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A job or tons of money.Everything fucking cost money.Especially when you're in a relationship.I want to buy her flowers,chocolate and all the hello kitty items the world has to offer.I care very deeply for her.But it sucks that I never have any money.People say money can't buy happiness but I believe it brings couples closer together.I also want to get my car running again so I can actually drive places.Parts and mechanics cost lots of money as well.And I want to move out nd find an apartment as soon as possible.That's all going to be spendy.There's lights, internet, utilities...God the list just keeps on going! If I decide to carry on smoking cigs nd weed how on earth am I suppose to afford all that? I go through a pack a day nd a bag in a wk if its just me smoking it. I also have bad eyes and am going to need to get new glasses at least every 1-2 years.What the fuck am I going to do? Babysit? That won't be enough if I'm planning on all this.

Alina called me up earlier saying she wants to buy a strap-on.So we're gunna save up our money until we have enough to buy one.I'm really nervous though because I haven't taken that much up there nd have never used toys w/ another girl b4. I have no idea even how much one would cost.But all I really do know is I'm scared out of my mind.But on our big shopping trip to the adult novelty store,we're also going to look around for flavored lubricants and nipple nibblers. My ex gf Tandice nd I used to use nipple nibblers wen we were together.Nd I have used lubes nd flavored ones for self pleasure a few times.But neither of us even really know how strap-ons work.Anyway,that's what's on my mind....Strap-ons gallore.

Alina is doing a charter this weekend. So sadly she wont be able to come over. Which sucks bcuz I was really hoping to get some alone time with her.its ben 2 wis since ive seen her neway. Ugh! This sucks so bad.its complicated to date a lady with a job.shes always so busy it seems.and if not bcuz of her job then bcuz of Avery.I stiill need to find myself a job so I can move out nd get an apartment.I know for sure if I moved downtown then we'd b able to see eachother a lot more.she absolutely hates having to drive out here.its about 25 miles...maybe even 30 away from her place.I'm glad that I don't have to clean the house but the sad thing is...I actually wanted to.instead of her coming over, I'm going to go to a potkuck tomarrow nd get some new clothes for school.

I hope to clean up the house way later today....I really dont want to but mom says i have to if i want alina to stay the night. shes prob gunna make me vacume the living rm,clean the bathroom nd make my room look more presentable. its not like alina would really care tho,if nething her house is messyer then ours is.but mom has always ben like that if company is going to come over...the house better be damn near spotless.i hope alina is doing ok right now,this is her first nite w/o avery and avery's w/o her mama. if i knew that at 18 i was gunna d8 a woman who has a 4 yr old then i would of planned for it better. but i guess u really never can no wut ur fait will be.its best to just take life easy and laugh at the little things.

I shouldn't assume the worst possible outcome.I mean she is going to be dropping Avery off at the airport some time today.It must be tough for a mother to watch her child leave.Especially a child as young as she is.I hope Avery has a safe flight,I'm really worried about her.I also hope to god,that someone she can trust is going to be flying with her and handling all of the airport bs.I bet right now,Alina is trying to hold tears back and hugging little Avery very tightly in her arms.She'll only be in Texas for a week but I know it will seem like an eternity to Alina.All I know is I want one more final blow out before school starts up again...I love you Alina Swank :D But I also still love flirting on here. I believe this website is like Vegas,what happens here...stays here.

And got a phone call from my school. They said that I need to register this week.The last thing I want to think about is school.It will be damn near impossible for Alina and I to see each other during the school week and its not like I can just tell a bus driver....yeah I'm gunna need you to drop me off at another bus driver's house.Unless of course there's a stop a block or 2 down that I could just go to.Idk what I'm going to do yet.All I know is I want to spend my last weekend of summer vacation with her.And yet,she doesn't even seem to care.She's not replying to my text.What did I do wrong?Is it so wrong of me to desire her love and affection? Why won't she text back?What is going on inside that pretty head of hers?If only I knew...

I just added captions to all of the pics I have in my portfolio.I'm waiting for the cam user that I'm watching to refresh her internet.I love the title of her cam chat....The ass baby club.It's just so hilarious. Haha,I'm going back and forth between here and Facebook.I have been poked so much that it feels like I'm being raped by the facebookers.

but then again I poke them back,idk I sort of think the whole poking thing is annoying tho.But I guess it passes time right?I still need to figure out when I'm going to fit in doing sit ups tonight.I might just be lazy and wait to do them way later today.I'm just drinking some redbull and waiting for wings to sprout out like in the commercials.

I found out would b a great alternative to marridge.ill def have to remember it for in the future wen I feel ready to spend the rest of my life with sum1.pretty much Wut it is is a ceremony where a couples hands r tied together by a ribbon nd afterward u hav to b together for a yr nd a day.wen I'm really I hope I remember to check out one of the 3 local paeans stores that we hav here in Alaska. There is the source metaphysical bookstore in anchorage, body mind and spirit in kenai and pye wackets in soldotna. I hav been bummed out for awhile bcuz I knew that I couldn't legally marry even if I wanted to bcuz of my sexuality.but this definitely gives me hope. :)

Was pretty amazing.I slept in until 2 pm which is pretty rare anymore for me.Then my brother gave me my cell phone which has been missing for a week.As soon as I got it, I immediately picked up my texting addiction from where I ended it.I gauged my ears out again and am now at an 8.Alina and I are doing better then ever right now.I love being young and in love...its the greatest feeling in the world.I just wish there was better cell signal up here.for dinner I had a calzone.it was so amazing oh my God! But I felt like I gained about 100 lbs eating it.the current time is 9:14 and I'm staring at my wine just debating weither or not I want to be hungover again in the morning....

Before I go to bed I still have to finish up the last bit of my white wine.I also still have a lot more bud to toke before I can go anywhere.Im already feeling abit buzzed tho.but obvious not badly enuff that I cant type.I had speghetti for dinner tonight.I had 2 survings of it and Damn I did pretty amazing at my first attempt of making it.I was actually surprised that it ended up tasting so good.I was worried, you know...that it wouldn't even b edible.The current time is now 12:37. Ive been up for a whole 12 hours. My physical therapist woke me up today telling me I need to set up more appointments and shit.but idk my wrist has been killing me like crazy for weeks it seems.I fucking hate it! I'm gunna smoke a cig b4 I even attempt to tackle the rest of the bowl....

I'm watching the craft. Its a movie about these four witches who go to a Catholic high school.they worship a being named Manon.I absolutely love love love the chick who plays Nancy in it.shes so hot and wears skin tight clothing during the whole thing.the actoresses who play in it are fairuza balk, robin tunney, neve campbell and rachel true. Right now in the movie, the other girls are floating above Sarah and saying now is the end let her go in peace.and Nancy slit sarah's wrist and their trying to scare her.and now, Sarah is trying to invoke the spirit but she gets interrupted by bonnie and Rochelle. So Sarah made them see Wut they did times 3 nd the girls r scared shitless.but it was just a mirror image.soon enough, Nancy will go crazy and b in an insane asilum screaming that shes flying.Sarah just invoked Manon and while she was she heard her moms voice. God! I love this movie so much.why?because it reminds me of charmed and I believe that that is the absolute best show to ever come on Tv.

Since last night I have been left wondering....What is the ratio of vampire to human? How many of them are walking around that I don't even notice?Are any of the doctors that have been treating my wrist blood thrirsty?What about the physical therapist? Is it possible that any of the kids or teachers that go to my school are?How would I know without them directly telling me? I have found out that Hollywood had vampirism all wrong.If their not as obvious to point out as movies and shows make them to be....Then how could I possibly know who is or isn't in my small little town? I know a few wiccans nd paegans. But I guess I'll just be left in the dark...Waiting,wondering and strongly desiring to know.If I knew any vampy girls that lived around here then I would love to shed some of my blood for them.

Wow! Today was pretty amazing, I checked out the cam's nd ended up staying on one particular for hours and hours and hours. And no matter how hard I tried she wouldn't take her top off. But I'm glad I stayed and watched until a few Mins ago. I watched her drain and drink her own blood. Holy shit what an experience. Its crazy tho becuz b4 I refound this site I was reading about that shit. But to c it happen live and uncensored just blew my mind away. I learned a lot more about vampires, the way they r nd such then I was expecting to. I also got tons of new friends on here and am already at level 5. Thank u everyone for helping me feel welcome on here. But its already 3:33 am nd I'm feeling tired as hell. God it sure has been an outragious day though. Nighty night everyone, I'll more then likely b bak on wen I wake up in the morning. And I just want to say thank you once again...Peace and love

I wonder when moms plane comes in. I wonder if I'll be forced to go down to my dads after they get back.I wonder why no one has come out to visit me. I wonder what normal people spend their lives doing. I wonder if she's the one or if its just a fling.I wonder what I'm going to have tonight for dinner.I wonder how far my tolerance for weed has gone down because of the 2 days I didn't smoke.I wonder if it went down at all.

Today is my first day back on here in years. I updated all of my profile info and found an amazing pic for my avatar. I came back to here because I was doing some research online and saw a banner for this page on the bottom.I was on drink deeply and dream,real vampires and embracing mystery earlier. Last night I was trying to look for some good quality lez porn and ended up finding one called vampire fangs bite tits or something like that. My mom is coming back from Homer today.