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Not that anyone ever reads these, but I desided to actually vent. I know that I normally are calm and collected, but now I am not.



Last tuesday, I left my high school, and picked up my car in the shop. The Altenator was not working. I imediatly drove 39 miles to go see the one person I loved. Then, after hanging out with the friends who call me a BITCH and a whore... which is imposible, We left to his house.

We sat in the living room and cuddled and talked for awhile, considering we hadnt seen ewach other since Valentines day almost 2 weeks ago.... I had to leave to make it to my Band practice. We have festival TOMAROW! and so I was late becouse HE wanted to talk a little longer.....

Well... While I was there, He was visited by his Biological father (unamed), who is a beatist. His father's fiance (who will be left unnamed) Fiance talked to my boyfriend/fiance... I sat in my car, so not to get involved. After awhile, my BF walks to my car and gets in. He starts telling me how he doesnt want me involved in his family issues... That he can not have me hurt becouse of him.... after telling him that if he is involved with mine, then I am involved with his. He didnt like it but left it be.



On the way home from band practise, something told me to put my phone in my pocket, and then I got a quarter of a mile from the road I live on and wrecked! I tried to miss a deer, and went off the road! Becouse I had a foreward drive car, the light back swung foreward, and made me go back unto the road, and across! I hit a ditch and rolled onto the doors! Then, went airbourn, hit a pine tree, and got flung into a cedar tree!



I didnt get to talk to my BF till the next day, and I told him I was fine, nothing broken, or too hurt. That I was in minor shape. He then tells me through TEXT that his WIFE was with him... and to leave him alone... that SHE might be PREGNANT! How fucked up is that? After that, He told me to leave him alone forever... so I ask why he changed his whole attitude, typeing style, and voice style... He said I was only a TOY to him... That I was nothing to him.... I want to go back into the wreck, and make sure I do die... If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know... Before I deside to do something rash... or to close off completly...