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I have put together a few recipes and brews for a celebration in my home. We will be marking the occasion with a big bonfire in our yard. For dinner my family and I will enjoy a roast .I was thankful to obtain a really delicious recipe from my coven. For dessert we will enjoy returning sun spice bread. I made it last year and it was really yummy! I have a really nice incense prepared for my alter. I have posted that in my journal to share with you. In preparation I have these really beautiful pastel pink and green candles and 2 really nice pieces of amethyst and Turquoise to decorate my altar. I celebrate all Wiccan Sabbats and always try to involve the rest of my family. Even if they just remember the name of the Holiday and take away one thing such as the colors or the food. To me this is important.

I enjoy writing in my journal here . I don't have many people to talk to in my everyday life that I can trust. I need advice and help sometimes.I am only human. Right now I am very scared.I am a nervous person by nature.My anxiety level is very high.I don't sleep well and I have been having bad anxiety attacks lately. Reason being many of my family members have passed away from cancer. I lost my mom(my best friend)to a very rare Medstatic cancer. My grandpa died of cancer and my sister has Neuroendocrine cancer. I always think something is seriously wrong with me and can't help getting upset and scared.I just got off the phone with my Doc and he said a test I had came back abnormal and I needed to go back and see him for a Biopsy to rule out Cervical cancer.I immediately began to cry when I got off the phone with him.I am very scared. I am hoping my friends on VR can help me get back on track and not think the worst of things and maybe teach me to be a better person. I have lost my way lately.I used to be soo full of positive energy.I wanted to heal the world and always thought positive about things.I have become stubborn.I always assume the worst in my life now. I want to change.I want to turn around and be carefree.I want a more fullfilling life without all this stress. I try and give everybody the impression Im strong and know where Im going in life.It's time for me to become that person I pretend to be.

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ladySnowStrixx
23:38 Jan 27 2010

just remember We receive no more then we can handle ,and What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger. don't expect it to be bad till you know it is , it could just be a infection or a cyst.

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I have made up my mind for now.I am going to rate everyone a 10 reguardless of what I personally think of their profile. I have stu,bled upon many profiles that don't even have any pictures and yet everybody gives them 10.Even though I don't agree with the rating I now understand.I have been fairly rating recently and people are getting soo upset and taking it soo personally.I have been threatened to be blocked, told to rerate, and received comments about my rate.Unbeleivable!!!Oh well.

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xAXEWOMANx
18:10 Jan 21 2010

Yes it is a shame some feel due to a lower rate than 10

it deserves the block treatment



don't change your rating system just because of this

they are winning then are they not

try to ignore the negative focus on the positive



don't let it get to you anyway

just enjoy your time here :)

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ladySnowStrixx
18:22 Jan 21 2010

Sweetie I,ve found its easier to give them a 10 then tell them its a encouragement to better there profile.

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Lovise
02:00 Jan 28 2010

I do and can freely rate low, if I wish to, and I give a reason why, and I do. As for you lass, the extact reason I gave you a ten, because at least you actually put something forward for me to read, and I actually did enjoy, because I look forward to seeing more in your journal, also. -smiles- You have an open mind, lass. Don't let anyone take that from you. We need more people to be honest in this vain world we call, VampireRave, or perhaps the entire globe. It's pity. But I look forward to a real world where we don't take it personal on ratings.



I find funny.

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That is the name my elders gave me on the day my mother died.They said I had grown immensly from the experience.I was told I was a woman now. Around my neck I was given a pouch made of deerskin and inside was the claw of a bear for strength. My aunt told me my gift to the world was my music and my beautiful voice. I feel sad.I haven't picked up my guitar in soo long.I have gotten soo caught up in the day to day stresses of life.I feel like Ive let my beautiful mother down.Since making new friends and conections on VR I feel a renewed sense of myself, sort of an awakening again.I will make an effort to pick up my guitar this week.

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ladySnowStrixx
18:49 Jan 20 2010

Sweetie You are so Lucky To have that gift , you should use it , Don't you know that is a great way to relax at night before Bed.

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Couldn't possibly sleep right now.I am having aweful anxiety and my legs and arms are restless! I wanna scream.Why must I go through this over and over. In 2 hours I will go to work completely exhausted and drag through another day.What a vicous cycle this is.

I often suffer from severe anxiety attacks.Usually between the hours of 12:00 Am and 4:00 Am.Go figure.The time when spirits are more prevalent. If I can help you by relating to your situation that is wonderful. I want to share with you how I alleviate the negative energy! I let go of the garbage by first trying to calm myself.I then visualize holes in the bottom of both my feet.I envision the negative energy leaking out of them and into the earth for my guides to take care of.When I feel as though all of it is gone I close the holes in my feet.Hope this helps.

Trees and flowers, herbs and stones

share with us their Earthly home.

They live and breathe. They laugh and play.

Some find new homes and move away.

But others hang around a while,

To watch o'er us and cast a smile

Upon us. Then they lend a hand

In spreading magic through the land

By giving us their precious gifts-

Delighting as the Cosmos lifts

Its gauzy veil and spells fly in,

And magic comes back out again-

Then carried on the wings of birds,

A Witch's simple words are heard-

Her voice twirls softly on the winds:

''Thank you all, my Nature Friends!''



Kalioppe

I have always experienced electrical phenomenon, but recently its gotten out of hand.I cant even tell you how many new light bulbs I have had to buy in the past month or so. Our electrical box and sockets have been tested and checked out.Everything is wired normal and nothing seems to be wrong from the electricians point of view.Mostly in the early hours of the morning when Im awake from insomnia around 3-4 am I will turn on a light and they start strobing for minutes at a time. Aside from the strobing, they are constantly blowing out. My TV acts up,no volume and sometimes the screen goes all fuzzy. This never happens during the daylight. I wonder if its paranormal or is it me??? Thats the problem. Have my gifts soared to new levels. I dont know??

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schedule1
17:54 Jan 16 2010

I would check baseline emf levels in your house. then check them again between 3-4am and see if there is a difference.

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Im not sure what happened.I was trying to paste a background code to various places under edit profile when everything went black. I copuld not get backto normal.All that time I put on here wasted!Im kinda mad. My Old account was GrizzlyWitch.I wish I could get her back up and running.I love this sight soo much I recreated another profile and started all over again.Oh well.

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markus666
04:44 Jan 16 2010

There are always someone to help you. Just ask trough the main forum, in the sand box.

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