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Halloween Costume
14:08 Oct 31 2010
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So Since I can't go as my gothic fairy to work im rocking this







Female version of a manager complete with tie!!



yes girls we can rock ties just as much as men!

Halloween
13:29 Oct 31 2010
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Happy Scaretastic Halloween!!!

New Ink
18:49 Oct 28 2010
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Here it is.....fresh out of the shop.......

Quote
03:50 Oct 28 2010
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"How You Turned My World You Precious Thing?? You Starving Near Exhaust Me....Everything I've Done.. I've Done For You! I Move The Stars For No One..You've Run So Long...You've Run So Far....Your Eyes Can Be So Cruel! Just As I Can Be So Cruel..Oh I Do Believe In You!!! Yes I Do....Live Without Your Sunlight..Love Without Your Heartbeat..I...I Can't Live Within You"-David Bowie

Get off my ass!!
04:38 Oct 27 2010
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I really should get off my ass and go do the massive pile of dishes in the sink......(Yes I'm old school and wash dishes by hand)



BUT I REALLY DON'T WANNA!!!

05:13 Oct 26 2010
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I don't know what the fuck your deal is...but i'm really NOT ONE TO BE IGNORED!!!



if you are dealing with something fucking come talk to me about it.........that's what I'm here for.......



If you are testing me......then I guess i'm failing horridly.........



When you want to talk......come find me......you know how to get ahold of me

Coffee gods
17:38 Oct 25 2010
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Ahh thank the gods of Coffee that there was enough to make one pot before I must deal with the troll at work........



THANK YOU COFFEE GODS!

Random Thought
14:02 Oct 25 2010
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I love Scottish and Irish Men........



That is all

Candlelight
05:22 Oct 25 2010
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It always relaxes me just like being outdoors in the woods........ALWAYS relaxing



So here I sit typing with my smelly candles lit and thinking of the good times and feeling completely relaxed..........



Of course it also may be the sleeping pills kicking in too......but who knows???



I feel at peace with certain aspects of my life......



I know my emotions are going total whacko as of late.......but stress and things make Claudia go crazy......

A Re-Entry of a previous post......Just a little re-interiated
05:38 Oct 23 2010
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Alright if anyone has a damn problem with me??? Besides the few I already know of that do......Fucking state it to my damn face!



Drama doesn't work in my book and since all of you decide you want to be babies and talk like high school cheerleaders......you will be treated as such









I'm sick and tired of hearing people's hear say...



More than Half of VR are GROWN ADULTS



I was always raised to be Blunt honest with people and not beat around the bush..............why do you think I earned the Title of Head Bitch in my close circle of friends....



I hate pansy ass people who Bully.......you are the main reason why children are as fucked up as they are........and KILLING THEMSELVES



Grow the fuck up and become adults...



I'm not one to be dragged into shit but if I see people that I call friends ganged up on.....I WILL BECOME A PART OF IT......and you WILL NOT LIKE WHAT I HAVE TO SAY

Meh
15:45 Oct 22 2010
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Today is another Long drawn out day of work......and going to see a friend!! WOOHOO!

*Stands On Soap Box* (Not Directed At Anyone On VR....Just Venting)
03:32 Oct 22 2010
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My personal disclaimer:This Is Not About Anyone On VR AT ALL......This is about my Ex who has decided to piss me off and hurt my feelings when I ended it on good terms with him and now shit has hit the fan





You say that I said some hurtful things to you? I have a fucking right to when you HURT MY FEELINGS!!



Well what about the promise you made if shit went south? (Which It Hasn't)



But you don't want to risk my FUCKING FEELINGS.....



Got news for ya....I have control over MY FEELINGS....YOU DON"T HAVE TO DEAL WITH THEM......They are MY PERSONAL STRUGGLES.....Just cause I date you for 3 Months and I wanted something Mono and you have your chicks who you fuck regularly.......but you say you don't have time for me......yet you can go to play parties and other things.....but yet when you PROMISE ME SOMETHING and You take it back......You don't expect me to be hurt????



And then you act weird......WHICH PISSES ME OFF MORE!!!



I didn't mean in any aspect to be rude to you this evening but with the whole OH IM GETTING KICKED OUT OF MY FUCKING HOUSE!!! do you not expect me to be pissed and hurt?? and It wasn't my intention to take it out on you by any means........

I Mean Seriously?
01:37 Oct 20 2010
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*Stands On Soap Box*



Do some of you not understand?? I'm not one to be ignored or fucked with???





You say you are going to call me....unless you are in a car accident, Bleeding Profusiouly or EXTREMELY BUSY (Examples Of This Are Dead......Dealing with a child or are a high value member of a company!)



Ya better fucking call my ass.....or at least call or text or leave a damn message



(Not directed at anyone in particular)

06:17 Oct 19 2010
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Certain people know how I can be at times.....I flip flop from moods CONSTANTLY!!



It doesn't take a lot to piss me off!!



I'm in a state that I brought upon on myself and it has made me think of what an Idiot I was!



But also people should realize I'm not one to cower down to ANYONE just cause of words that are typed to me or about me



I'm in a place where no-ones shit should faze me....I'm finally sticking up for myself when it comes to people Bullying me....



You are all entitled to your own fucking opinion about everything........but be forwarned RIGHT THE FUCK NOW



I will call ANYONE out in this journal.......For Being RUDE ......and I will also apologize to people who I've done wrong too.......and have hurt in some way shape or FORM........Cause that's how people in society should be......



Yes I am a Bitch and fucking PROUD OF IT@!!!!!

Sleep
16:57 Oct 16 2010
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My Mind Is In A Terror Free For All.....A Verbal Slap In The Face From A Good Friend Sent Me Into A Whirlwind Of Self Realizations And Have Been Inputed Into My Dream State



I Have Been Dreaming Of Dark And Violent Things....(Too The Point Of A Mark On My Wrist That Is Pretty Ugly) Just To Try And Wake Myself Up...Which I Did At 2:30 This Morning. (And I Went To Bed At 1:30)



Lets Hope I Can Nap Today

Now who else thinks this is wrong
16:12 Oct 15 2010
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The nerd and I ended it for 2 reasons......and I will explain these reasons.....and my rant about how I think this shit is totally WRONG



Edit: My involvement with the nerd was he played with me and me only ALONE



1. The Nerd is poly



Now I find nothing wrong with poly people.....I know quite a few poly people and I know that it works for them.....I tried it but found that my need for someone solely to love me is what I want (and now i've found it)



2.Events that totally gross me out and I think are extremely WRONG



Lemme first name all the players



The Nerd-My Ex

Wife-The Nerds Wife

Girlfriend A-Lives With The Nerd And His Wife

Girlfriend B-Lives In Another State

Husband-Husband Of Girlfriend B





Now The The Nerd,Wife And Girlfriend B all play together



Girlfriend A plays with Girlfriend B And Husband...Girlfriend A Dominates Girlfriend B with the help of Husband and Girlfriend A submits to Husband



The Nerd Plays with each of the women alone and sometimes plays with all 3 at the same time



Now my problem is the following.....



Girlfriend B has 2 children (same age as I am and both kids are under 5) and about a month ago The nerd, wife and girlfriend A to see Girlfriend B and Husband (while the children were in the house)



Now all 5 partners were all lovey dovey (not in a sexual way) to each other and what not INFRONT OF THE CHILDREN (from what ive heard from the nerd himself).....Now in my eyes (and being a mom of a child who likes to TALK CONSTANTLY) find this wrong..Why you my ask??



Cause If I was one of these kids and saw mommy kissing every single person in the house like a damn whore.....I would be like WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS.....



And knowing my daughter the way I do she would tell her teacher about it and I would have DCF called on my ass so fast your head would spin....



But this is just my opinion......can someone else give me theirs??? I have one person who knows the entire story and is agreeing with me....but I need more insight

13:49 Oct 15 2010
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The gods are punishing me this morning!! Damn dreams of Last week!



Why is that???





*grumbles*

:D
21:12 Oct 14 2010
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Things are better now......Hence why I deleted the last entry!! Thank you for everyone's kind words of support and encouragement!! I ♥ you all

Oy
02:41 Oct 11 2010
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Today was a very tiring day....My nephew was in town to visit and he's 8.......with the energy of a 35 year old.........it's great cause he plays with the little tiger cub and it wears her out!!! (She only plays with other kids while at school and the playground)





I am in a place of realization..Things are in place for a reason......and I'm trying to get out of here ASAP!!

I am bored
01:04 Oct 10 2010
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I need something to do which requires something thoughtful......

House
18:52 Oct 07 2010
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I'm Watching House on tv......Why I don't know?



After a episode where they expirement on a chilld......I couldn't watch it very much after.......



Now there's a unborn child episode on.....and Im watching it......What's wrong with me???



I know it's not real but for people who do this for a living....Damn......*shudders*

Realizations
14:23 Oct 07 2010
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The Nerd And I Broke It Off Early This Morning......For Reasons I Will Not Speak About At This Time......Unless You Are In My Close Circle Of Friends



I Will Say That He Has Shown Me More About Myself That I Have Ever Noticed (With The Execption Of Two Others)



Now Back To Your Regularly Scheduled Programming!

*Ponder*
04:40 Oct 05 2010
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My physical self is here but my mind is in 2 different places at once....



Only a select few know where those 2 places are

"Unhappy Bunny"
15:51 Oct 01 2010
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I have had massive Tooth pain since last night YET AGAIN......I have yet to sleep more than an hour.....

No more tacos for dinner for a while



I feel like just shooting myself in the mouth cause it fucking hurts ALOT

Tonight
02:26 Oct 01 2010
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I'm sitting in front of my computer with the candles light and just thinking.........about what.....everything.....Im going to be here but listening to music and letting my mind wander