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Why do Men have the effect on women that they have...I have sat here and done nothing wrong to anyone in any of the relationships that ive been in and I end up getting the blame and my heart ends up getting ripped out of my chest and sat infront of my face to watch it stop beating....i have this baby in my stomach and now I dont even know what I want in life anymore execpt for my child....All I ever get used for is sex and they dont ever want to love me...All I want is for someone to love me....Is That So Wrong???

Why When My Mother Goes Away I Feel Like The Hired Maid.....Hell I Get Yelled At Even More Now And I Fucking Hate Hormones...This Wouldnt Of Happened If I Hadn't Of Left Colorado....I Miss All Of My Friends There And I Miss Going Out Here I Feel Even More Like A Fucking Hermit...There I Felt Like A Hermit...But Here I Feel Like Im Being Held Hostage....I Miss Everyone There....Except For Him..... All This Wouldnt Of Happened If I Wouldnt Of Gone Out There......To Be With A Man....Im Also Sick And Tired Of My So Called Friends Canceling On Me Cause Their Sick And They Think Im Not Fun Anymore Cause Im Pregnant Damn It I Can Still Be FUN!!! I've Been Crying Non Stop tonight For No Reason...I Know ITs Hormones But I Still Hate It...I Mean I Was In Love With The Boy....And I Always Will Be Cause Hes The Father Of My Child....But Im Sick Of Thinking Of HIm And Dreaming Of Him And Knowing He's Thinking Of Me....I May Be Nuts But Thats My Sixth Sense...I Know When People Think About Me And I Know When Something Is Wrong With People...Anyways Back To My Own Self Pity!!!



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Yes I Know That This Is A Tori Amos Song Title But Today Happiness is A warm gun for me today....The Reason being is that i no longer need a man to be happy....The Dumb Fuck Doesnt Phase Me And I Could Really Give Two Fucks Less What He Thinks......I have the best thing that I could have from our relationship in my belly...Our Child Who Will Love Me Unconditionally And I Will Love That Child Till Enternity.....Anyways...I'm Off Of Journal Writing For Right Now!!!



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Wee The Day Before A Fucking Hurricane...YAY!!! Heh...People are always nice before hurricanes...thats cause they know that most of the time their stuck in their house for the entire day im hoping that my appointment wont be cancelled tommorow i have to have bloodwork!! YUCK Just What I need to be stuck with needles...WOOO

Now Why I Havent Realized This till now is beyond me...Granted there are some kids who are older than 18 who are immature..but most of them arent...I was talking to a 14 year old this evening who hates children because they are to much to take care of and they cost money...hell everything costs money in society....it all depends on how much...but to hate children when you are still a child..WTF IS YOUR PROBLEM!!!

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Now Here I Am Pregnant With Kraven81's Kid and Doing All of the things that I promised myself I would never do when I was under the age of 25 and not married....Men Are Physically Only Good For Sex Most Of The time...and When The Emotional Shit Happens Thtey Run...A Really Good Friend On VR Said To Me This And Im Not Giving YOu Sources...for some reason guys think it is easy for us to say we are pregnant, and that we arent giving anything up and so forth but they are wrong. that is why they bolt. they hear those words and are like SHIT, i have to go.... now is this how men feel??? if it isnt tell me please if it is...Get some balls please and step up to the plate.....Which Is Why Thte Headline is "The Most Feeble Minds Will Perish At My Will"