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well here I am alone in my mothers house while everyone is asleep and I'm still awake and can't sleep... all i do is think about my husband and how much I miss him so... along with how I hate him right now cause he left me here while he plays GI Joe... they say it takes a special person to marry someone in the military or that's what I've been told by some people..... well I dunno if that's true or not but Damn him for leaving me here to defend for my son and myself while he plays and has really no ties here ... its like we're not even married ... you would think that being married you wouldn't have to ask your own spouse to put money in our joint account or to help pay a bill you would think that they would automatically want to do it ...... I'm still wanting on my wedding ring set and our one year anniversary is coming up and he won't be here for that or anything else that is coming up... is it bad to hate him for all of this I'm not sure maybe it is maybe its not... but all I know is Damnit I'm here and he isn't...

theres comes a time in everyones lifes to where you have to stop and "smell the roses" as some people would say so another words what thier telling you is to stop and take the time to enjoy life every once in awhile... go out hanging out with friends and go to the movies and have dinner with loved ones cause you will never know if it will be the last time you see them... well I regret not being closer to my father in these past few years before his death ... I hated him for what he did to my mother and all but i still loved him too.....I just wished I could have spent more time with him before he died ... its taking a toll on all of us that he isn't here anymore specially on my mother and I'm so worried about her right now...

just me thinking out loud about the things that have gome on in the past 4 months .

I would just like to say thank you to the friends I have left on here... I really do appericate you guys and your support that you have given me ... i wouldn't have made it through these rough times right now !

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queenofchaos
06:02 Mar 10 2008

There are all types of people,

and all types of personalities...

BUT

Thank god for friends....

*smiles*

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