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I feel the anger rise up in me

The same anger

That makes me bleed

Inside

In my heart and in my soul

Killing me

With soft whispers of hate

Softly and deeply

But quickly my blood flows

Outwards and pouring

Showing its true power to the world

Slowly but surely

It destroys me

I am not it

But it has become me

Angry is all I seem to feel lately

Why can’t I just once be free

From the anger that’s trapped inside me

The anger which you provide

The anger which you create

The anger that’s inside me now

Only at me it eats

The only emotion we ever shared

Was anger

The only words we ever said

Were yelled

Why can’t you accept me the way I am

The way I want to be

Instead of turning me into somebody else

The person you wished you could be

I am not you

And never will be

Your thoughts are your own

So how can I know what you’re thinking?

I can’t

But you expect me to

You yell and scream and hate

For I can’t read your mind

Though I try

Anything to make you happy

To stop the fighting and the screams

To stop the constant anger inside me

Pleasing you shouldnt be so hard

You push me away

You ignore my words

What will it take

To rid myself of this anger

To free myself of the burning hate inside

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AzriellaRipley
00:05 Apr 06 2010

Wow, that is sooo wicked-cool.

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therealthing
05:55 Oct 27 2010

I found myself wanting to give you tons of advice and make it all better

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I cant take this anymore

Your lectures

Your anger

Your accusations

Its too much

Youve pushed me too far

My heart wanted you

At one point in time

Now I see

That we were never meant to be

My heart cries

My insides burn

Realization kicks in

Hurt, loneliness, anger

Longing for compassion

Wishing for a resolution

This pain needs an ending

You caused it all

Your immaturity has no purpose

You torture and lie

My heart is covered in glass

But inside is steel

You try to break me

You try to shake me

But never will I fall

Youre weak

And alone

I dont need you

Your heart needs to move on

from what will never be

You say youre done

But what you havent realized

Is that this has been over

For quite some time

Youre never ending obsession

Of what will never come back

Has pushed you too far

And terrified me

Im not to blame this time

Oh no not today

Look in the mirror

Look deep into your own eyes

Those beautiful piercing eyes

You dont need anything from me

Dont you see what you need?

You need yourself

Dont open up so easily

Be tough

Be stubborn

No one will do it for you

Neither will I

Because Im done.

Ive hurt you once

Ive hurt you twice

Endless times Ive done wrong

Never have I done something right



Im done trying to please

Im done trying to satisfy

Im done pretending

Im done fooling myself



Fuck you and your stupid ego

I cant do anything right in your eyes

You see me as a burden

Youll never hold me like you used to



Ive tried being a new person

Ive tried starting over

I can never be the same

The girl I loved to be



You say you love me

You say things like forever and ever

Nothing but lies

Slip from that pretty little mouth



Your heart is little

Your heart is a black hole

Looking for little girls

To capture and swallow them whole



Every word you say is a lie

Every breath you take is another knife to my heart

Your touch burns my skin

The sight of you makes my body quiver



My heart aches when you say my name

My knees go weak when you touch my face

Tears stream down my face when you kiss me

My soul dies when you walk away



You dont care about the hurt youve caused

You just walk away like nothing happened

Why wont you just talk

And tell me what I did wrong



Instead you torture and stab

Revenge has never been this cruel

I cant take this anymore

But I cant just let you go



There is something about you

I cant let slip away

Ive known you for so long

But its time to say goodbye



Life is full of surprises

Both good and bad

Your heart is what I desire

But will never truly have



Once again

As all things seem to be going well

I fuck it up

I ruin all the good things I have



As Ive said before

Im destined to be alone

But Im looking for that someone

To prove that wrong



And once again

Ive thought Ive found that person

All went well...

Then I realize it wont work..



Because Im just another screwup.

Blades from heaven

Come thrashing down

Slaying the demons

Sleeping deep inside



Swords clash

And whips lash

Stopping the bad ones

Who try to escape



Hes trying to kill the devil

Kill the evil thats deep inside

Slash away the bad

And restore the good



Screams fill the air

Blood covers the ground

Broken bodies scattered

Left to burn in hell



Lives have been stolen

Leaving some to mourn

Hearts have been shut down

Like a broken rollercoaster



No one listened to them

No one listened to their cries

No one listened to their warnings

Now look at what remains



The ones who ignored

The ones who pointed and laughed

The ones who mocked God

All burned and broken to nothing



Listen to them now

Listen as they sing and praise

Watch as they sing to the heavens

And thank God for his helping hand



Look in the shadows

Look at the little girl

Clutching her chest

And her head lowered



A dark light comes from her chest

Glowing like a covered flashlight

Her head raises

And her eyes demonfilled



They thought the war was over

But what they dont know

Is the devil possessed this girl

And the war has just begun.