The wick was lit
But burned to bright
The flame was snuffed
But came back with might
It grew too large
And burned too blistering
The candle became a puddle
She was burned and her lonely cries rang
She knew to be cautious
But followed her hearts open whim
The flame was set ablaze
And her only thought was of him
I wish i could give you a piece of my heart
Inside my world you could see a part
Of the dreams, ideas, and things ill never say
But you can see my mind at play
The vast dream boats that sail on oceans of hope
With sparkles of doubt on the wood as a painted coat
Colorful and pretty idea kites that soar in my skies
That are tied down to rocks of the wise
But in the farthest part of my galaxy
You will find a sad place to see
It is my heart in a dusty dark spot
It sits on floorboard filled with rot
Cobwebs trickle down and encase it whole
It has never found love with another soul
But if i had a wish to give to you
I would want you to know everything even things that make me blue
But even i know that every wish
Is just that, a wish
Yes my darling
I will stay
I will hold your hand
Though i pray
That you never know
This suffering i keep
Pressed down deep into my soul
Sometimes into my mind it creeps
But darling i cannot promise
That i can stay
The emptiness consumes my being
This feeling i cannot slay
But i hold your love
In this hand of mine
My sweet
I will stay for a time
A heart so tender
Is so quick to surrender
Its every pulsing beat
To the one who is too sweet
So quick to live for another
So quick to suffer
So easily betrayed
Is the heart that prayed
For a kiss
A moment bliss
So quick to break
So quick to ache
The heart never learned
Even when spurned
Its felt this sting before
But never took the knowledge to its core
So quick to try
So quick to die
The burn is so painful
When you look away
Look at her in the way that i want
I feel it deep in my chest
My lungs and my heart
Aflame and i cant take the hurt
Suffocating and you look away
When your eyes turn to me i see nothing
And the flames climb higher
I taste the cinders and choke
Smoldering and dying every time you look at her
I crumble to the floor
My ashes float over the boards
I am no more because of you
My faces spin
One settles in
Not kind or happy
Not angry or mopey
Betrayer is written on my cheek
So dangerous this face because its meek
A viper in the grass
A shadow behind glass
This face of mine is aloof
It comes and goes like poof
Its here and then its gone
Its makes life all wrong
Of all the faces i possess
This one causes me stress
I am not this face
Its has put someone in my place
A person who is cruel and doesnt care
A person who is rude and doesnt share
All my life ive lived to be good
I help people and never brood
But this face has taken me
And made me see
We are all capable of being terrible
Even to those most cherishable
My heart hurts and my stomach is sick
I think id rather take a kick
I am so guilty
I feel so damn filthy
I cant cure the hurt ive caused
I wish i could put my life on pause
This is too much and ive had enough
This face has made life too rough
And i call it quits
Ive never felt so alone in an overflowing room
I suck my cigarette and inhale the fumes
My face has never been such a sorry blue
And I'm sorry to tell you that I need you
People mill about and yell
I sit inside my private hell
I flick the butt and light up another one to fell
I look at those who ignore me in my clear shell
They jump out of my winding smoke
The avoidance makes me choke
I wish someone would give me a poke
A small gesture to let me know that I'm not broke
But the one person I want
Walks past so nonchalant
Please look into my face that is so gaunt
Please just tell me why you taunt
Just shout and kick me
Do what you please
But just look at me
I'll do what you want I'll beg and plead
I just want my friend back
I'll do whatever you ask
Just stop my heart's cracks
Or you can let my world turn black
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