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I'd rather be in the ground than to keep hearing your voice in the back of my head. I fucking hate you.

Finding the truth from the one's I never cared for really stung more than anything. I trusted in you and only in you. What for? Looking back, it was the dumbest mistake I probably could have ever made. I fell into you. I fell into that sweet temptation and you loved me so well. Is that the most important part? Is that what should matter in the end? It didn't surprise me to be honest... to find out what I did about you. I guess deep down, I always knew. Maybe that's why when you left, I didn't feel so wronged at first. I just felt empty. I was kind of expecting it all along. You've done it once, why wouldn't you leave me in the dark again. Your immaturity stands out more now. You fool. And I'm a fool for letting you make a fool out of me. How clever. The pain is still here. But I feel like after I cried my eyes out last night. I'm going numb.. Nothing seems right. Everything still seems wrong. I'm in this endless spiral that I can't pull my way out of. And where are you? No where... yet everywhere. How fucked up is that.

I hate that I'm still silently waiting for you to come back...

I know you're not. And I never complain out loud. Never saying what the hell I truly want to. But I'm so mad at you. I wish I could hate you. Maybe if I hated you, this wouldn't hurt so bad. You said you'd Always be there. Where the fuck are you now? You didn't even say goodbye. The last night I spent with you was the best memory I'll ever have of you and you're gone... Why..

I would do anything to have you come back home. Because when you're unreachable, I'm breaking apart. I'm growing cold and more and more miserable each day that you're not here. It's hard to believe in anythin when the one thing you believed in the most gets ripped from you. I'm not complete Anymore. You stole apart of me and it's not fair. I want it back. I want to not feel this way because nothing seems right and everything is wrong. I don't have the energy to get out of bed.. To see the sun.. To feel... anything

I just want you to come back. I'm going to yell, scream, cry and break in front of you and you're going to accept it and take it all in. And you'll never leave again.

.... But that'll never happen. Because you're not coming back..

And I'm stuck like this, for God knows how long.

Lonely and out of place. Turning cold. And every nights a struggle to get through because you're all I see for hours..

There are days I spend engulfed in your sun

And nights I dream of your sweet embrace

Oh to remember it's just a dream

Forever so far away

I stay hidden from the world

And I wear a brave face

It keeps the awkward stares away

No one has to ask "are you alright"

Every single time

I was haunted by the ghost of you.

What am I saying?

Every day... I see you

I hear you call to me in the night

It hurts like hell

When I wakeup and you're still not there