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(written) 1/09/04

Tears fall from her eyes

The blade slides down her wrist

It does not hurt

Feel no pain

Just the tears sliding down her face

thought She was loved

Now, just feel like a disgrace

Wanting to die

Screw this life

And say “Good-Bye”

wanting to know love

Not anymore pain

But know nothing

Than what is written above

Love, I know not

Pain, I know very well

See what is in my eyes

Pain is, can you not tell?

To many tears I have cried

Too much pain, I still feel

I felt I had a real family

And what I thought were true friends

Losing my family

I swore I’d fight until it ends

Having them back

It feels all right

The fight I fought

Was blown out the way

To fight for them all

When they all turned on me

I still love them all

Thought they still loved me

But I do not know

Why fight for them all?

Why not let them go?

Because my love for them

Is forever true

And always will be

No matter what they put me through

What to do?

How to handle when they turn on you?

Will fighting for them and not giving in,

Will that help me get through?

Knowing that you tried

That is all good

But the tears that were cried

Wish you never would

Because so many tears

Could not eat or sleep

When your heart is pierced

Trying to move on

Trying to be strong

I know it is not easy

When your loved ones are gone

The blood seeps out

Want the emotional pain to end

All blood runs about

It’s all good, it’s all okay

Because you can make it through

You usually do anyway

Drop the razor, or other sharp blade

As the pain inside again fades

You clean up and go to sleep

But the pain comes back

Cut again on a new day

What the hell?

Is your life cursed?

Is your pain by a spell?

Just want to die

Just want life to fade

Can you not tell why?

Good-bye to my family and friends

This is how to stop the pain

This is how my life ends.

Good bye to you

Good bye to this love

Hello to my Lord Jesus

Hello to beautiful things above

Good bye to foolish pain

Good bye to worldly suffering

Hello to happiness and peace

Hello to my Father God again

Only He puts your pain at ease

Only He makes you happy

Turn from your wicked ways

Look in a different direction

Look at happier days

You can hide things

From only those around

But not from our God

Who watches from above the ground

For our God, He sees all

Nothing misses His eyes

He sees us in pain

And waits for us to call

Jesus wants us all to know

Jesus wants us all to see

That He died for everyone

He even died for you and me.

It’s in the Lord

And in the water

That opens the heart

And clears the mind

Takes away the pain

By closing the blinds

Lord, You are there

You know I am scared

Feeling sad and alone

With no where to turn

But I’m not on my own

I have so much to learn

I know You can heal me

But I’m to far from Thee

Going the easy way

Which is the wrong path

I’m looking all around lost

Trying to calm down and relax

Did I know all along,

I was far from Your hand?

I am not sure now

But I have disobeyed your commands

Lead me home, now

Lead me home, again

Keep me there somehow

I never again want to stray

Time to follow my Lord

Only He knows the way.

Do not trust anyone

Not your family or your friends

Those that seem closest to you

Will turn on you in the end

Don’t trust strangers or your best friend

You can’t even trust your parents

Who won’t hesitate to turn you in

My stepfather abandoned my family

He left us all

My two sisters and my mom

For two months, he didn’t call

A few years go by, before he drops a bomb

He was engaged, I was so mad

I remember starting to cry

I just felt hatred and betrayed

Just want to know why

Why he hurt us all

Today, it still makes me cry

But now I’m sixteen and moving on

One day, I will say “Good-Bye”

Good-Bye to my past

Good-Bye to life here

I won’t allow the pain to last

I will move on and let it all go

It all takes time and will go by slow

I will make it through, I can do it, I know

Everyone will be able to see

How I change when I grow up

When I grow up to be somebody

I will show them all what I can do

And what I can be by being me.

Family, friends, love, life

Family may hate you

Friends will betray you

Love can come chilling

But ends up killing

Life isn’t so thrilling

All parts of life

All may seem nice

All will stab you

With the sharpest knife

All you’ll go through

All won’t like you

And all play hard

So you just remember

You’re choosing your card

Just be very careful

Promise to be careful

With what you choose

Can’t always be strong

Won’t always go wrong

Pain doesn’t always last

But can be difficult

Looking into your past

Think hard before choosing

Just thinking once more

Could perhaps save you

From danger in store

Remember to look out

Before opening any door

Family may hate you

Friends will betray you

Love can come chilling

But ends up killing

Life isn’t so thrilling.

To Sean (This is on you)

If you look, would you care?

If you stared, will I be there?

Before you reach out

Before you try

I’ve got two words for you

“Good-Bye”

Good bye to you

Good bye to your pain

Because I died

While living yet again

You said you loved me

You said you would care

I turn around

You are the one not there

I feel the wind

Cold and hard in my face

I feel my own tears

I feel like a disgrace

I sunk so low

With not much love to go

I could not move on

For the fact

I swore all hope was gone

I refuse to live

I refuse to die

I refuse to breathe

He’s the reason why

Why suicide is sweet

Why blood is so beautiful

To you and to me

Why pain is high

Men are always the reason why.



Written by a long lost friend,

Taralin Dickerman

You go out of your way

For every one else around you

And when another gets praised

You stand down like a man has too

I love you for so many reasons

And in a fatherly way

But I believe you deserve honor sometimes

On a piece of paper or trophy

Something that sticks and stays

You do what you do

Not for money or gratitude

But because of your conscience

And because of your open heart

God’s praise is in heaven

That praise could be near

Or could be very far a part

So for now I thought you should know

We all love you

You are a great man

And we are giving you honor and praise

Your family here, we all applause

We all smile and stand

Because we were all blessed

With such a wonderful Godly man

You have touched many lives

Opened so many hearts

I think you deserve this blessing

With growing children and a loving wife

Working four jobs, raising a family, and paying bills

You still manage to sleep at night

Smile in the morning

And put a huge light in others lives

Look at the faces you see everyday

Everything you do for us or around us

Sheds a great Godly light.









To My Best Friend's Pop

David Dresser

Another angel in the sky

A child, only seven

His parents had to say “good-bye”

Mourn as he goes to heaven

His pictures are everywhere

He is missed everyday

His memories are still there

In our hearts and minds, all the way

It is impossible to forget

Not letting go all these years

We have not let go yet

There is still lots of pain and tears

You are in our minds all the time

We believe you hear our prayers

To Joshua, a little boy

Our angel in the sky

This is your loved ones

That miss you and did not see you

In your coffin as you lie

But one day, we will meet again

Until then, we all still cry

We know you smile upon us here

Maybe you can help us smile

Maybe the day we meet again is near.





Dedicated In Beloved Memory of

Joshua Michael Morris

December 12, 1986- June 12, 1994

Waiting for October

To come home to me

Praying for him day and night

Here at home

He has a family

My soldier is in war

Fighting for his life

And for his country

Waiting for a letter

Or for a phone call

To know he is well

And not in danger at all

So many soldiers away

Families missing them everyday

Cry for their lives to make it through

Being a soldier is not all they do

Some are fathers, husbands, and sons

Those soldiers left behind

We will never forget you

See you in October

The last words he said

My soldier said “good-bye”

Then the phone line went dead

See you in October

Baby I’m waiting on you

You are a grown a man, an Army soldier

This you can make it through

Waiting for October

Waiting for you

Waiting for my soldier

This you can make it through

Waiting for October

I love you, too

See you in October.

A crazy old man

No brains, but a big heart

He has a few demands

But we will never be far a part

He is a brother, an uncle, and a dad

He can funny and he can be mean

But things never get that bad

But inside he means so much more

Our emotions are hidden

But you must look deep in to our core

I love you more than many

It’s ok that we fight

Fighting makes us stronger

If anyone one else hurt you

He would be killed that night

You can b stubborn, you are old

We are both Bakers’ by blood

All Bakers’ are stubborn I am old

To explain you to others

To explain my love for you

A man is my life

Who loves me a lot too

He makes me laugh and cry

Even though I am growing up

He is always close by

He has no teeth

He is quiet wide

But full of life

Full of tales, laughs, and cries

I will love him forever

Even when he becomes one

Of those crazy angels in the sky

The width if his belly

Is the width of his heart

I will love him forever

We will never be far apart

He will live to be one hundred

That is what I say

The most important man in my life

That man is my Uncle Ray.

Have you ever seen what these people do?

Risking their own lives

To save people like me and you

Putting on masks, hats, and heavy coats

Running through huge fires

Running through thick clouds of smoke

Firefighters, these brave people die everyday

Maybe not in your home town

But all across the country

In the most horrible ways

The ones we wave to on trucks all the time

Might a few hours later

Be saying good bye

Giving up their families

That is one big job, you see

Leaving their loved ones behind

To save a stranger, the next somebody

Give firefighters lots of praise

These soldiers dying for others

Here in the USA

Going out for one shift

Children and spouses must pray

Firefighters we wave to all the time

One day the life they are saving

Could be your life or mine.



To those who read this should know my Uncle encouraged me to write this poem. Every word came from my heart to those brave enough to live through and die through fire.

You will not believe

Where I went

And what I did today

I went to Easton’s Beach

I went to talk to God

Walked through the sand to pray

Tears came to my eyes

Memories of the past

The good times of laughter

That now causes me to cry

I asked God

For one whole shell

To say you were coming home

Safe, alive, and well

What I found

Was a hundred whole

I picked up eight

Of those closest around

I took off my socks and shoes

Rolled up my pants

Went in to the water

Rinsed off the shells

The waves took away my blues

I thought for awhile

What the answer could mean

I realized how many others

Were wanted home too

Each shell was a soldier

Broken or whole

Many would live

Many would die

War is very cold

Only God decides

Who comes back

Who goes to Heaven

Who goes home

No one here on Earth

Gets that gift

Or curse to know

We all must pray

For each soldier, every day

Families will cry

Friends must say “good-bye”

When a soldier

Meets his or her end

Son or daughter

Husband or wife

Soldiers fighting for our freedom

Dying to protect our lives

I thought of only Ivan and you

Not realizing all soldiers

All there are wanted home too

The only thing I can do

Is pray for each one

Even though I want you.



This is dedicated to two soldiers that are dear friends of mine.