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Last night I had the unfortunate expierience to be on scene for a fatal motorcycle vs. car accident. Now being an EMT, the scene itself didn't bother me, but I did have sort of a creepy encounter while there. I was helping get equiptment for my co-workers (stretcher, collar, back board, CIDs, etc for those in the EMS know) and I happend to observe the small crowd that had gathered. There was the driver and passenger of the car, and a young man, around maybe 20 years old, standing near the vehicle. He was standing in between the driver and his wife. He was wearing a long black coat, sort of like a pea-coat but longer. His hair, medium lenght, brown and curly, was tucked underneath a hat that I had never seen before so I cant even say what kind it was. He had on long black pants and boots. His skin was pale, but not sickly pale...he was very handsome. His eyes were dark, and had a look of sorrow in them, but his face was calm; almost serene. I watched him briefly, but I had to return to my work to help care for the fatally injured man. When I was allowed to clear the area, I didnt see the young man around. I saw the driver of the car and, thinking the boy was his son, I asked where he had gone to, but the man told me he didnt have a son....no one saw the kid in question anywhere around the scene. Not my fellow EMTs, not the paramedics, not the cops or bystanders. Did I imagine him or was the field so busy that no one noticed him? Is it too far fetched to think that this was a manifestation of the Angel of Death himself? I believe that only those who care to grasp the very notion of such are shown the revelation. I'm not sure what I saw...he may have just been a passer-by who just as quickly stepped into the shadows of the on coming night, and was never regarded by anyone but me. Who knows?

I feel like I'm losing my way on my Path. I'm used to being alone, and I do have a few friends that I can talk to about my faith, but no one that really understands me. And I'm so tired of it being that way. I've no passion for ritual anymore, no motivation, even tho when I get started I find that Im just as into my magick as ever. I guess I'm just confused as to what im supposed to be doing. I know that the Path isint so much about the destination but about the trip, but where am I going? What am i doing? *sighs*



sorry to be complaning, again.

How unfortunate that I didn't write this! lol.





Maybe . . we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.



Maybe . . when the door of happiness closes, another opens; but, often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don't even see the new one which has been opened for us.



Maybe . . it is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.



Maybe . . the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.



Maybe . . the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; after all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures, and heartaches.



Maybe . . you should dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of, and want to do.



Maybe . . there are moments in life when you miss someone -- a parent, a spouse, a friend, a child, your girlfriend/boyfriend -- -- so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more.



Maybe . . the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.



Maybe . . you should always try to put yourself in others' shoes. If you feel that something could hurt you, it probably will hurt the other person,too.



Maybe . . you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them alone.



Maybe . . giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart; but if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.



Maybe . . happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.



Maybe . . you shouldn't go for looks; they can deceive; don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one who makes your heart smile.



Maybe . . you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy.



Maybe . . you should try to live your life to the fullest because when you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling, but when you die, you can be the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.



Maybe . . you could send this message to those people who mean something to you, to those who have touched your life, to those who can and do make you smile when you really need it, to those who make you see the brighter side of things when you are really down, and to all those whom you want to know that you appreciate them and their friendship.