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Yes I Admit....I've Been Distant From VR....It's Because I'm Working So Hard And BLAH There's No Time....I Have Been Trying TO Lose Weight...And In 18 Days I Turn 22....This Time Last Year I Was In Colorado With You Know Who...And Thinking I Was Pregnant....Now Here I Am With Lil Bionic Woman Who I Love And Adore....And Myself...And Suddenly I Ask?? Why Do Woman Always Want A Man In Their Life To Complete Everything???? Yes I Admit I Want A Man In My Life For Many Reasons...The Main Reason....



MY DAUGHTER



I Want My Daughter To Have Some Type Of Father Figure In Her Life...I Don't See Bo-Bo The Sperm Boy Being A Very Good Father Figure (Mother Fucking Cock Sucking Bastard!) So Why Shouldn't A Single Mom Raising Her Daughter On A Limited Income Not Want A Father Figure In Her Childs Life?????





And In Other News Batman...I FINISHED READING OBSIDIAN BUTTERFLY!!!!!!! HE HE HE!!!!



Kisses To All



Je T'aime To The Following People

Annerita

Batman

Dahila

Deity

Sahaharia

Busy...Dad Is Working Overnights So I Watch Lil Bionic Woman Durning The Day..While Dad Sleeps And Mom Is At Work....Mom Comes Home From Work At 2:30...I Go To Work Till 9:30 And Dad Works From 7:30 P.M Till 3 A.M....







This Is Why I Haven't Been Online....No Batman,Yummy Queen,Sahahria, Annerita...I Haven't Been Ignorning You...Computer Is In The Parents Room...This Is The First I've Been On In Over A Week!!!!!!!!!!

For The Past Few Months I've Been Neglectling Myself.....Well Right Now I'm Taking MY Own Personal Time.....Listening To Music I Haven't Listened To In MONTHS..... This Is On My Agenda For The Day Till My Mother Gets Home So We Can Have Our Daily Day Together...



My Playlist



My Chemical Romance

H.I.M

White Stripes

Sublime

Muse

Hoobastank

Fiona Apple(Classic Feminist Music) Or For What Dahila Describes Me As A Classic Men Basher

(Which Is What Fiona LOVES TO DO)

Tori Amos...:D

Inxs (Old School Before Michael Hutchence Hung Himself)

Bush





Ahh Time To Dance....:D



I Need Some Time Before My Pixie Wakes Up For Her Next Ba-Ba......She Doesn't Like Mommy Very Much ATM Cause Yesterday I Took Her To The Doctor To Get SHOTS!!!!!!!! It Broke My Heart To See Her Crying So Hard

July 4th,2006 6:40 P.M.



Ok So Work Is UBER Boring....So I Was Reading Danse Macbre On My Break When I Started Thinking....I'm a 21 Year Old Woman Who's Never Going Tot Have A Person Love Us (By Us I Mean Myself And My Daughter) I'm Different...Am I??????? Batman....Am I Really Richard The Stupid??? I've Been Betrayed By So Man Men I Have Loved And One That I Still Truly Love (No It's Not Bo-Bo The Sperm Boy) I Really Just Wish That I Could Wake Up With Someone Next To Me....And Treat My Daughter Like She's His Own. Is That So Hard To Ask???? I Love Lil Bionic Woman More Than Anything In This World. But What Is Wrong With Wanting....Queen Is Playing Over The Store Radio....This Quote Works All To Well For Me...."Can Anybody Find Me Somebody To Love??" I Want The Picture Pefect Life That My Parents Have....Happy Marriage, Love That I See In Their Eyes Constantly, 3 Wonderful Children, And 2 Wonderful Grandchildren...... My Daughter And I Are Happier Without Bo-Bo The Sperm Boy...I Just Want Someone To Fill Our Void...A Boyfriend Or Husband (Whichever Order), A Father Figure For Lil Bionic Woman, And Just Happy Little Family...



If Someone Thinks That This Entry Is Just Me Thinking About Myself You're Sadly Mistaken....I Want More Than Anything For MY DAUGHTER TO Have A Father Figure In Her Life.....And Maybe Someday Siblings.....Bo-Bo The Sperm Boy Walked Out On Being Her Father Figure The Day He Told Me (While Pregnant With His Child) To Get The Fuck Out...So I Did...I Called The One Person Who Has Been Their For Me Since Birth...My Mother...She Helped Me Get Out Of That Rathole Insfeted Place I Was And Leave The Life I Had Behind...Cause I Know That If We Were Still Together (Bo-Bo The Sperm Boy And I...I Would Be Miserable And Probably Dead...Ladies Who Read This Journal And Know Who Im Talking About...He Abused Me) Yes I Admit That Now...Even My Parents Know All Of This.....





Lately I've Been Feeling Like Someone Has Been Watching Me In My Head...And I've Been Feeling Their Emotions....Maybe Its Just My Psyche Saying STOP....But I Think That It's Some Sort Of Power That I Don't Really Know How To Embrace..HELP ME!! SOMEONE ANYONE!!! Batman,Yummy Queen, Annerita,Sahahria...HELP ME PLEASE!!!!!!!