When my number has been called
And darkness takes me home
I'll close my eyes just one last time
Close my eyes Forever
I'll close my eyes to keep your face
With me when I go
To who knows where
And I don't care
As long as I'm with you
Close my eyes forever
Breath, the final sigh
Though my eyes are closed forever
It will not be Goodbye
Cut my throat and have it done
Instead of this pain, let me feel only numb
Take my aches and pains away
Leave me only shades of grey
Rip my heart out, throw it aside
Suck out the poison, from the inside
Take the memories of yesterday
Leave me only shades of grey
Pluck the heartstrings, play a tune
Tomorrow never comes too soon
Forever's a lie, so take it away
Leaving only shades of grey
Tracing fingers crawl over my scalp
Scrapping grey matter away
Liquid infection injected inside
Taking all hope away
Massage my cortex
Manipulate senses
Tease the synapse
Release me
Tickle my thoughts
Sample my delights
erase my emotions
Defeat me
Tracing fingers claw my heart
Squeezing, releasing, my heartbeat
Manipulating aortic flow
Nails caress and tear inside me
Twisting, the seconds as they pass by
Flickering, the flashing in your eyes
Pupils dilate, breath increases
Darkness calls, Sunlight ceases
Bones are cracking
Shadows attacking
The demons are snacking
On the hope you're packing.
A miscarriage of the human way
Death is born again today
Bitter pills of opiate dreams
Split the silence, borne of screams
Muscles tearing
Panic, staring
Heartbeat failing
Life curtailing
Praying to a Fallen God
To send an Angel, raise you up
Little do you know, he knelt before me
I'm the ultimate Diety
Screaming echoes
Through the hedgerows
Where the wind blows
Silenced....as I cut your throat
I'm a Hellfire Demon
On a Harley Hog
Satan's Son, an Angel
Fuck you like a dog
I'm the hate that boils inside you
I'm your need for speed
But every now and then
The Beast Must Be Released
I'm a razorblade, a suicide
The Lock and Quay
The trenchcoat mafiosa
Trigger-nometry
Iconoclast, the faithless
I'm liberated...Free
But every now and then
The Beast Must Be Released
A walled up anonymity of what could be
A descrated heartbeat
Quick sigh
Feel release
I'm the perfect imperfection
For the ego led
But every now and then
The Beast Must Be fed
A single tear to tell a tale
A story without words
It gently flows, and rolls towards
A river of sadness and pain
One single tear, whispered words
Of Pain, Of Loss, Of Love
Salty escapee, of bravado prison
Sells your story, a traitor
Just one tear, tears the heart
Causes hate to melt
Single dew drop of the eye
Tells the truth, wordlessly
dried up infants
in lockers and suitcases
marytred victims
in shallow graves
freeze dried embryos
filleted and deep fried
shelf bought screams
with a carpet of maggots
decapitated children
broken dreams and bones
innocence damaged
blood tears spilled
celebrate unhappiness
when a child is killed
In the Garden Of Eden
Whorehouse of God
Adam Fucked Eve
In the style of dog
Mad dog Adam, barking commands
Eve knelt before him, took his dick in hand
Gripping hard, she pulled it tightly
A peepshow for the Almighty
Bent over tree stump, bound and tied
Adam fucked Eve, came inside
While sat in the Heavens, pulling his knob
Sat the voyeur, you call God
As Eve fell pregnant, with seed of Man
Adam realized what God had planned
A C.S.A for his money hungry whores
With him, the fat banker, and pimp of course
So next time you're fucking
Just wonder who's looking
Is it a camera, or God
Would it put you off?
How can I know that you'll be there
With the venom and poison you speak?
When do I know you are truthful?
Confused with kaleidoscope lies
How can I trust you to be real
Not the oil painting fuck up I see?
When do I believe your promises?
Why should I believe your blood?
When you cut yourself to show me faith
But it flows with the colour of mud
How can I trust you to hold me
Not drop me like somebody's dream?
How do I know you're real
Not just a photograph I've seen?
Why should I believe you're a Lover
When you tell pornographic lies?
When you're really tortured
Should I believe the crocodile cries?
How can I trust you?
How will you make me see?
I'm just a man
A broken truth
Negative of reality
Answer me one question
How can I trust you
When the you is me?
Abrasive Lovers who rip the scars
Off the ancient and the broken
Gold plated phonies who watch the rope
The noose of friendship taut
Cadillac lackies and Mercedes mens
Selling false hope and dreams by the gallon
Pimple faced prostitutes sell their sex for a line
Whilst society screws for a dime
A trigger happy teen blames a fucked up dream
But still we perist and deny
A bored housewife, a Lover
Infect one another
Man was created to die
In the pig pen of hypocrisy
Machine made society
Our depraved individuality
God - Satan duality
Where Angels Fear to tread
I'm the phoney monkey
The improvisational imposter you love
I'm the left handed glove on the right hand
The vulture painted up as the dove
I'm artificial by necessity
Conformist for non-conformity
I'm as fake as can be
You don't know the real me
I'm the placebo pill you take
The sum of all you procreate
The gentle God with a violent mind
The valium addiction, to help you unwind
Artificial by necessity
Depend on no-one, depend on me
Armani swagger, with holes in my shoes
I am the artificial you
I'm a pseudo Please and Thanks
A narcissistic fancy pants
Don't care how I look, not much
With a twelve foot mirror in the back of the truck
Artificial by necessity
Metal smile, makes me so pretty
Hunchback Darling, stand up tall
We're artificial, after all
They wash their faces
In the blood of the Damned
To gorge on inspiration
They twist the words
To the religiously perverse
To offer their condemnation
They hide behind
A pack of lies
And a shield of fanatacism
To chain such as I
To make us servile
To beat with whips of criticism
They wash their hands
In the tears of the Lost
Then go and scream fervently on Sunday
Eat the body of the Host
Pray to the Ghost
Then go out and Sin on Monday
They don't understand
I don't believe in a Promised Land
Or a Garden Of Eden
Or Heaven
I believe I am here
To Live, fuck and die
Then be buried
The End
It's Final
They wash their feet
With the hearts of the Broken
Sometimes
I see my reflection
And want to kill myself
Sometimes
I see my messed up past
I don't want to be myself
Sometimes
I think of what could have been
If I hadn't lied
To know me
Was to know
That I'm forever
Me, Myself & I
You covered the bullets with rose petals
To beautify the pain
Mock Love interpretation
Ending with a shotgun blast heartbeat
In a game of Romance and Shame
A puppet in a sideshow
An or-castrated freak
Kissing rose covered bullets
To ease the pain
To end the chaste waste of me
Manipulate with expert touch
Fingers crawling on my flesh
Grab and rub
Sweet caress
Chewing on the barrel
To taste, to be free
The rose covered bulets
You promised me
The yellowing photograph of you
The torment that you put me through
Aching heart that beats so loud
The corpse of Romance in the ground
The dagger twists and leaves a mark
Incinerates with single spark
The callous glee with which you smiled
Returned me to my former child
My Dark Romantic
My heartache sleeps
With a dagger beneath the pillow
To kill the dreams
With a face I can't believe in
The bloodstained sheets
My cold fantastic
The epitaph of Love lays here
Moss covered tragedy
With a heartbeat so damn silent
Caressing, carelessing
The dagger beneath the pillow
I hold you
An embrace to vilify
To make you worthless
And cover your lips
With a kiss of cold resentment
To introduce you
To the dagger beneath the pillow
I lay down with you
My dagger beneath the pillow
Blade resentment
Get a handle on it
Making Love in the glare
The steel eyed stare
Of the dagger
Through candlelight and teardrops
I struggle to see
Helpless self sensation
Of controversy
Procreate a delusion for the public
To please
Up linger middle finger
To spin on and to stop
If I was born self righteous
I'd be lifted to the top
But created was
To be your whipping boy
So beat my ass with
Your verbal riding crop
An amplifying shadow
Of the things that are wrong
Mascara, nail polish,
And the attitude, all wrong
It doesn't take a phd
To make a gaddam cake
But gothic paranoia
Gives way to the 'Fakes'
Through red mist and mascara
I struggle to see
Helpless self sensation
Of hypocrisy
Prejudice
Controversy
Hatred
Bitterness
Resentment
Jealousy.....
Behind bloodshot eyes
I began to dream
Where laughter and voices
Were killed by the screams
Suspicion and the vulgar vocabulary
Of the accusatory
Evil, at home in the darkness
Of the sleeping mind
Unhearing the abuse of conversation
And the backstabbing words of defiance
In a pretty dream, where sanity seems lost
Strange as it may seem
My mentality locks me out
Chaining the horses of my thoughts
And opening the unstable door
Here layeth the truth of your lies
The personification of all you despise
The hellfire and brimstone
Cruci-fiction of Christ
The blood of the lamb,
Slaughter it twice
The death of the newborn,
Repent and desist
A rebirth of Darkness
In you, I exist
Father can I ask a question
Please don't answer with a lie
It's something that's bothered me all my life
Why was I born....To die?
I, Who was born of Shadow
To take shelter in the womb of your mind
Injecting your fears, with fingers glistening
Pouring panic into the heart of you
I, Who was born of Darkness
To manipulate and torment your Heart
Start it racing, then cease it
Crush in a fist of stone
I, Who was born of Disgust
A macabre reminder of Pain
A bloodshot past, a lifetime, to last
Destroyed, the preciousness of you
I, Who was born of Anger
Injecting rage into a placid world
Drinking the bucket of bitter remorse
While bludgeoning the pillar of society
I, Who was born for your Freedom
So you may Rest In Peace
You are just a replica
My prozac mosaic
You are just a replica
My morphine Demon Queen
You took me high, you dropped me hard
Shattered, tattered torso
You made me smile, you made me cry
You were happy when I felt awful
You are just a replica
My Fallatio fascination
You are just a replica
Cunnilingus orchestration
You made the bed, to lie in another
You wore the stained bedsheets
You gave me head while screwing another
Kick the battered heart that bleeds
You are just a replica
Femme Fatale, my addiction
You are just a replica
In a compromising position
I'm a Tornado of Anger
A Tsunami of Despair
A Landslide of just Loathing you
An Earthquake of ' Just Don't Care '
I'm a Lightning strike of Vengefulness
A Volcano of Fear
I'm a Blizzard of The Broken Souls
I'm the Aftershock of War
I'm a Hurricane of Hurting You
A High Speed Crash of Pain
I'm Myself and Other Natural Disasters
I am Death and I'm again
Hold my hand and fly with me
Beneath the effervescent moon
We'll kiss the stars, and dim their colour
Ware My Love, the morning cometh soon
We'll dance on clouds
And soar with bats
Under shroud of night
Where romance burns
Like the setting sun
Forever, I'll hold you tight
We'll rain down blood
And fill the skies
With a million lost souls
A twilight waltz
On broken dreams
With an audience of Ghosts
Take my Hand, My Precious Heart
Hold them close forever
Never let them go My Love
For if you do, they'll shatter
We'll merge in shadows
As dawn creeps
Escape the rising sun
And whence, today is over, Love
Forever, We shall run
Surrender to syringes
Bow before the bottle
Opiate infatuations
Can only lead to trouble
Take my pills and bottled dreams
Spill my dope and wake the fiend
Lock me away, from my narcotic prison
I won't hear my longing, I won't listen
I can't take the shadow I've become
I am not my Father's Son
I'm a slave to the Opiate King
I have to change everything
So throw the key, don't hear my cries
The pain that rips the man inside
I will be strong, I know I'll do it
This time, I'll break you, My habit.
What would you think if you didn't know me
If you hadn't had a glimpse into my mind
Is my work kinda sick? Am I tortured within?
Do the literary world, I defile?
What would you say If I told you
That this was my best, my work of art
Would you stop and shudder, murmer and mutter
You'd rather be reading cartoons
What would you think if you didn't know me
If my emotions had never been aired
If my religious belief, my anger and grief
Were still locked up and I wrote lies of Love
Would the streets have been safer?
Would the wars all just end?
Would the homeless all be homed
Would all broken hearts mend?
Would my lies be your haven?
My torment be your gain?
Would you accept me more readily
Or bind me with chains?
What would you think if you didn't know me?
Would you accept me
Or throw me aside
For whatever your faults I accept you
'Cos we are all the same inside
Plastic Gods and Paper Demons
Opitcal Delusions
Opium dreams on the seven seas
Inebriation liberation
Fatalistic fascination
With the 'AntiChrist'
A cartoon scripture
The Angel With The Scabbed Wings
Became The Man You Fear
Optical Delusions
Seeing facades through the rose coloured glasses of hypocrisy
Inebriation Liberation
Getting stoned
To free the mind
Believe in what you thought you saw
Don't believe in what you see
Optical Delusions
Set you free
In constant darkness, lies are told
From paper dreams, truth unfolds
Cotton candy clouds of pain
Rain down hate, and burn the brain
In burning light, the shadow dwells
Where God is great, the Devil sells
Angels queue for a line of speed
And copulate with demon seed
With a gentle caress, from clawed hand
Darkness dwells in the lightest man
Love is pain, but the heart wants more
We're sado-masochists, we are whores
I got invited to your bedroom today
Got left making love to a dream with your name
Double jointed love with just one way to go
Like a vampire I want to dine on your soul
I was discarded, left decaying and lame
Tongue twisting serenades to a picture frame
Infatuated by a torturous game
Taste the bitter kiss on my lips, call your name
As cold tears stream down and wash away hope
From a Loveless Nightmare, an erotic joke
Teasing heartbeat, lust and love
Stolen, by shadows, to become only ghosts
Leather on servants, and screams so familiar
Screams from bloodletting so beautiful, yet sinister
Brown paper packages and golden cock rings
Those are a few of my favorite things
Diamond dominatrix with fish nets and stilettos
Ruby dildo crammed tight up the asshole
Carnal desires of a masochist queen
She is just one of my favourtie things
Collars, and tight leather bonds all over
Experiencing pleasures no one can fathom
Raging erection, whip it, feel the sting
He is simply my favorite thing
When the blood runs
When the cum goes
When My heartbeat slows
I simply go back to my masochist dreams
And then masturbate.....so long
Prosthetic dreams
Patchwork screams
Driving past in
Lemon-seines
Darkened dirges
Love filled murders
Cardboard coffins in
Neon hearses
Phantasies
And memories
The total truth built on
Fallasies
Who's mistake am I anyway?
Who bears responsibility
Was it God in his infinite wisdom
That fucked up and created me
Or the fault of my folks
And their carnal needs
That bore the spawn...Me
Am I the fault of a full moon
Or an alcohol induced erection
Am I that bad, a nightmare creation
Or merely just walking the wrong direction
Who's mistake am I anyway?
Am I even alive?
A facade of your dreams
The torment of screams
A mistake that you rushed into making.
Pray unto the numbness
Scream against the pain
Tempted by the feeling
Cerebral Novocaine
Drink from the shattered chalice
The blood of a 'Martyred Son'
Whilst dwelling in the Darkness
Where Hell has become Home
Sacrifice a Vestal Virgin
Murder for your Sins
Rape the boy and kill the sheep
For your 'God' to be appeased
Call out in the darkness
Tear the fragile scars
Bleed upon the Holy Cloth
And claim a miracle
Taste the malnutrition
A virgin with S.T.D.'s
Read my life from a open book
And claim me Messiah
Give me light
I bring you dark
Bring the rain
I'll bring the spark
Call me your nightmare
I whisper your name
You bring the touch
I am the pain
Bring me Peace
I give you Hell
You bring religion
Your soul, I sell
You give me Hope
I take it all
I stand back
And watch you fall
You give me Love
Your heart I stole
You take my hand
I take your Soul
You promise Tomorrow
I'll take Today
You were the one
To scare the Demons away
You took a risk
I took it all
When I was defeated
You stood tall
You raised me up
With delicate Hands
You Gave me your heart
Made me a Man
I was the man who
Laughed when you cried
I was the dagger
You plunged deep inside
I am the baby
The abortion survived
I am the God
Bathe in tears you cried
Twisted and sinister
Deprived and depraved
The heroin heaven
That you craved
A flood of the bitter
The wine is the blood
The praying and pleading
Did you no good
I am the man that
You taunted and teased
The abomination that
Brings you to your knees
The silver tongued vampire
Bleeding you dry
A black nailed narcosis
The dope fiend, your high
I am the man who
Laughed when you cried
The baggie of realism
Inject me inside
I am the man who
Cannot be saved
I am the man
A man with no name
Magic marker uniforms to make us all the same
Identified, conceptualized by a number not a name
Through crystalise, we all are blind
What is lurking beneath you fear?
The fact that your God doesn't exist?
Or maybe the fact He's so near?
Magic Marker autographs, Sign on the dotted line
You can't be who you want to be, Individuality is a crime
An assembly line of Marker-Droids, there's one to take your place
It doesn't need to think like you, It only needs your face
Can you hear me, with deaf ears?
Can you taste me with a dead tongue?
Do you believe me, when I'm lying?
Inevitability has begun
Magic Marker Magicians, create a brand new breed
The screaming herds of useless words, it's time for a bullshit feed
The plastic politicians lie, tell us it's alright
Whilst Magic Markers draw the words, scribbling by candlelight
Here upon a story bored, I've read it all before
I've scribbled and scrawled, Screwed up and balled
I've thrown a world away
Magic Marker Uniforms, A red and black dichotomy
But now I'm fed up of this world
I should just press
Delete
At the moment of Death
I was calmest
All my fears disappeared
All my worries, discarded
I felt most alive
I became the strongest
Death, became a mere mortal before me
I stared into oblivion
I was Ruler, King
I was God
At the moment of Death
I was youthful
Full of lust and denial
Eagerly awaiting a star struck virgin
Ready to start living
Fighting
Rebelling
At the moment of Death
I was fragile
A tiny rose petal in a crushing hand
A china pot
Falling, to shatter
To be missed
To be no more
At the moment of Death
I was born
Let me hold it in my hands
Your blood soaked, beating heart
I want to hold it as life fades
I want to know how death tastes
You stare at me with fading eyes
Uncomprehending, never understanding
Your mouth works in voiceless whispers
As I place my hand over your mouth
Watching life die, arousing me
Maniacal, my emotions
Kiss the blood stained lips of you
Taste the kiss of death
Bite the quivering mass of heart
Blood drips down my chin
Ambrosia, food of the Gods
Who knew Death tasted so good
Maggot infestation,
Add flavour to the brain
Keep the eyes, door to the soul
Jelly, melting on the flame
Pull my trusty razor
As it catches under your flesh
Filleting and skinning
Glee in bloody mess
Peeling back the dermis
See tissue and muscle, Oh God
Erotic necrophiliac fantasies
Of phallic memories
Smell the sweet essence
Burning flesh, barbecue
Invite you all to dinner
Main course....You!
As I hold your severed hand
I'm filled with remorse
Twas not so long ago, we were friends
No wait...Now it's gone.
Of stolen life and Loveless heart
Born under a full moon, was I
Silver, flashing off her hair
Mesmerizing, was her stare
Captivating, her mystique
Around my body, her hands did creep
Gentle, was the touch of her
Intoxicated by her stare
Such beauty in a beast of dark
In she reached and grabbed my heart
Pale as moonlight, beauty from a crypt
Hypnotised by her eyes, inhibitions, stripped
wandering hands, all over her curves
"Take me there, to dead Loves world"
Orgasm, created by fang filled bite
Away we vanished, into shadowy night
On Lovers and Haters, feasted we
Singing to the bloodcurdling screams
Alas, the night was too dark for her eyes
Renouncing immortality, she watched the sunrise
Tears and ashes, christening a new day
Whilst tears stained the pillow, where my head lay
Alas, and so my story's told
Young I'll stay, as you grow old
Immortality has a high price, to pay
Maybe I'll join my Love, someday
As I layeth in slumber deep
In midst of rainstorm foul
Hearing floorboards echoing creak
Setteth mine heart racing wild
Twas lightning flashed before mine eyes
Hideous images did reveal
Shadows cometh to life, breath'd did
With claws of sharpen'd steel
Panic festered in mine mind
Hallucinations were forthcoming
Bitter drops of salty sweat
Upon my fevered brow
Negatives were etched, upon mine eyes
By the blinding of the flash
I creep'd towards the bedroom door
Goosebump covered flesh
Shivering, fearful and petrified
To the top of the stairs went I
Masculine voice, I managed to muster
"Who art there? Identify!"
Silence answered, ne'er a sound
As down the stairs crept I
A sudden fleeting shadow passed
Bewildering mine fear filled eyes
Scared was I, but Bravado ruled
Inched me down the stairs
Towards the dark that drew me in
To my future, that dwelleth there
There she stood, in swirling dark
A mist of souls around her
She open'd her arms to welcome me
The fairytale was over
Two hundred years, in peace I'd lived
Escaping Death, my pact with the Devil
Here was she, to claim my soul
Make sure I'd never see Heaven
To her, went I, My Queen Of Dark
I begg'd and pleaded for Mercy
She smiled at me, compassionlessly
And stole my dignity
Satan's Bride, as she was known
Keeper of the Damned
Glared at this blubbering mass of man
As her cold flesh crushed my hand
Claustrophobic breath, filleth mine lungs
As I splutter'd and choked, I wheezed
Before her, I broke down and cried
Crumbled to my knees
Snarled at me, is what she did
Dragged me by mine hair
I couldn't stand to look at her
Raped, by the callousness of her stare
Swallowed, by the ground were we
Hell enclosed in ghastly glare
Soul swamped rivers of blood ran by
Twas the Devil's lair
Stood before me, looming large
The scarlet, fallen Angel
Rubbed his hands in macabre glee
Another victim...taken
He wined me, dined me, fed me whores
Weakening me for the kill
And when, was I, inebriated
The Bastard took his fill
A life of ever more purgatory
My Loved Ones ne'er to see
Would I do it again, for centuries twice lived?
Whilst mine family ceased to be?
The lightning flashed, thunder crashed
The window shatter'd, loud
Startling me, to wakened state
In the dark, I cowered......
Steel against steel as I sharpen the blades
You done this yourself, there's no-one to blame
Fillet Human, with chardonnay
Tell me Motherfucker, is there any other way?
Score the surface, drain the blood
Give to my Darling, the betrayed by you
Scream all you want to, next is your tongue
After kebab skewers have pierced your lungs
I want to see you suffer, I want to see your pain
What you don't like this? I thought you liked playing games?
But in this one you're the victim, in this you are my pawn
Tell me are you sorry, you were ever fucking born?
Slowly carve a shoulder, tear the muscle deep
Serpentine addiction, feel the blade creep
Terror in your eyes, whispers you're in fear
Flinch, shake, shit and quake, whenever I am near
Y-cut in the torso, bloody scream call out
Raging fist to break the ribs and rip a cold heart out
Limp, your head rolls lifeless, so out must come the eyes
A gentle scoop, with eyes cream...Mmmmm, they taste nice
Razor sharp, my knife gleams, makes short work of skin
Exposing muscle and tendons coiled, a well oiled machine
Dry the skin for later, I may need a new jacket
Abdominal wall, intestinal coil, in one muscular packet
Severing all known ligaments, releasing the fluid within
I wonder if you thought about this, when you were fucking with friends?
My reputation as a No-Nonsense bastard, preceeded me by many a mile
I wish you had the eyes to see me, with my blood stained, cannibal smile
Slowly carving your torso, watching the blood spurt out
A shower, scarlet ejaculation, from the depths of your dirty black soul
But now you are dead, all the fun's gone, screams no longer resound
So that lifeless, lying head you thought gorgeous, I kick across the ground
A masochists mess, you lay rotting, a red pile of shit on the floor
Whilst me and My Darling drink your blood, and fuck like a couple of whores
Twas pleasure destroying the bullshit, the hate and the pain that you caused
Remember, you're fucking with evil, don't believe me, just look at your scars!
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