A FOOL there was and he made his prayer
A Fool as you and I !)
To a rag and a bone and a hank of hair
(We called her the woman who did not care)
But the fool he called her his lady fair
(Even as you and I !)
A fool there was and his goods he spent
(Even as you and I !)
Honour and faith and a sure intent
(And it wasn't the least what the lady meant)
But a fool must follow his natural bent
(Even as you and I !)
Oh, the years we waste and the tears we waste
And the work of our head and hand
Belong to the woman who did not know
(And now we know that she never could know)
And did not understand !
Oh, the toil we lost and the spoil we lost
And the excellent things we planned
Belong to the woman who didn't know why
(And now we know that she never knew why)
And did not understand !
The fool was stripped to his foolish hide
(Even as you and I !)
Which she might have seen when she threw him aside
(But it isn't on record the lady tried)
So some of him lived but the most of him died
(Even as you and I !)
And it isn't the shame and it isn't the blame
That stings like a white hot brand.
It's coming to know that she never knew why,
(Seeing, at last, she could never know why)
And never could understand!
He gazes in wonder at the beauty of woman before him,
the glow of the moon's light reflects off the smooth
perfection of creamy skin. He bows, his eyes downcast
as he realizes that his words never reached her.
Night, like a black veil descends now
embracing the world around me.
I sleep, yet do not ... your presence is near.
You invade my every dream ...
even when I am awake.
You walk ... nearly float, sensuous, exotic, unearthly
each step driving my heart against my chest.
Your eyes, sensuous, beckoning draw me
they dance.
I stir, dark desires, fought with prayers
burn within my very soul.
A sound, sweet words falling over ruby lips
caress my heart, my mind, my soul.
Long silky hair swirl over ivory shoulders.
Your smile, sensuous lips curl slowly ... revealing
Long, Pointed, Sharp, White, Glistening.
I rise, ivory arms reach out, beckoning
and pull me to your breasts.
Drifting now, I float freely on a sea of desires,
my heart pounding, my flesh burning against yours.
Our lips touch ... yours move slowly.
A kiss ... sharp with the pleasure of pain ...
against my throat ...
and then you are gone ...
Night's Children now return to sleep
I fight against the gloom as I wake ... reaching ...
But alas, I wake only to your absence.
In darkness ... it is said of ones such as You,
does she dwell ... she is,
the dark seductress who haunts your every dream.
And beware, they say.
for her embrace is ecstasy ... and ... death.
And yet ... I am haunted by your dark beauty
and dancing eyes, and the turn of your lips as you smile.
I have listened and heard your voice singing in the wind.
And now, as Night's Children sing to you
I lie upon my bedding,
cool satin against my fevered flesh, and
my thoughts turn to You.
And sleep will not come ... this night.
No I do not see it
I am here to pay for your pride, nothing else
I know you hide
The empty veil of your life is lifted and you're all alone
Jerk off to the sounds of the night
You have no more
In sick suspense you tease your world
Fantasy is your reality
No shame in the unknown
And no-one knows your name
The city hides the man who cries
Lonely as the wolf
Howl like the devil
But no-one will hear you
Rest in your self-pity
No-one will find you
No-one sees
The world closes its eyes in slumber and you are still there
Your scars run deeper than the river of souls
You bear your scars in the palm of your
Limp-dick hand.
Rain sits like steel on the cold grey dust of our fist-crushed flowers
The flesh the heart too weak for the stench of rotting diamonds
Wet dew of dawn clings like the one we lost
Left behind
We sit
And the rain is cold outside
To touch now seems immortal
Why try?
In the final dying embers of a tortured solar eclipse
There is a beauty which compels fascination
In the burning rain which kills off the instincts of man
There is a fascination which creates madness.
Now we have the survival of the sanest –
In this new and dust-tarnished reality
We are wind-beaten souls
Trying to carve out a new existence
Far from our familiar normality.
The death of the soul – the rebirth of confusion.
Weather-worn and flustered,
Twisted and broken on the cruel wheel of life.
The spheres of destiny spin ever onward
Racing on in their unbroken orbits
'Plus ca change plus c'est la meme chose'
Shadows of the past
Spectres of the future
I am rolling the dice of my life:
I am the wraith that knows no wrath.
One more day, a time for journeying
A time of learning –
The ancient arts and secret wisdoms;
The mystical truths we hide behind
(Shielding reality)
Static...
Yet I know, alone and self-assured
They have shown me knowledge.
Like a blind fool I stumbled on
Before my eyes were opened
(Facing reality)
Static roars...
Fact or fantasy,
Is there a difference?
Why do we live on here?
Divided again
There's a mystery to stifle all others
(Avoiding reality)
Static roars across...
A murmur begins, the rumour persists
Conforms, reforms, transforms
Divides, and yet guides us
Certain of the truth we thunder on
(Detaching reality)
Static roars across the...
'So much style without substance
So much stuff without style'
He said it all so well – a seer out of time
Yet still in touch with how it feels
(Allowing reality)
Static roars across the screen
The world-view ever changing
Yet we remain the same
Pocketed in our places
The prophet speaks the words again
'Detached and subdivided'
Yet we are not all fools – there must be a chance
To right the wrongs of our world.
But the hardest change must come first –
We each have dreams, unfulfilled, unrealised
We each have the switch in our grasp
But lack the courage to touch it.
(Reality withdraws)
Static roars across the screen.
Pause for thought...
'Treachery and treason – there's always an excuse for it':
Can there be an excuse for your kind of duplicity?
No compensation for those hurt in your fury
Or your empty silences... confusion reigns.
There is no explanation for your actions – is the explanation the excuse?
The excuse does not explain, but forgiveness may be granted if your lust lasts.
Fair Fortune is the golden opportunity you threw away when you left me.
Did you think me mad? Foolish?
Deranged (certainly) through love for you – when you turned aside I felt the weight of despair
Splinter the silver auricles of my heart.
How could you not see? Blinded by your dissocation from my reality you saw no further than tomorrow.
A dog at your heels snapped you a warning;
An eagle in the sky screamed help which you ignored;
Careless of care you went on
Past everything that mattered – everyone who cared – past me, above all others.
I could sit alone on my ivory throne – unaware of the danger about me
Never suspecting how things might change.
I just turn the cards and hope.
'Days of barefoot freedom racing with the waves
Nights of...' The music stops. 'There's only the sound of the rain'.
For him there is no night or rather
Everything is night. Or perhaps...?
Who can understand? Who can explain?
There is always night:
Night must fall
On us all
And slowly descend into
Blackness.
That is fact. Therein lies truth – briefly.
But sleep – that is his problem.
Sleep eludes him, he has learnt to hate the darkness.
He lies awake, bleeding silently, saying nothing but thinking much.
And thoughts return again and again
To a mid-west desert in July.
His car, burning up the miles between south and north;
Hope and despair; life and...
Soft lips pouting in the moonlight –
Fair of face and full of grace lies sleeping beside him.
Once more she disturbs his thoughts
(Unconsciously, no doubt, unaware of the effect she has)
Stirs his emotions:
He forgets his train of...
Once more unto the, no, that's wrong –
This is no battle, not yet...
He is forced into surrender by the opening
Blue eyes, the parting
Red lips
Once more she beckons him to her...
Mental becomes physical:
A deadly tearing of nerves
The rush of blood
The crash of a heart-beat
The thud of a pulse
The rasp of breath
With an urgency he cannot ignore she surrenders herself, offers herself – warm, moist and insane with desire – up to him. She wants him, needs him... is at least willing to pretend he is someone else. Physical becomes mental:
As she remembers the past – her past
Not his.
That time when she knew, when she had control,
And her thoughts were uninterrupted
By his lust.
He wants her, needs her... and makes no pretence of it.
The trap is there – open – baited – hidden, yet displayed to her sensitive eyes.
And he smiles – the moment is there (however brief) and they both understand;
Both see beneath
The façade they knew was there, but tried to ignore.
And then the moment is gone, and the sun rises once more.
A time to dream?
Can dreams become reality?
Or is reality simply the re-enactment of twisted dreams?
Obscurity beckons – faceless anonymity
And it is an option we are destined to choose
Time and time again
Until death do us
Part.
Wheels burning on the dusty highway
A trail blazed in the noon-day sun
A summer searing the desert sands
The sound of silence – the wheels, the sun, the sand.
The driver alone, with a companion who sleep –
Restful, forgetful of the heat – and only an endless
Road through the barren wasteland of Nevada.
Driving in this Valley of Death
The silence deafening: to his untrained ear
Like the crystal drops of music – a liquid Danse Macabre.
Where is he travelling to?
What is this road that leads him to wherever?
The road is immaterially material – a fibreless fabric of existence.
He does not see the road, the sand, the sun
(feels its prickling swelter through the cotton of his shirt)
Or the occasional circling eagle... lost in time and space
Both aquile and he.
He dreams: thoughts of his past, his future –
His present is transient and matters not.
The road is symbolic of his quest for truth:
A road to adventure, or misfortune; redemption or damnation?
(Snatches of long-forgotten songs crowd his mind)
Imagery uncovered from its age-long burial...
His past dates from the dawn of primitive time – his future stretches
Into the eternity which awaits.
Yet, at his side, his companion awakes
And the illusion is
Shattered.
Cold reality remains.
Insanity perpetual and life so ineffectual
So curse all intellectual – they will not let me go.
Insanity's reality, reality's banality
Banality's mundanity – and freewill we have no
Remembering, dismembering
How blood of kings would run so far
Is all the world suspended from a pointed crystal star?
The moment heavy, twisted as those painted thought-waves are.
Is all the world a stage and we but players? Perhaps.
Jumping – jolting – jarring: like the modern music's man
Behind the bed the hammers clamour harder than they can.
Twisting – turning – twisted – turned
The hatred of a thousand eyes – deep in my soul they burned
The cause of which I stand accused
(Accursed before I speak)
The whispering voices scream at me
To black immortal murder of the company I keep.
Cold, curt, clipped – their voices; and their eyes:
Like the Master's loathsome dagger, cold steel turned in warm flesh.
Hot blood, cold heart. Fire and ice. Ice and fire. Fiery eyes.
Flaming torches held aloft, my private Salem hill
Bloody murder still to see, and violence at will.
The Number of the Beast is mine, that whoredom – though I deny –
Will mark me evermore.
Babylon is here, now, forever.
And who am I to disagree? Who to fight my destiny?
'Lady Luck is golden – she favours the bold'
Yet I, who was most bold, am thrown aside:
My life to be lived out in the cold
Devoid of interest, faulted flow of fickle pride.
Pseudo-sexual, parti-political
Counted collateral – industrial immunity.
Imperial insanity, diplomatic double-dealing
Remnant reality – picture-book prosperity.
And still my pasta is cold.
Forever, this love that I know in your arms
Forever surrender to your deadly charms
Forever in worship to swoon in your sight
Forever before you, my Angel of Night.
No evil may touch me, while you hold me near
Nor evil corrupt me save yours, my dead dear
Your evil seduces, so strong and so keen
The evil of darkness, of which I am Queen.
Together forever, through fire and ice
Together forever, no less will suffice
I am yours forever, no deadly decay
You are mine forever, through darkness and day.
Immortal beloved, my own darkest love
Immortal you are here, immortal above
Immortal life be ours, the red ruby kiss
Immortal the breath stolen from us by bliss.
Forever my darling, no pain, no denial
Forever we drink from the deep crimson phial
Forever my precious, this battle is won
Forever we're banished from the light of the sun.
Let midnight seduce us, let paradise reign
Through the dark ebon silence, this tainted red pain
Let passion compel us, this lust without measure
And always stay close to this love that I treasure. Your closeness delights me, it fires my soul
Your total corruption, my ultimate goal
And in the dark passion that burns in your eyes
I see a reflection of eternal skies.
So touch me once more, let our bodies be one
In unholy communion, despicable fun
We dance on the edge of a gilt sword, I'm sure
But we'll dance here forever, yes, forever more.
Immortal Angel, my dark desire
We light up the sky with our lustful fire
Hand in hand we dance along
Feeding on them, their blood our song
Though Heaven's denied us
And Hell wants us not
By the sacrifice made
Just look what we've got:
Each other forever
Eternal and deathless
Your hands on my skin
Your kiss makes me breathless
My undead beloved
So pale and so true
So strong here beside me
And thus I love you
Time may not corrupt us
Nor temper us ill
For each night we waken
To find a fresh kill
The darkness surrounds us
Forever our shroud
And so to the full moon
We shall sing aloud
Of love and of passion
And far darker things
Of lusts and perversions
Of intimate sins
My Dark One, caress me
And swear to stay close
And we'll run here forever
Through our night like two ghosts
Immortal Angel, my dark desire
We damn the night sky with our lustful fire
But in darkness we reign til the sun once more rises
In torpor we dream of tomorrow's surprises.
Vampire – lover and killer
The eternal struggle between life and death
Good and evil in your heart.
How I long for your touch –
Your fingers trace my skin with fire and ice
My body explodes with yearning for you –
This lust I cannot bear,
That tears my soul apart,
As I feel your breath upon my throat
As your fangs rip my flesh
And drain my blood.
Oh god, I can feel your cock
So stiff and so pale
Burning inside me as I die,
My last sensation an orgasm
I shall never forget...
Victim – pure and tragic
Your death has fed my lust
Your blood has quenched my thirst
And my cock feels so good within you.
You die with grace, and passion
So keen I almost weep.
You are more beautiful dead than alive –
Your skin so radiant
Your flesh so pale and soft
Your eyes so wide –
That I cannot fight this desire.
Your body yields more unearthly delight
To me now in eternal slumber
And my cock rides your bleeding corpse
To earth my spunk in your fragile shell:
Ashes to ashes and lust to dust...
Dark Angels, thee and me
Raping the night sky together
Taming the darkness with our lustful hearts
Our souls forever damned to revel in death.
They call us Beasts, they fear our kiss
Together we prey –
Immortal love and sex and death
Nothing else matters...
A lone shaft of moonlight cuts through the frozen midnight air
I feel your nearness, scent your pounding blood
The stone on which I sit is icy cold
And in my heart there howls a silent storm.
Your presence thrills me deep inside my soul
I yearn to touch your flawless satin skin
I smell beneath your surface scent the taut caress of fear
A passionate longing to know my name.
Your spirit cries out to me through the trees
You're trembling in the cold and in the dark
O! Come to me, my love
We'll share a single kiss
Let me wrap you in my fatal wings
The guardian of your final breath.
Your eyes hold all the promise of the young
A passion I remember oh so well
So take the final step, come sit her at my feet
Let me embrace you, shroud you in my love.
I am forever, you are but flesh
I can offer you but one thing:
A life beyond all life
A death could never taste so sweet
Let the enchantress possess your soul
You'll never need it more.
Mine is the greatest gift of all
Mine the sweetest kiss
No mortal creature could give you more
Than this merciful pain, this gentle domination.
I am forever your bride
While there is night to hold me
And your breath to sustain me –
You are the focus of each waking moment.
Evil to be so possessed by you
But I must have you or be destroyed.
So come to me, my love
We'll share that single kiss
And all my world I'll gladly share with you.
When we lay together, do you hear my heart
Crying out for your endless devotion?
When love envelops us, can you feel my soul
Devoured by the passion in my deathless eyes?
We must be more than one flesh
We must die and live for each other
Soul to soul, spirit to spirit, heart to heart
Eternally together, we who know what eternity truly means...
Infernal Angel
Infernal angel of the night
How often I have watched your flight
Through moonlit streets so bitter-bright
And ever I have wanted you
And ever I have died.
Infernal angel, sleep by day
To wipe all of your pain away
You seek the night in which to stay
And ever I have bled for you
And ever I have died.
Infernal angel, warrior strong
Who walks by night so aching long
To kill a stranger for a song
And ever I have honoured you
And ever I have died.
Infernal angel, all that is
The star in my own Paradise
Forever more forever lives
And ever I have longed for you
And ever I have died.
Infernal angel, I have tried
For many years my fear to hide
And yet to you I cannot lie
And ever I have yearned for you
And ever I have died.
Infernal angel, please believe
My dying heart, its ache and heave,
Are all for you I cannot leave
And ever I have cried for you
And ever I have died.
Infernal angel, yet remain
Within my heart, within my brain
Still sing to me your dark refrain
And ever I have prayed for you
And ever I have died.
Infernal angel, cast in stone
You walk the streets so oft alone
Yet I still wait here in your home
And ever I have needed you
Yet never more than now
Restless Blood
Moving out of the shadows she transforms herself.
In the flickering lights of the dark street she moulds herself
Into a form of humanity –
Almost perfect.
Gliding through the streets she feels a presence:
A heady wash of human pulses,
Human blood,
Pounding already in her temples as if in anticipation
Of the kill.
She moves like a ghost – silent and sure –
Or like a cat – graceful and sleek.
Everyone sees her, and yet none perceive her.
She is the scavenger in a city of monsters,
And none may bar her passage.
It is midnight – the bells of St Alfonso's clang their warning
To anyone who cares to hear –
And the moment is almost at hand.
She has seen him.
A tall figure, dressed in black, with long flowing locks of a deep ebony.
He carries a silver-tipped cane, a man of distinction, no doubt.
He walks alone, but self-assured.
In the neon glare of a street-light he pauses to adjust his collar before glancing
Back along the passageway.
His eyes glitter, red in the darkness, as he spots her.
One hand, long, pale and bony, reaches out from a lace cuff
Towards her.
She hesitates, unsure at the fateful moment if what she does is right.
But she must advance – his eyes say it as surely as does her heart –
And in seconds she has latched herself to him.
Her mouth pressed to his deep blue vein
Her teeth gnawing at the thin skin to gain a purchase
She pleads for salvation in cries of blood
And with a desperate borne of hunger she tears at his hand
Before he raises her
And forces her mouth onto the open wound on his throat
Where already the blood of life is weeping out
Into the ruffles of his silken collar.
He is her final meal, and her first
For in tasting the blood of the true vampire
She has deserted her mortal life for ever
And the thirst for immortality has at last
Inevitably
Been quenched.
Dark Light
Waking somewhere beyond the veil of night
Velvet loneliness caressing my mourning heart
Crystal teardrops, a sheen of silver on my face
My swollen eyes reflecting the weeping blue
Of the twilight skies
A moonlit opal crouching in the neon glare
Of a streetlight
Heartbroken and desolate in the empty street
Sheltering against the prying eyes of enemies
And false friends in the shroud of the night
Sighing a river of shattered dreams
Into the cold air of the dusty street
Hopes and fears mingle with the broken promises
I should know so well by now
But somehow I thought you'd be different
You'd be kind to me
You'd care
My lonely figure, a wraith in the lamplight
Moonlight, firebright, streetlight
Barely more than a skeleton, a living ghost
Trapped in a physical form that weeps
And grieves and mourns
For you, always for you
My dark angel, my spirit prince
My phantom love
Little more to you am I
Than moths betrayed by the bright light
Of the floodlit sky
But forever I love you...
Crimson Glory
A girl steps out of the darkness,
Scarlet diamonds floating in her long-dead eyes,
A halo of perforated raindrops
In an iridescent circlet of light about her head;
Betrayed by the orange street-lamp
In the midst of her midnight search –
Scavenger hunt for life through death;
The lonely wanderer of night skies,
Always alone in the darkness;
A solitary glimpse of naked light,
The whitest skin, textured in porcelain,
Her ancient skin, stronger than any brash and soulless steel,
Her flesh a silent, aching memorial
To days of lost and betrayed youth;
Ebony net of gossamer hair,
A wreath about her glacial shoulders;
Eyes that glitter with the scorching pain
Of ages past, centuries of half-life;
Ruby demons caressing the cold flesh of her lips
As an incautious drop of crimson life
Bubbles from the crimson depths
To fall upon the cool white of her naked breast;
Death-marks still upon her silky skin
As she steps out of the dusky shroud of night
Into the crown of glittering neon
Around the rain-spattered arc-light
In the empty and desolate city street;
Clothed in funereal black from head to bare feet,
Rags of cloudy darkness
Clinging to her sylphic form
Like cobwebs on a moon-drenched tomb;
Draped in darkness, weeping
In the fire of her own damnation.
Eternal princess of the night,
How beautiful thy savagery seems...
Elegaic
Wraith-like in the lamplight
Fresh blood on your pallid lips
Eyes aglow with unnatural fire
Passion on the rise after the feast
Midnight wanderer
A warrior by moon's silvery light
Fighting your battles within your lonely, immortal heart
Sitting at last beside me
After so many months of waiting for you
At last you've taken my veins' beauty
Hot mouth draining my heart
My blood yielding, inevitable and precious,
Given willingly into your care
Rainbows in the arc-light
A halo in your hair
As you stepped inside my home
Crossed the threshold of guilty longing
And held out your icy, candle-wax hands
To me, at last, to me
The fateful kiss
So nearly fatal
Yet you held back
Your desire was quenched in that draught
While mine still hungered
Aching and yearning for more
For the release I know only you can bring
For a chance to share your perfect life
Maybe if I wait til you sleep
I can break your charm
Taste of your blood
Recreate myself as your unholy mirror
Take the chance myself
Release myself by stealing your magick
Perhaps I can
Perhaps I will...
Vampire.
Ghastly beauty in your silken skin, your tomb-stone pallor
Ringlets of death about your ashen face
Eyes burning with unearthly fire
Your lust for life.
Rise from your grave to follow the call
Blood-lines engraved in your heart
Yield to a moment of desperate hate
To fulfil your love.
I have seen you many nights
Wandering alone in the moonlit streets
Following some scent
Of which I am unaware.
How often have I longed to join you?
How many times have I prayed to you to see me?
Your face is etched in my mind –
My eyes behold you wherever I look
I see your pain
The force that traps you
And I long to release you
Knowing that beauty and death are so close
Slender threads woven into the fabric of my dreams
Will you ever see me?
My vampire love
Will you ever come to me?
Let me share your life, your pain, your love...
We will survive somehow.
By day I sit on your grave-stone
Hoping that you'll hear the words I whisper
In your silent, weeping sleep.
My tears are the blood to resurrect you.
As by night I yearn for your perfection
And you rise again to walk alone
I wonder: will you ever need me?
Ever hear me?
Ever want me?
White-faced and solemn you creep through the streets
Preying on the miserable and alone
Feeding your own pain with the pain of others
Your victims cause you to suffer
More than you do them.
Rather take me – for I can cure you
Rather take me – for I can love you
Rather take me – for I can let you live again
And this eternity may be ours together
If you only come tonight...
Hold my hand and we are invincible
Life and death unite us in the marriage of ages
We are indivisible, indestructible.
Perhaps tonight you will understand.
You may stray beneath my window again
You may perchance look up and see me this time
And perhaps you will realise how I feel
My life is worthless without you
And the mortal world is a tiny place
Compared to your immortal universe
While I sit and dream
Of sublime pleasures to come
And thoughts of you haunt my mind
I will pray that one day soon
You will understand my love
You will understand my words
And all my thoughts will become yours
Once, for all, for ever
My vampire love...
Lost, in centuries of your own innocence.
Steeped in the history of the ancients
Yet unable to resign yourself to your Fate.
You were the first to bravely come forward –
Your courage never failed you then.
Yet how hard it was for you to understand your power.
You saw it as a curse, never a gift.
Eternity awaits you, but your melancholy eyes
Long ever more for the light of mortal day.
How I long to help you. As I hold you
In my arms and kiss your ivory skin –
The soothing embrace of the mother you never knew –
I hear your silent cries for mercy.
You want me to release you, but I know
I never will. Your agony is mine –
Our hearts will always beat in time –
But I cannot give you your freedom.
Mine is not the hand that heals –
Not this time. God, but, Buzy, how I wish
You could understand. Your curse is my life.
Without you I am nothing. I guess in our own ways
We need each other.
My Buzy, unwilling victim of another.
Beguiled by his beauty, as I was by yours.
A preternatural love, this, to last so long
Without consummation.
And sometimes, beyond your sadness, I can see
The bitter reality in your tear-stained face –
In streaks of blood I see your pain, your anger
Unstoppable flow of anguish.
And my eyes bleed for you, Louis, tears are
Blood and salt on my mortal skin as I share
A part of your suffering.
Oh, my love...
You've seen so much. I can but marvel at your life,
That is beyond life, and grieve at your fears,
At the wonderful gift
That is slowly destroying you.
I can but grieve...
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