning and cuddles in the dead of night. Love laughs and teases. Love appreciates the little things you do. Whether it be cleaning the house or making your dinner. Love is hugging someone when he comes home from work, or kissing him goodbye as he leaves. Love helps you learn about yourself. Love helps you realize that you are ok, no matter what you do.



So, this is what I learned. What have you?