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Bored, bored, bored...fucking BORED!!!!



I was thinking the other night about raising Demons. Sounds random...I know. It's also probably a totally stupid idea, but just the thought of trying it seems...fun? That's probably a bad word to use. Nothing about Demon raising should be fun, but some part of me wants to try the spell just to see if I CAN do it. If a Demon doesn't show, then no big deal right? But what if one did show up? What would I do with it? The problem is, I just can't think of a good enough reason to try it. I mean, I don't have any questions I want answered...not really anyway...and I don't have anything I want found and the preparation for the spell is like a two week ordeal and when you're a full time student, who the fuck has time to meditate and cook up incense and make pentacles of protection and consecrate all your tools? Nobody...that's who. But still, it's one of those nagging things my mind keeps going back to. The little voice that keeps saying "just try it". Why? I have no idea. I just want to. My boyfriend keeps telling me 'curiosity killed the cat' and the sane part of me says if I try and raise a Demon I will end up being the proverbial fucking cat. But what if it's all BS? What if there aren't any Demons? What's the harm, right? Riiight.



And what about Necromancy? If I don't raise a Demon, I could try raising the dead. I know plenty of dead people. But, then again, what would be the point? The only person I would think about raising is my murdered friend. I want to know what really happened. But some how it seems disrespectful to even try. Who the hell am I to disturb his eternal peace? And what if it all went wrong? No. I think the dead should stay dead. Ghosts, spirits, entities, residuals, whatever....they're enough to deal with as it is. I don't think I should go messing around with dead people even though they love messing with me. I keep having those goddamn nightmares. Lately they've been bad, but they're so jumbled that I can't make sense of them right now. I'm waiting for the one that comes through loud and clear...one usually always gets through now and then and when it does I'll be ready. I sound like a crazy person, but the what the fuck...I probably am crazy. Who cares.



This is how bored I am. I think I'll have another gin and tonic and zone out in front of the TV.



Peace

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BLOODLIFE
10:49 Sep 30 2008

You know, it can also be said that showing your will power over your desires to meddle in such 'things' is a greater gift of the spells.

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