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My cheeks are stained with tears

My arms are scared with blood,

Nothing matters now

I have no life to live.



Why did I think I could cope

Nothing was worth, my lost of hope,

My faith has flown away

With heaven's wings, to heaven its stays.



My immortal soul lost to me

Taken my Death darken deceit,

I am no longer here

For Hell's sphere's pierce through me.



Suicide is a sinner's sin

And no one gets the winning grin.

Are we meant to cry

I s life meant to be lived,

And am I meant to

Live like this.

I once told a boy what I knew of love

The deepess emotion I could bear,

And to tell this person I bear it

Was just a simply death wish.



"I love you" flowed from my lips

Like twe birds flying into the sunset,

But they began to choke me, once out

For hands of death they became.



Wrapping their long fingers around my neck

Then tugging at my young girl's heart.



For he did not bear it

He did not wish it,

To hear these words of feelings

To hear these words of love.



To love a person like this

Would just be a simply death wish for thee !!!

My head is spinning

My toes are tiggerling,

I feel sick

I feel ill.



When will these feeling of hatred

Go away,

Over the hills

And far away.



I hate him, I hate him

The man is pure evil,

He plays them like flutes

In his terrible stage jest.



I ahte him, I hate him

Why won't he die,

It's me or hime

Choice one now,

Its my life or his

Which one will prevail?



I hate him, I hate him

Please God choose me,

He is pure evil, pure as can be

He's not worth saving.

He is unknown to me

Holds no part of my heart,

He haunts my fascination

Wondering who he is.



He is unknown to me

Even though he's my father.

A story of pain and death

A story of which I'm destinied to tell,

Of such things we must prevail

Through God and glory is our prevailier.



For we are things of such tales

And our tales we muct live.



I bleed for God

I bleed for Glory,

For this life we have

Is such a tiring story.

I am sat at this table

Writing this poem,

Hoping they'll look over

And talk to me.



They only sit ther

Blanking me out,

Out of the moment

Out of the scene.



Sometimes I just wish

Just in one lifetime,

That I'll won't be the only

Abanded third wheel.

Life is a wimpering rose

One whichs needs true undying emotions,

Death is the falling autumn leaves

Which rotes away but yet lives again.



Life and death are the start

And the finish.



Death is thought to be the end

But what if its not,

What if its the start, a new begining

What then, what do you think now?

Pain, death all I wish

Could happen to one person,

A person who beared me for 9 months

A person who gives me great rage.



Rage of all I feel and am only able to feel

A feeling no one should hold,

She doesn't understand me

She'll never will.



Not when I hold all I hold

Problems she'll never have to face,

She thinks she knows me

She thinks I'm stupid and young.



She thinks she smarter than me

But only if she knew,

The things I knew

The feelings I hold.



She'ld be scared, she'ld be terrified

I am wise befond my years,

She be older, but I am stronger

She might hold the key to my rage.



But she'll never break me

She'll never make me, HER,

I not her puppet

I am unknown by all,

I am unknow by her

No one knows me.



And no one will get the fuckin chance too !!!

I cry

I cry alone, abanded in the night,

Unwilling to do no more than cry

Soft gentle tears of pure emotion.



Willing to move down my wrinked cheeks

I'm lost, unfound,

Unfound to the world and it creations

I want to cry, I want to be found.



But I guess I'll never will

The world is unwilling to find me,

I've given up, I shall cry forever

I shall ve this abanded versal of tears.

Every thought kills my heart

Every moment kills my soul.



My beating heart, beats for the man I love

My immortal soul lives for him,

But when he denines me of this love

He wripes my injured heart from my cage of fleash.



There its lays, in his bear hands

Still beating its love tune,

He crushed that tune

Like he crushed my heart my heart between those fingers.



Now no beat comes from that heart

My cage of flesh, hollow and empty,

But what of my immortal soul

Did he leave that be.



I would like to say to yes

But that would make a lie like my heart,

As empty as it is

As crushed as it is now and forever be.



He grabbed my soul

Still loving him,

He pulled it from my throat

Leaving my loving body bear.



Now I'm cursed with this empty versal

I can't and won't love,

For loving is only made for loving fools

Which I say in proud words "It won't be me!"

Please, please love me

Didn't you hear me, love me,

I told you to love me

Please, please love me.



Didn't you hear me, love me

Why won't you love me

Please, please love me.



Love the person I am

Love the clothes I wear,

Love the way I'll love you

Please, please love me.



I told you to love me

Why won't you love,

Please, please love me

I NEED TO BE LOVED !!!

Why is life like this

A deep, dark hole with no return,

A place to fall, and fall forever

A place to cry tears that never end.



Or is life, love, beauty and smiles of joy

Or something I described a few lines before,

Life is crap, life is shit

Only friends can make a change.



So I tell you now, help me please

Friends I'm falling, catch me please.

Each turn of the wheel

Changes our fate.



Life and death

Just simply topics,

But ones that changes our history

Ourself.



One person

Only one person,

Can change everything

For everyone.



Each turn of the wheel

Changes our fate.



The world is selfish

Just one moment,

Just one event

Can end your life.



The turn of the wheel

That one person,

That one moment

Stopped my fatal breath,

My loving heart

Killed my hopes and dreams.



KILLED ME !!!