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Ponderance.
23:08 Mar 24 2008
Times Read: 647

*sighs*



Okay.



I'm wondering when exactly I'm going to realize that I cannot "Save The World." I try, in my life, in my job, every day, to make a difference in peoples lives, and most of the time, I get my reward in the form of a huge, steaming pile. And I'm used to it, mostly. I never expect 'thank yous' or even..well..anything except for a signature on a paper when I'm working.



Im frustrated with everything and with most people. Im aggrivated with the fact that I feel like an ineffective peice in a puzzle called "Guardians of Darkness." I love my Coven. I love being there, I love the people in there, I love the fun and drama-free environmnet. But how much of a "Guardian" am I? I'm mostly part of the "Darkness." I try to help but what do I do but most times make things worse. Well, I just thats what they mean by "no good deed goes unpunished."



I've tried. I keep trying. I'm accomplished nothing but alienating myself from those I care for, and from those who want to be friendly to me. I avoid people because of mistrust, and because I'm afraid to be taken advantage of. I'm tired of being ridiculed for who I am, and for what I believe in. I AM ME. And like I put in my profile, I've ALWAYS been different. And for the most part? I love my uniquiness. I like being random and off the wall at times. But not at the cost of my family or my sanity.



And so I say, my VR time is numbered. I feel in ways that I've served my purpose here, a website where like-minded individuals can come together to help build a database for a portion of the occult. I also feel that I have a lot to do here, to accomplish before I DO leave. And I may never leave. I may stay into my Cronage at level 21 and be happy with it. But there is always a chance that I may leave and never look back. And I apologize for the way I sound, like an emo kid crying for attention (no offence to the Emo Kids and the Scene) but this is how I feel...



Unloveable.

Untrusting.

Untrustable.

Unreliable.

*giggle*
18:45 Mar 20 2008
Times Read: 660

From:



CANNIBALCROW



14:43:23

Mar 20 2008



ANYTIME,,,

OF DOOM ! ! !



On 13:43:05 Mar 20 2008 (-6 GMT) CelestiaNocturne wrote:



Hi and thank you for the bite.



On 13:33:42 Mar 20 2008 (-6 GMT) CANNIBALCROW wrote:





You've been bitten by CANNIBALCROW!

Feeling phylisophical....
01:46 Mar 16 2008
Times Read: 669

Why is it that the people who say that they love you the most, hurt you the worst?

A comment left for me :)
15:58 Mar 15 2008
Times Read: 675








UpirLikhyj

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I got this this morning after a night of soul searching and dreamless sleep. Something that I needed to hear, even from a stranger!





Date: 11:43:35 - Mar 15 2008

Rating: 10

Comment: The Path is truly not about the destination, in part because none of us knows what the destination is or ought to be. However if we truly seek Light and Truth, we are on the right Path and the Destination at which we finally arrive will be in fulfilment of all our many potentials. As the old saying so eloquently puts it: Not all who wander are lost. I loved your profile and the spirit of the one who created it... 10

Virgo horoscope-Feb. 29, 2008
04:05 Mar 01 2008
Times Read: 643

Virgo August 23 - September 22

Still holding on to hurt feelings from your past? Today's the day to move past them.





Wow. Yeah. It's probably time then, if the Fates are putting it in print...