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So many thoughts going threw my mind. I'm getting a headache just thinking about what could be going on right now. How can I relax when I have some many different things going threw my head. I know I'm beautiful and everything so I should be a lot more happy to be away from my home. When we are apart my mind runs all my fears threw my mind. Trying to keep good thoughts in mind are harder then they seem. I sometimes get to the point that I burst in to tears because I think to much. Maybe I'm needy and wish I could know what your doing without seeming that way. I keep telling myself forget about it and pick it back up when you get home but I cant seem to do that. I don't want to bother you cuz then u assume that I'm accusing you of something. So I don't know what to do anymore and I think that maybe death would be the answer... But then I realize that isn't the answer either. Why can't I figure this out and just not stress about anything. Maybe someday I will get this figured out or go insane trying.

I'm on a vacation hanging out with family and I all I can think of is u. I can't understand why I can't get you off my mind no matter how much I try. I want to have fun and everything but I get a feeling in my stomach and it hurt really hurts. I know there is no one in the world I would rather be with but I'm not sure you feel the same. I try and try to get your interest back in me but it seems you are further and further away from me. Maybe I'm a fool to believe that you can love me as much as I love you.....I know we are going threw a lot right now but it is hopefully for the better. Do you ever miss me?